AN: This is my third chappy haha. Thanks for all of the support guys! Your awesome! I was listening to strawberry gashes when I wrote this.

ONWARD WE GO!


Naruto's POV:

I couldn't feel my body. I guess I should have been grateful to that. But I wasn't. I had no idea where I was and I was completely terrified. With an unimaginable amount of effort I opened my heavy lidded eyes. It was bright and I could see only a plain roof.

"Naruto?"

Who was that?

"Naruto can you hear me? It's Iruka sensei. Listen your going to be okay." I felt him slip his hand behind my head and lift it to place a plain looking pillow beneath my head. I could see the room now. And myself. I was hooked to several machines and had enough tubes and needles in me to be classified a pincushion. I could only identify a few machines and that was the IV drip,and the heart monitor. I glanced to see Iruka's face filled with many emotions. He looked like he had been crying. I noticed he glanced at my arms filled with self inflicted scars. Some were strawberry red and others so old they were wrinkled with age. His eyes frequently flickered to them then my eyes and back repeatedly. Self consciously I twisted my arms to an angle to hide them. "Why Naruto?" I looked away. "Naruto I can help you." "No." I said very softly "But Naruto I-" "I don't need help." I said a bit louder. "Naruto your being stubborn just let me help you" he said sternly. "I know you need help." "With what?" I whispered. He didn't answer. "With what" I said just above a whisper. "Yourself" I waited but he didn't say any more. "What about me?" I retorted. "Being alone?" I said sharply. "What about me?" I shouted. "I'm a monster! You HATE me!" I sat up quickly. "You ALL do!" I stood "Naruto lay back down!" I ripped the cords and needles out of my flesh causing scarlet red blood to ooze out of my arms. "IM A MONSTER! LOOK AT ME! I DON'T NEED HELP! JUST LEAVE ME!" I was screaming now and I had tears flooding down my bloody cheeks. "IT'S NOT FAIR! YOU HATE ME! JUST STOP LYING! WHY DID YOU SAVE ME? WHY? JUST LET ME DIE! I JUST CANT TAKE THE PAIN ANYMORE! THE LONELIENESS IS AGONIZING!" I felt extremely dizzy. My skin turned a sickly pale and my cheeks flushed to almost the color of the blood rolling off my fingertips. The room began to sway and spin. My knees collapsed beneath me with a loud snap and I fell only to be caught by Iruka sensei. I was full out wailing by now. My ears were ringing and my body convulsed I violent spasms. I couldn't hear anything all I saw was Iruka's lips moving and a few medic ninja rushing into the room. I could barely move my head and all I could see was Iruka's vest once green had been died red by blood. It took me a second but I realized it was mine. I could see blood running down my chest and could just barely taste the irony taste of it. I guess I was vomiting blood. I could tell what was happening but just faintly. I could hear a very loud screaming. The voice was trying to get the medics to leave. It was mine I was kicking and could hear my words being drown out by the blood gurgling in my throat. I was kicking and punching and lashing out at everything. I felt a bit weaker after every slash, every punch, every movement. I could see Iruka crying. I heard a medic call a name I couldn't comprehend. A jounin with very tall white hair stepped in and held me down with no effort. I was kicking and screaming. The wailing eased into just tears. I was begging this man to kill me. He just stared at me with a look of interest in his only visible eye. His leaf forehead protector concealed one eye. And I saw him wince when I asked how hard it is to kill somebody. All he said was. "With your power not long at all" he slowly lifted me and placed me into the bed looking into my eyes. He practically read my mind " Suicide is selfish. And it is a very hard thing to do. I've been where you have. You'll get through this. Just wait." and with that he just disappeared in a whirl of dust and leaves.


AN: I had to stop there. If I didn't this chapter would be waaaayyy to long. Please review. No scorches or burns but constructive is VERY welcome. I hope you guys liked it.

WARNING: I am having internet problems so updates will be far apart but I will upload multiple at a time. -shoots computer with a gerbil gun- okies next chappy :P