Disclaimers: I don't own Vampire Diaries
Vie: Thanks for your review! To answer your question: This is the Damon from the TV show. It was a mistake, I forgot his eyes were blue too, but I'll correct it. And yes, she was crazy all along.
Summary: The evening before her birthday, Bonnie can't sleep, thinking about her relation with Damon.
The room seemed to be colder than usual, and the bed smaller. He kept an arm around her waist, and she felt trapped. Yet, they had always slept like this, and she had always slept tight. But this time, it was different, and she couldn't stop thinking. She kept her eyes open, staring at an invisible point. Tomorrow was her birthday. She was going to be thirty years old.
« Why do you want to leave ? »
Bonnie gently removed the arms of her boyfriend from her body, not wanting to wake him, and sat on the edge of the bed. Her head was inclined, staring at her feet, which were swinging back and forth, brushing the cold ground at every movement. She felt empty.
She wanted to stop time, and lay back on the bed, with him. Bonnie wanted to live with him forever. And the worst part was that she could.
« It doesn't matter Bonnie... I just have to turn you. »
The brunette didn't want to think about it. She just wanted to stay here, and live like they always lived. But this thought obsessed her, she couldn't sleep anymore. He wasn't aging. And even though she hated it, here, she was only wasting her time. Waiting made this situation even worse. She felt trapped.
Yet, the day, everything was fine. Everything was fine because he was there, by her side, and they talked, they kissed, they fought. He was on her mind. All became more difficult when the sun was gone. When he was sleeping, and when the room was quiet, cold. She was alone, confronted with herself, with her feelings.
« I want to stay human, Damon. »
If only she accepted this transformation. They would be able to stay together, they would finally live happily. And she would finally get rid of this constant anxiety which was killing her. But Bonnie couldn't do this. She wanted to be human, to feel her heart beats, have a family and grow older. And she knew that Damon wasn't a part of this life.
But she stayed with him, unable to leave. She wasn't brave enough to go, leaving him behind. Even though she knew that she would fall in love again, and that she would probably be happier with another man. She loved him, and for now, it was all that mattered.
« Breaking up is the only reasonable thing to go. »
A sleepy voice was heard behind her, asking her what she was doing. Bonnie stayed silent a few seconds, before going back to bed, without answering him. A draft made her shiver, and she moved closer to Damon. This one was already asleep, but put an arm around her, bringing her even closer. A small smile appeared on the brunette's face, as she finally closed her eyes.
« Stop acting so reasonably. We'll find another solution. »
Soothed by Damon's respiration, the brunette was about to fall asleep, when she took a deep breath. She loved him, really. And that was why in the morning, she would leave.
