A/N: Sorry, sorry, to all that read my fanfic! I am apologizing in advance for any OOC(out-of-character) performances that Haseo gives. I can't help to pick on the guy from time to time! –wink- So, please continue to read as I try to get IC with Haseo!
I think I used up all the tears I had last night. Stupid over emotions of my stupid teenage brain. Relaxing against the wall in the guild, I couldn't help but replay the conversation over and over like a broken record.
"I thought you love me, Ovan! I'm different!"
"A human with emotions, Ovan!"
"Haseo."
"Say it."
"I love you, Haseo."
I sighed again, making sure I remember every word, reading the log carefully. No mistakes. He said it when I asked him to. And I had no idea how I felt about that…confession…? Who knows but me? I didn't care.
Shino enter the club with Tabby wrapped around her. She smiled at me as I acknowledge her, pulling away from the ever so tempting dreamland.
"Tabby, could you please…let me go? I like to speak with Haseo." Shino spoke softly to Tabby who nodded happily and left the guild, her tail twitching behind her. "Haseo."
"Shino." I felt all I could do was choke her name out. After what happen last night, I shouldn't even speak to her. Nothing but the cheating wife…err, man here. She sat down next to me and folded her legs under her. She glances warily into my eyes, and I just had to tear them away.
"I was wondering. Did you notice anything different with Ovan when you went to see him yesterday?" Her voice was soft, but carry the worried straight to my guilty mind.
Yes. "No." I spoke quietly, trying to hide the lying from my voice. He seemed to really want to play around with my emotions than going to dinner with you. "He was the same as I left him the other day. Why?" the curiosity burning in the back of my mind, like a little fire.
"Well," she took a deep breath and took a risky glance at me. "He just…seemed so happy last night. Like he got a jolt of joy, happiness, love before he came to dinner." She placed her head in her hands. "Oh, Haseo, what am I going to do if he is cheating on me with another woman…?" Her voice sounded broken like it took everything she had to keep it from shattering.
Well, I wouldn't say woman, my guilt spoke, it velvety soft. "Well, if I was the victim," which I was, "I'd just leave him. Stop thinking of him and just try to go on. Any guy who would hurt someone is not a good enough guy for you, Shino." Well, I answered my own question that needed answering. I was that guy, hurting her whenever I got the chance. I sighed. She looked up, the tears not as visible as mine were.
"I guess you're right." She took a deep breath and smiled. "A guy who does nothing but scam and lies is not the guy I want to be with." She brushed the last of the tear from her cheek and slowly got up. I sat there, watching her like the hard-ass I was. She smoothed her dress down and took one last glance at me. "I'll be leaving him. I should tell him that soon."
I started to protest, No! Don't do that! He really loves you! I'll cut off from him! but I bit my tongue back. Let Ovan's scam play through, and then I'll get the last laugh. I smiled as I thought of that, last laugh. Ha. Ha ha ha. Yeah freaking right.
Shino already left and I was alone in the guild again. Wish I had someone decent to talk to. I thought to myself, as I let myself drift into the dream world.
"Haseo."
The dream world was small, compare to the actual world. The voice was small, yet loud. I looked over my shoulder and there was another me. He stood there, expressionless. I stared wide-eyed. He held his hand out, and smiled.
"Haseo."
The other me seem to have something in his hand. I looked at him suspiciously, not trusting him at all. What is that? The other me seemed to have the same expression, annoyed yet confused. He held the hand out father.
"Haseo."
I raised my eyebrow in question and also held my hand out. The other me smiled, and took my hand. He released it, holding the same expressionless face as before. I raised my eyebrow in confusion, looking at the object in my hand. It looked like a ring, but I had no idea if it was a ring.
"Wake up, Haseo."
I jolted awake, looking around my surroundings. I sprang to a crouch, and cursed under my breath. Where am I?! This doesn't make any sense! I was just in the guild. A cool hand place on my flaming shoulder, and I notice that I was sleep moving. Or whatever you call when you suddenly wake to another dream. Whatever. The hand was Ovan's. I was still in the guild; in the same crouch I had in my dream. Ovan looked concerned at my confused expression. I'm still in the guild. It was all a dream.
"Sheesh, Haseo. You sure do like to be over-dramatic about everything." Ovan said, sighing loudly. I glared at him, shaking his hand off my shoulder.
"Well, so sorry Ovan! You should've just left me alone!" I said, getting annoyed that he shows his face to me after what happen yesterday.
"Well, you looked as though you were having a nightmare. Thought I might wake you from it. Then you got all defensive. I even called your name a bunch of times." Ovan sighed again, sitting on the floor next to me. He seems so much bigger sitting on the floor. Next to me.
"Nightmare…?" I asked, trying to remember what I dreamed about. The other me, the one who gave me a ring. And the sudden blackness after it. I glance over at him, and he hidden his concern with a poker face.
"Well, you did look like it. Care to talk about it?" He question, looking up at me, even though are eye contact should have me looking up.
"Have you seen Shino today yet?" I averted his question, not willing to talk about the other "me" right now. Ovan gaze seem to have harden, and his voice was like the sharp end of a katana.
"Well, I did see her." He spoke, his voice just as sharp. He gaze didn't lighten as he continued. "She didn't seem to be enjoying herself. She broke up with me. And I told her how it was. I didn't care." He glanced at me, and I shivered. Did his gaze ever look so angry? "And then she cried. Like I was the one to make her cry." Ovan folded his hands on his lap and was silence for a while.
