Looks, Wounds, and Feelings
Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha. (sad)
-Authors Note: Kagome's back, Kagome's back, la la la la la laaa! I'm so happy! Another thing, the rating may go up, I'm still thinking. Well, enjoy chapter 3.
Chapter 3: Love and guilt…
"Calm down, will you?" Inuyasha said, giving Miroku a whack on the head.
"It's just…I'm anxious to see her again! By the way, Inuyasha, did Kikyo call?" Miroku said jumping up and down like a rabbit on crack.
"Yeah she did. We're going to meet her here at the airport. She'll be here in a couple of minutes. "
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Sesshoumaru was in front of Kagura and Kagura was in front of Kagome. Sesshoumaru came to Inuyasha with his arms wide open. "Yasha! How I've missed you!" Sesshoumaru kidded.
"Where is she? Where is she?" Inuyasha, Sango and Miroku were looking around.
Sesshoumaru got Kagome's arm from behind Kagura and said to the group of friends, "Meet Kagome Higurashi."
"Hey guys, it's been a long time…" Kagome waved, trying to not look at Inuyasha at all.
"Welcome back, Kag….whoa! HOLY HELL!….is that you!" Miroku's eyes dropped out of his poor little hentai-infested head. Inuyasha and Sango were completely speechless. Kagome had totally changed!
(A/N: The whole group's expression: OO)
"Yes, it is me." Kagome smiled and went to hug Miroku and Sango. They were almost crying of joy to see their friend back and so, changed! They were so happy for her. Inuyasha was the one who couldn't speak. He looked at her, amazingly surprised.
"So…I've heard that our Kags is going to be a mo-del!" Sango squeaked happily.
"You look so... absolutely... damn... hot! God…!" Miroku said. And... the proverbial 'WHACK'. "Ouch! It was just a simple joke, no big deal, seriously, chill!"
"Yeah, right. You perv!"
"I'm sorry, Sango. Will you forgive me?" Miroku did the infamous puppy face, and Kagome laughed.
Kagome was also surprised by how her friends had changed. Wow, 7 years ago, they were only friends, now they are dating, and they look happy. And it was true. Sango and Miroku loved each other, even though Miroku sometimes went a little bit over the edge, Sango knew it was ok; Miroku would never do anything to hurt her.
Inuyasha was the only one there that could not believe his own eyes. He tried to make eye contact with Kagome, but she ignored him. Whenever Kagome looked at him, her smiled disappeared, and her face turned ghostly and empty; deep inside in her eyes turned icy.
"So, Kagome, I think you can stay in the hotel beside the Takahashi's house, right?" Kagura asked her. Kagome responded by a nod. Her smile was so small, but gentle. Kagura turned to Sesshoumaru and said, "Honey, I think we can go now, right? We should let Kagome stay with her friends for awhile."
"But then how will she get home? The airport is a bit far away from the hotel," Sesshoumaru replied, hefting the luggage.
"Well, she can always get a ride with Inuyasha." Kagura said.
"NO! I mean, I-I can get a taxi. No big deal." Kagome quickly shouted. She did not, under any circumstances, want to get a ride from him.
"B-but Kagome! Miroku and I got a ride with Inuyasha too! Please come with us!" Sango begged.
"No, no thanks." Her mind was still made up. Kagura and Sesshoumaru waved their good byes and went home.
Inuyasha, on the other hand, couldn't listen to anybody's voice except for Higurashi's. His heart was too loud to hear anyone else. He could only see her and hear her voice. He was still in la la land when he felt a cold hand touch his shoulder. When he looked back, Kikyo appeared.
"Hey, Inuyasha! I thought nit over, and, I'm sorry for being so unfair with you," Kikyo came from behind and tried to kiss his lips. Inuyasha just moved away from her, keeping his eyes locked on Kagome.
Inuyasha looked like he didn't care. Usually, when they break up, Inuyasha and Kikyo always made out in front of every body else and they lived happily ever after. But this time, there was not even a gentle kiss on the lips!
"Inuyasha, what is this? I'm trying to forgive you here, would you mind?" Kikyo went right in front of Inuyasha. He was still looking at Kagome's every move. Kikyo quickly noticed that, obviously, and went up to Sango and Miroku.
"Hey guys," she said waving and smiling at them.
"Kikyo! I'm so glad you're here, meet Kagome. Kagome, meet Kikyo, she's Inuyasha's girlfriend." Sango said introducing the two of them and Kagome certainly knew that she was Inuyasha's girlfriend without Sango saying it.
Kikyo, on the other hand, was glaring at Kagome with hatred in her eyes. That girl was stealing Inuyasha from her!
"Nice to meet you, my name is Kikyo Midoriko and yes, I am Inuyasha's girlfriend, so he is NOT available at the moment. Sorry," Kikyo said pushing the word NOT. She was making it very clear that Inuyasha was hers and not Kagome's.
Miroku and Sango were shocked. This was the first time Kikyo said anything like that to another girl. There were silence and Kagome only stared at Kikyo and Kikyo only stared at Kagome. One more second and lightning from their eyes would strike the airport.
"Sooooo, how many boys have you dated in US?" Miroku asked in thought. Everybody was sitting at a table in McDonald's, but didn't order anything, they were just basically talking. Kikyo got another chair and joined the table. Inuyasha was 4 meters away from everybody, just gazing n awe at Kagome's beauty.
"Well, actually, I haven't dated any," Kagome said and glared at Inuyasha. Inuyasha tried to make a sweet eye contact. But did he get what he wanted? No.
