Cursed

Well I'm actually surprised that this story is getting good hits ^_^. Well the next chapter is going to be a bit more intense and I sorry to all Kanda fans but, in this story he will be on everyone's shit list….That is all. Listen to either Missing by Evanescence or Tamashii no Iyashi by Wada Kaoru the entire chapter.


A few days had gone by since that first morning at breakfast with the Noah Family and I hadn't really left Tyki's room. Unless it was for food I found myself either curled on the bed silent tears running down my face, playing silent poker with Tyki and would actually lose because my mind was elsewhere, or I was out on the balcony starring up at the sky. Every now and then Road would pop up and see how I was and would try to drag me away but I'd kindly decline and stay put. Tyki understood what I was going through and would never push me to leave the safety of the room, but I knew he was worrying about me. He made it his own personal vendetta to not leave my side unless he positively had to. At the moment on the morning of my fourth day in my new home Tyki had been called out for a Noah Family meeting that Road had called and I wouldn't be surprised if she called the meeting in regards on how to help me. I knew her and the Earl were right about that I need to talk about that night, but as the Earl had suspected… I was afraid of Tyki leaving me. Leaning back against the railing of the balcony closing my eyes as the soft gentle wind slowly eased me to sleep which was something I wasn't doing much like eating.


I immediately recognized where I was the moment I had entered the dream and I saw myself following behind Yuu Kanda and Lavi Bookman in the hotel towards that room. I tried to make myself turn and run but I found that I wasn't able to since this was a memory and not your normal dream. Every fiber of my mind screamed for Tyki or anyone to wake me up as the three of us entered the room. The two were arguing again once Lavi had called Kanda by his given name and all I could do was sigh and walk over to the third bed and gently drop my luggage next to the bed.

"Hey Allen! Wanna come with me to the field and go star gazing?! Tonight there's supposed to be a meteor shower and I doubt Yuu is going to come so he can stay and watch the innocence we acquired!" Lavi asked happily bouncing over to me and I could only find myself smiling up at him.

"Sorry Lavi but I'm kind of tired, you go enjoy it and tell me all about it kay?" I hear myself say but I'm screaming inside to say yes. I watch as Lavi gets a disappointed look but it immediately changes again as he bounds away to go watch the stars. I shack my head and begin to slowly change into my sleeping attire trying to ignore Kanda. Him and I were on even worst terms then since he had found out I was dating someone outside of the order. He had been the only one to not approve, especially when Komui didn't send me on many missions after that. I feel myself tense up at the feel of bare arms wrap around my arms and stomach bringing me into a bare chest. I already knew who it was then and I knew who it was now.

"K-Kanda?!" I panic trying to wriggle out of his grip as I feel him beginning to nip and suck on the skin on the back of my neck. "St-stop…" I then beg but he continued tightening his hold around me.

"Why couldn't I have been the one you chose Moyashi?" He whispers and I whimper as he nips onto the lobe of my ear one of his hands descending from my stomach into the front of my pants. I wanted to scream but I found myself unable to.

"Please…don't." I cry as he continues to nip at my neck his other hand making sure to keep me pressed against him. I yelp when I feel his hand roughly grab onto me and slowly begin to move it up and down one of him his fingers pressed firmly on the tip. I feel myself about to scream out for help but I'm roughly pushed against the wall near us and his free hand pressed firmly against my mouth as his one hand releases me to be pulled out and begin removing the rest of my clothes.

"What does that man have that I don't Moyashi?! Why did he have to be your choice when you could have chosen me someone who is already in the order?!" He hisses into my ear and I hear him fumbling with his own pants as I feel the tears finally leak from my eyes as muffled sobs came out. I was screaming soon as I had felt him enter me without any kind of preparation. My hands were pressed against the wall in some sort of support digging my nail into the wood as I screamed into his hand to stop, but that only made him speed up and harden his thrusts. In my mind I screamed for Tyki knowing by then he was a Noah and hoped that he would hear me in his mind and come for me, I went as far as screaming for Road as well. Soon I was tossed onto the bed instantly curling up into a ball after he had finished only to flinch when he towered over me bringing his mouth near my ears. My eyes were wide in panic and fear afraid of what he was going to do next.

"You tell anyone about this Moyashi and I will ensure that the rest of your life will be a living hell! Better yet keep in mind that when your precious boyfriend isn't around you now belong to me." He hissed before standing back up and vanishing and I knew it was into the bathroom. I found myself grabbing my clothes which ended up being my black cotton pajama pants and black t-shirt quickly putting them on before running out of the room. My mind set onto only one thing and that was to find Tyki or someone who could take me to him. I vaguely remembered I had passed Lavi in the hallway and ignored him when he had called out to me. I had ran out into the town and just kept running even when I exited the town into the woods. Everything in me was screaming with panic and for only a image of an inn somewhere in these woods kept me going; even when dark clouds drifted in and a down pour of rain fell about me. I had stumbled many times while running but each time I would get back up and keep going until I had reached that building. It was surrounded by Akuma and I knew it was a meeting place for the Noah Family. There was this feeling that someone had led me there and my question was answered when Road walked out of the building looking around. I was still leaned up against a tree within the shadows digging my nails into the bark. I could still feel my eyes wide in panic and the fear only grew when she began to turn to head back inside.

"WAIT!" I had screamed tremors running through me as fear of being left there built up. "Please…Road." I cried unsure if she heard me as I finally slumped down to the ground. She was over to me in seconds her arms encircling around my shoulders.