It seemed like it was forever until he took a breath and continue. "So I told her that if she wanted to leave, then leave. She looked so heartbroken. I should be crying. She said I was all but the guy she felt she loved. Uh huh." His gaze softens only for a moment. "But I have no problem see her off. She has been giving me trouble. All whining since I can't see her every now and then."
"But," he spoke softly, "she wishes I found someone as twisted as me to love. But I'm not twisted at all. I'm only human." His gaze softens and he smiled slightly. "And she wishes me luck in trying to get her back. Quite, pretty Shino gets all threaten." He looked at me and raised an eyebrow.
I hadn't notice I was holding my breath until I let it out slowly. I was sort of gunning for Shino to just forget Ovan. I guess that was a long shot. "But I told her, to go after you, Haseo. I know you love her." I snapped out of the story and looked at him.
My face flushed several shades of red as I stared at him in disbelief, not believing him. "You didn't!" I spoke loudly, my volume due to my annoyance and fear.
Ovan smile, "Well, she likes you too, Haseo. Or else she wouldn't always go to you for advice. Go with her. Be with me. It's a double." He pointed his finger to my chest, where my heart was.
The heartbeat sped up, fast and faster. I looked into his eyes, my face flushed, and my heartbeat loud in my ears. "…And? Wh-What are you…going to do, O-Ovan?" I stuttered but was able to keep my gaze threaten. Maybe as threaten as a lamb to a lion. Stupid lion Ovan. I was the damn prey and he got me to act the way he wanted me to. Shit.
Ovan smirked and tapped my drumming heart. "I already capture this. Do you seriously think you can forget me that…easily just for Shino?" He emphasized the word easily just to see my reaction.
I pursed my lips, and burrowed my brow. "I could love Shino! You haven't captured anything of mine!" I flushed as he ran his fingers through my fallen bangs. He seemed as evil as a lion. And I was trapped like the lamb; the stupid lamb fell in love with the mountain-ness lion when he had a cute little bunny back at home! I'm so stupid!
"Well, Haseo. Do you think you can do everything for Shino? Like kissing her, holding her, telling her you love her?" Ovan question, locking his gaze with mine, making me shiver in place. I was frozen, up against the wall as he lean in to kiss me. I fought for my hands –my arms! - to move! But nothing would move, and I simple sat like a limp doll as Ovan cuffed his hands around my face, pressing his warm, plump lips on mine.
The kiss seem to last forever, the sweet lip-lockage made me crave for more. Then I found my control and pushed him away. He looked at me, no surprise hinted on his face. I ran the back of my hand on my face, wiping away the sweetness of the kiss from my lips. I harden my gaze as I stared at him.
"I will be able to do all that! I'll be able to love her so much there won't be any time for you!" I spat, fighting the urge to go for more. "I love Shino! And you will never capture my heart!" I try to stand, but decided against it. I was too excited, and moving was just the…just a bad thing to do.
Ovan sat still for a second, raise his hand the patted my head. "Well, I guess you might love her, for now." He stood and turned for the exit. He stop at the doorway, looked back at me and smiled. "I hope the other "you" will tell you what that ring is." He left before I could say anything.
I sat there shock, and the day just slipped by. I couldn't tell what he meant until I remember my dream. The other me, with the ring, held it out for me to take. The ring! The ring meant something. I can feel it!
I got up and ran for the exit, running head on into Shino. I gasped and grabbed her before she fell into the ground. "Shi-Shino!" I gasped, and steadied her. She looked up and smiled. "I'm so sorry about that!" I try franticly to get out of there now!
"It's ok Haseo. Do you mine if I talk to you?" Shino looked up, and her emerald eyes smiled. I had to force a small smirk and I nodded. She took my hand and we walked to the back alley.
The alley was dark, since it was night in the small town. Shino was bright against the dark due to her white outfit. I fitted in naturally that it'd be hard to miss me, because of my sliver hair. She waited a few moments before grasping my attention.
"Haseo, would you mind if we deepen our…relationship?" He eyes shifted to the left and I had to hold back my sigh. First Ovan, now Shino. Anyone else want to confess while they're at it…? I glanced down and saw that she was fiddling with her fingers, seeming as though she wanted to get this done and over with.
"Ok. I'll be all yours, Shino." I spoke softly but my voice was firm. I will prove Ovan wrong. "My heart is all yours."
Shino's eyes brighten and I couldn't hold my smile back. She smiled at me and we walked back to the guild. But the guilt still held me down. Tabby was at the guild, looking fidgety as usual. She perked when we enter the room.
"Shino! Haseo! Guess what?!" Tabby literally screamed at us. "Ovan-sama was here! He said that he was happy with our progress!" Tabby jumped up and down, and hugged Shino and me tightly. "I'm going to report the news to Master!" And like that, she was out the door.
Shino was shaking after Tabby left and I notice she had tears glistening in her eyes. "Shi-Shino?" I spoke quietly, not to startle her.
She nodded, "I'm sorry. I'm still a wreck. I promise to get better." She smiled and Lean over to give me a hug. The guilt presses on my sub-conscious again. She let go and smiled and left the guild. I sighed, putting my hand to my forehead and looking up.
"Now what…?" I question the mirror me who lay in my mind, playing games with me.
The night was long and unbearable. I couldn't stop fidgeting, even after a couple dozen field and quest battles. I suppose I was fidget for the fact that I was dating Shino, finally. But I couldn't get what Ovan said earlier out of my mind.
"I hope the other "you" will tell you what that ring is."
How does he know of the…ring? It was annoying yet scaring me stupidly. "I guess I go ask him." And I went off to the secret library.
-TBC
A/N: Yay! Celebration for the third chapter! It's like, my second longest fanfiction eva! Thank you for support once again!
