Disclaimer: I don't own Instant Star. The only things I own in this are the songs and the poetry. I will credit the original artists or writers if I didn't write it.

Chapter 3: Dreams and Discoveries

I drifted off into a dream state. The dream was weird. It involved one night when I was on tour with BoyzAttack; it was the night after I announced that I was done. It was the night of the final concert. My friend, Anne was their. I had given her three backstage passes and three front row tickets to bring friends/guests of her choice.

It was right after I walked off stage, she was there with this gorgeous blond that had lightly green tinted eyes, and she looked about fifteen. Then she was standing beside this red head. Her hair was radiant like a burning flame with the rare icy blue eyes, and she was humming a tune.

She looked about thirteen. I was nineteen. I remember that me and the red head walked around and her sister stayed behind. She told me that she was a songwriter, and that she was trying to pursue and career in music. We talked for what seemed like hours, by the time we got back to my dressing room it was about midnight and I remember Anne, telling me it was time to go. I remember giving the red head a journal that was blank, with a note inside of it.

When I woke up, it dawned upon me that the red head was Jude. She was there because Sadie dragged her, she didn't want to be there at all. It was light when I looked over. I kept running my dream in my head. It was so weird, because I actually had feelings for her.

'No, you couldn't have had feelings fir Jude when she was that young.' I told myself.

I looked down and Jude was asleep, with her head on my chest. I looked over at the clock and the power was still out. I reached for my cell trying not to wake Jude up and it was nine o'clock in the morning. It dawned upon me that it was a Wednesday morning and Jude was still in school. But, she was already late enough, so I just let her sleep.

After a few minutes I fell asleep again. Jude still had her head on my chest and when I woke back up my arms were wrapped around her as if I didn't want her to ever leave. He finally opened eyes and she looked into mine and she looked at me surprised that I didn't move my arms.

"What time is it Quincy?" she asked still tired.

"Let me look." I reached over to my cell and looked at the clock.

"It's about ten until noon."

"Oh no, I missed school. Oh well I can just tell them I was recording today."

"You alright Harrison, you got pissed and relieved in the same sentence."

"Yeah, it was way too many thoughts running through my head at once."

"You want to get some lunch?"

"Sure. Did the power come back on yet?"

"I don't think so, the clocks not blinking yet."

We both got up. I walked into the kitchen and Jude went into the bathroom. I was rummaging around to see if I had anything worth eating here when I realized I didn't. I walked back into my room and snuck into the bathroom hoping Jude was done. She was getting out of the shower and I walked in on her again.

She didn't have any clothes on and she didn't really notice. Her back was turned towards me and I couldn't believe my eyes. The steam was heavy and thick. I was blinking my eyes, rapidly. When she turned around she was as shocked as I was. I went over to her and kissed her.

I put my arms around her wait and kissed her like there was end. I kissed her and she kissed me back. It felt like everything around us was melting away. That kiss was full of passion, longing, and everything in between. I pushed us up against the shower door, and then she pushed us off again and we were out of the bathroom and on my bed.

"Jude, I love you." I whispered in her ear, breaking the kiss for a brief second.

"I love you too." She whispered back.

I was on top of her and she kissed me fiercely and with passion. I moved down on her kissing her neck, her chest and all the way down to her belly button and back again. She moaned slightly, and I kissed her more. She rolled us over and she was on top of me. My pants dropped to the ground, and she was kissing me all over.

A few hours later Jude was asleep in my arms and I was asleep as well. I couldn't believe what just happened between us. I didn't regret any of it but, I hoped that Jude wouldn't expect me too. I looked over at my phone and it said that it was almost four o'clock. I was in shock, and amazed at us. In my mind we were together, and it was that way in my heart too.

About two hours later, Jude woke up. We had spent the entire day wrapped in each others arms. Jude looked at me, and I looked into her eyes and I could tell she was waiting for it to happen. She was waiting on me to tell her to forget it and that it wasn't real. But, I wasn't going to do that. I knew it would kill her if I did. I couldn't make myself do that because it would be a lie. I wasn't going to break her heart again because she wasn't eighteen. That was it, I don't care if we hide our relationship or don't hide it, and I'm with Jude always and forever.

'Oh my god, what did we just do? I just had sex with my sisters' ex-boyfriend whom I have had a crush on forever. I know what he's going to do. He's going to tell me that it was a mistake, I know he will.' I was thinking to myself. I could feel a tear forming on the side of my eye and I knew I was about to cry, and there was no use holding it in.

I let it out and then they kept coming.

'This is stupid. Jude pull yourself together. He walked in on you naked, and then he kissed me and we are both in this. I love him and he did whisper he loved me, didn't he.' I was thinking to myself. I wasn't sure if my mind was playing tricks on me or if I was dreaming.

'Oh no, she thinks I'm going to tell her it was a mistake. That's why she's crying, I know that's why.' I told myself.

"Jude please don't cry." I told her. I reached towards her face, and wiped the tears off of her cheek.

"Why Tommy, why don't you want me to cry. Because it will make you feel better about breaking my heart. Because you'll feel like a man, after you tell me you love me and you sleep with me." She was crying harder now.

"No, I'm not. I want toe with you and only you Jude. I don't care anymore, I'm done with it. I'm done hiding how I feel and I am done waiting for you to turn eighteen. I really don't care, I Love You, that's a god given fact. I can't explain it but, I know that it's real, so please don't cry because I know you were thinking I was going to say, that it was a mistake and forget that this ever happened right?" I told her. I could tell she believed me because she stopped crying and she kissed me, and I kissed her back.

"Your serious, you want to be with me, and you don't think this was a mistake?" She asked me in disbelief.

"Yes, I am telling you the truth. I want you and only you, and no one else."

About thirty seconds after that, my doorbell rang. I got up and out my pajama pants on and answered the door. I didn't want to leave Jude but I did, and it killed me to e away from her for more than a second. I walked out to the door and answered it. It was Darius, with Georgia, and EJ.

'Uh Oh' was all I thought in my head.