"Allen?! Why are you here?! How the HELL did you even find this place?!" She asked and I knew she wasn't the one showing me the image of where to go.

"Ms. Road?" I hear a female voice.

"Mimi go tell Lulu Bell to contact Tyki and tell him to get here now! Tell Jasdevi to get out here and help me immediately I can't carry him on my own!" She barked orders, and as the person had run off everything around me had came crashing down as I dug my fingers into my hair and just let out an anguished scream unable to stop even as Road held me to her tightly trying to calm me down.

"Road!" "Road!" I hear two people yell and run up as my scream eventually stopped because I just couldn't anymore and I felt my entire being go numb.

"You two help him inside to Tyki's room I'm going ahead of you to find him some dry clothes. Whatever you do… Please I beg you don't do anything just help me help him until Tyki arrives!" She barked orders, but the moment anyone other than Road and Tyki went to touch me I went into a panic screaming and trying to get away. The rain only began to fall harder around us as the three Noah Family members and soon Lulu Bell all tried to restrain me just so I could get inside.

"Allen it's okay, it's okay please stop and lets us get you inside!" Road begged after a while also unable to touch me as Devit had wrapped his arms around me trying to subdue me.

"Let him go Devit that's enough!" My screams immediately stopped when I had heard his voice and I frantically looked around, I was thankful when Road stepped out of the way and I saw Tyki. I had finally fallen silent and the moment Devit had release me I ran straight to Tyki wrapping my arms around him clutching onto him as I broke into hysterics. I felt his arms around me gently holding me as he shushed me that everything would be okay and eventually I stopped and just stood there feeling numb once more letting Tyki lift me into his arms and take me inside and through a doorway which took me to his room in the ark. After that all other events were a blur cause when I returned to the order I had found out Kanda had followed me and I ran.


My eyes open and let out the sob I was holding in once I saw I was staring at Road's concerned face Tyki stood behind her just outside the balcony door. I couldn't tell what either of them were thinking but I knew that I wouldn't be able to hide it for much longer and I felt myself curling up into a ball but Tyki was over to me and stopping me the moment I tried. I fought against him.

"Allen please you need to stop you're killing yourself!" He snapped and I only cried harder just wanting a few more moments, a few more days even years before I could ever tell him.

"Tell him Allen." I hear the Earl say and I only shook my head violently refusing to tell Tyki.

"Millennium sir don't make him…" Tyki began but he was cut off.

"Allen Walker tell him what happened or you will never be able to get over it and will always have that fear of it happening again!" The Earl snapped and I just leaned forward my head resting against Tyki's chest as sobs came loudly from my mouth.

"I can't please… don't make me do it!" I begged clutching onto Tyki's shirt afraid he'd disappear and that if he left my entire world would just end.

"Tell him now!" The Earl yelled and all that could be heard was my sobs as the moment came that would decide if Tyki stayed or left me.

"That night when I came to you broken…was beacause…" I began fresh tears falling from my eyes blinding my eyesight. I clutched on even tighter to Tyki afraid to know what he was going to do.

"…Was because he…he…raped me." I finally cried out and I felt Tyki's body become stiff and I was afraid to look up to see what his expression was.

"Road…" He voice shook from an emotion I never heard come out of him and soon I am pulled off of him and held into Roads arms as I watched Tyki stand up and walk into the his bedroom at first pacing.

"Ty…ki." I chocked out afraid that the worst was going to happen. Suddenly I watch as Tyki lets out a yell of anger and slams his fist into the a large crack forming throughout the entire wall as his body began to shack. I don't know what came over me but I soon found myself running out the door and Road yelling after me to come back. I was sure he hated me now, he now knew I wasn't the pure person he thought I was.

'I'm sorry…I'm sorry…I'm sorry!' I repeated in my head over and over as I ran through the ark and I still don't remember how I got out and began running through the forest of some country I had no idea where. I suddenly yelp when a pair of strong arms wrap around me.

"I'm sorry…I'm not angry at you. I swear!" I hear Tyki say as he held onto me tightly. I could only whimper as my legs give out under me and he lowers us to the ground and he holds onto me tightly.

"I will kill that samurai this I swear to you Allen. I will make him pay for hurting you." He says and I could only cry curling into him as he only held me.

"I'm sorry…I'm sorry…" I could only say and he rocks me side to side brushing his fingers through my hair making shushing noises to calm me down. I soon find myself back in the blackness of my mind. I don't know how long I am out but when I wake up again I am lying in Tyki's bed with him next to me his arms wrapped around me tightly.

"I'm sorry I never told you." I whisper my voice blank from the over use of my emotions.

"Don't apologize for that Allen, that's not something you can easily tell anyone about. Most people will go through it and never once tell anyone. I promise to never leave you Allen, I will be by your side and will always protect you. And I swear to you that the day I come face to face with that samurai…I. Will. Kill him." He hissed the last part and I could only nod my head and just snuggle into him.

"Tyki?" I hear Roads tiny voice and he shifts to turn and look towards his door.

"He's awake now Road you can come in" He said softly and I sit up placing my hand against my head as Road walks over and sits on the edge of the bed.

"Are you going to be alright?" She asked and I can only nod my head not trusting my voice at the moment.

"I'm glad…I don't want to lose you now that you're part of the family Allen…I don't like seeing anyone of my family members like this. I want you to be able to trust us." She says and I soon find myself crawling over to her and hugging her.

"Thank you Road…thank you so much." I whisper unable to stop the tears once they began to fall again and Tyki soon is hugging both of us.

"Welcome home shonen." He says and I can only cry more at how happy I was to be there.