"WHAT! NO BOYFRIENDS FOR LIKE, 7 YEARS! I MEAN, YOU'RE 20 NOW! NOT EVEN ONE!" Sango yelled. "Are you serious?"
Kagome nodded. She had lost trust in love and in friendship. Seven years ago, her heart was struck by an arrow. She promised to herself she would never let a little word like "love" get her hurt. She was very grown already, but…sometimes she just felt very lonely deep inside.
"You had like, absolutely NO boyfriends? So you're probably still a virgin, I'm sure. I pity you, you poor girl. Don't worry; I'll make sure some geeks in Tokyo University will notice you," Kikyo said very sarcastically.
Kagome ignored and looked down. Sango and Miroku were still again, shocked. The Kikyo Midoriko they knew was nice and funny and a good Inuyasha face "slapper".
Inuyasha came over to the table, which caused Kagome to immediately get up from her chair and say, "Good bye people! See you all tomorrow okay? I'm going now."
"Waaaiittt!" Inuyasha yelled, going after her.
"WHAT DO YOU WANT!?" Kagome shot back. Inuyasha grabbed her wrist, firmly but gently.
"Will you come with me? I can give you a ride to the hotel," Inuyasha said. He was still very upset for what he had said 7 years ago. And now, his heart was pounding when he looked at her…he didn't know what it was, it was a different pound. A very... unique pound.
"NO! I can still speak Japanese; I can still walk, run, and move my arms and legs. I am totally able to get a taxi BY MYSELF! Now, if you don't mind, I'm going to leave," Kagome tried to walk away quickly carrying her large bag with high heels.
"May I at least help you?" Inuyasha asked standing his hands by her luggage.
"As I said before, NO! I am capable of doing things on my own." Kagome said as she tried to run.
Sango, Miroku and Kikyo were following them, hearing everything they said to each other. Kikyo was surprised. She did not know they were enemies or something, and Inuyasha was acting all…Mr. Nice Guy.
"I WANT TO HELP YOU, OK?" Inuyasha yelled, pushing her away from her luggage and getting it himself. Note, he pushed her away gently.
"STOP IT! STOP IT!" Kagome had little tear balls in her eyes. "STOP IT! WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BOTHER ME SO MUCH!" and with that, she just ran away forgetting her luggage with Inuyasha.
Inuyasha was walking back when he saw Sango, Miroku and Kikyo.
"Does she still hate me so much?"
"By that reaction, obviously." Miroku replied.
"O…k, now that that's over, Inuyasha, I am forgiving you and now, we can date again. I will never get mad at my little sweetie again," Kikyo said in a baby voice going over to hug Inuyasha.
Again, like before, Inuyasha just moved away, sighing.
"OK, THAT'S IT! WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?" Kikyo screamed. "Why are you soo, like soo, I don't know, all sad face while I'm getting back to you! Gosh! It's like, annoying."
"Go find your little other guy that you always cheat on me with and bother him. Leave me alone for God's Sake," Inuyasha sighed. "Let's go Sango, Miroku."
"What about the luggage?"
"I'll give it back to her myself."
"Uh…I don't think it's a good idea." Sango replied.
"Whatever, I've already gotten slapped a million times by Kikyo. What else could go wrong?" Inuyasha, Sango and Miroku walked away, leaving Kikyo behind, fuming.
"ARE YOU SERIOUS?" Kikyo yelled. "YOU ARE GOING TO LEAVE ME LIKE THIS! NOT EVEN A RIDE! GOSH! WE-ARE-THROUGH!"
"You heard what Kagome said. You know how to talk in Japanese; You know how to walk and run and move your arms and legs. Get a taxi." Inuyasha moaned.
"Breaking up again, and again and again." Miroku joked.
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Inuyasha was home and very anxious to open Kagome's luggage. His heart bounced when he opened it.
It was like normal clothing, pants here, panties there, shirts and yada yada ya. But one thing got his attention. A diary. He flipped the first pages and read. He was happy when he realized it was seven years ago, some days before he destroyed her.
Of course she didn't write in it everyday. Sometimes one entry in two weeks…. It only had important things written in it.
He smiled when he read how madly in love Kagome was with him. But then…he flipped to that page and his heart sunk. The same day he dumped her, just like that.
The way Kagome described at first, how love could be amazing, how she loved Inuyasha, how cute and cool he was, and everything was CRUSHED. He read more and more. She didn't have any friends at the University from the United States because she always backed away from them.
She had to say sorry very gently for many guys that asked her out, and her reason to dump them was because she didn't believe in love. Inuyasha burst out crying, even though that's a little weird for a man. He wanted to punch himself in the face a million times! He wanted to get himself beaten badly. He hated himself for what he did to that caring, sweet little girl seven years ago.
He felt so bad that he wanted to go to her and do whatever he had to just to see her happy again. He flipped some pages and read more. He was a murderer. He killed feelings. Although he did not kill physically, he killed somebody mentally. He felt depressed and upset. You couldn't imagine how sad he was.
So then he promised…he was NOT going to let things alone, just like that. He was going to make it up to her, do whatever he could. He wanted to punish himself for being a killer. And he was so confused. His heart had a different kind of beat when he saw Kagome and touched her. What the hell was that feeling inside him? Nothing mattered right now until he was forgiven and punished. He felt what he had never felt before. What was that feeling! Love? Shame? Both?
Now, not even he knows what love means to him. But he felt the bitterness of guilt.
