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Where's Tori

Chapter 3 – While you were away.

Jade's POV

I was utterly dumbstruck. Tori named her child after me. I couldn't have been more touched. I looked at the little girl. "You're name is Jade?"

The little girl nodded with a smile. She then turned to Tori. "Mama, I'm tired. Can I lie down on the couch there?" Tori then nodded and gently lay the girl down on the couch and covered her with a blanket. The little girl seemed to fall asleep almost instantly.

"You named your little girl Jade. I don't even know what to say." She's so beautiful.

Tori sat down in a chair and pulled another one next to it and motioned for me to sit down. There she quickly wrapped her fingers with mine. Just feeling her touch was intoxicating.

"Having a girl named Jade, made me feel closer to you. I..I..." Tori started to speak as she seemed to start breaking down. "thought I'd never see you again."

With that she pulled me into another hug, as the tears began to flow again.

"I felt the same way. That last voice mail you left me. I still have it. I've listened to it over a thousand times. I'd listen to it at night, when I was all alone. When I just needed to hear your voice. I didn't know if you were alive or dead." I said, my voice shaking.

At this point there was a knock on the door and one of the two detectives popped his head in the door. "Miss Vega, the ambulance is here to take you and your daughter to the hospital for a proper check up."

I stood up wondering if I should leave, I didn't to but I wasn't sure where I stood. "Well I guess I…"

Tori quickly squeezed my hand as her composure quickly vanished. "Jade please don't leave me! Stay with me! I don't even know if you're with anyone but please don't leave me. I beg you. Please?"

I looked into her eyes and could see the terror in them. She was so afraid of being away from me again. My heart just broke.

"I'm not with anyone and if you'll let me, I'll never leave you again." I said as I squeezed her hand. She then threw her arms around me as tears once again came to eyes.

"Thank you!" She said, just before she released me.

Tori then walked up to the couch and picked her daughter up.

"I'm ready but, my girlfriend will be staying with me." Tori said taking my hand.

Just hearing her call me her girlfriend, I can't tell you how good that made me feel. For the first time in 9 years I felt like a human again. I smiled and gave an approving nod, which seemed to comfort her.

As we walked out Tori said to me. "They said my parents are flying in. Something about New York and San Francisco."

My stomach started to churn. "I hate to say this, but your parents are divorced."

She paused and looked at me with dismay. "What?"

"There's no other way to put this. After you disappeared, they started to fight more and more. About a year after you vanished, you dad discovered that your mom was having an affair with his partner Gary."

"I'll tell you in the ambulance, let's get you checked out." I said, urging her on.

Tori blankly nodded and we walked into an underground garage and go into the ambulance. Little Jade lay down on the gurney and fell asleep again. Tori sat next to me in the back with the paramedic.

"Your parents divorced right after your mom's affair was discovered." Jade said as she took Tori's hand.

"I hate Gary." Tori said quietly.

"He's your stepfather now." I said lowering my head.

Tori looked at me in shock. "My mom married Gary?"

I nodded. "Yes, he's now a detective in the San Francisco Police department. That's were your mom lives."

Tori looked sick. "And my dad."

"He moved to New York City and joined the NYPD, he's a police Captain now. His precinct is in the Bronx. He's married now too. The gal's name is Judy, she's a detective in Robbery/Homicide. She's young, only about 30. You have a baby brother now. Apparently she convinced him to have a child and you have a 4 year old brother named Joshua."

Tori looked like she'd been punched in the stomach. Her mouth just hung open as she digested the fact that her family was no more and she now had a brother.

"Trina?" She said after a few moments of stunned silence.

"Married to a very well off real estate developer, his name is Brian Borkowski. They live just outside of Chicago. She has two boys, ages, 2 and 4, named Chris and Adam. She doesn't work; she just spends her husband's money and raises the kids. They're happy I hear."

Tori made a small smile which faded quickly. "At least someone made it."

I pulled out my phone and texted Cat and Beck, the location of the hospital that we were going too.

"What about Cat, Beck, Andre and Robbie?" She asked.

I sighed. "Until Andre called me this morning, I hadn't spoken to any of them in at least 2 years. They all got sick of me. I drove them all away in any case. Andre is married to a girl named Emily, he's constantly in demand as a session player for various recording artists. They don't have any kids. Robbie is still single but is dating some chick from Argentina, he works with computer in some big company. Cat and Beck are married and have a daughter named Chloe. Beck is an actor and Cat is a set decorator."

Tori nodded as she took it all in and closed her eyes. She didn't look like she wanted to speak so I just held her hand. I had a million questions to ask but now didn't seem the time. Just from reading the expression on her face, the news of her parents divorce hit Tori hard. It's like waking up one day and finding out your family has been broken up and living all over the country.

Me, my head was still swimming. Even thought Tori has forgiven me, I still feel guilty as hell. I just kept thinking. "How to I explain my entire life to Tori. Oh Tori by the way, I'm an alcoholic actress who fucks any woman that will let me."

But Tori love's me still. I can't believe it, she still loves this fucked up mess of a person. I hardly feel worthy of it.

"Just hold me." Tori said softly, as she opened her eyes. There was a weary look in her eyes. I could see fear in them as well.

I put my arm around her and pulled her in close as she leaned her head on my shoulder.

We just sat there in silence as the ambulance went to the hospital. As we rode, my mind began to wonder what happened to her during those nine and a half years. Just the fact that she had a child told me she'd been raped.

It was then I realized it, there used to be a sparkle in Tori's eyes. I loved that sparkle in her brown orbs. It's gone now. Now all I see is fear and weariness. I hate the fact that the sparkle in her eyes is gone. I could feel the anger rising in me as I kept thinking one thought over and over again.

"What did he do to my Tori?"

No One's POV

The remainder of the ambulance ride went in silence. Tori quietly cried in Jade's arms as she mourned the loss of the life she had once known. All she ever wanted to do was escape back to the world she once knew. What Tori found, is that she escaped into a different world entirely.

Jade was there but there was a darker look in her eyes. She knew some of what happened to jade through various tabloid shows on TV. She even understood why Jade acted as she did. But until she saw Jade did she start to fathom the very real hell, Jade had been through.

They arrived at the hospital were a few police were waiting to guard them at the hospital. As they left the ambulance Jade could see that sun had just come up and off in the east the sun had just begun to peek over some trees off to the east.

Tori, still holding her sleeping daughter, paused and looked at the sun. An emotional look came to her face as tears began to flow.

"What's wrong?"

"It's the sun, I haven't seen it in 9 years." She said

Jade glanced at the sun, something she took completely for granted.

Jade just put her arms around Tori. "I'm sorry."

They moved to go into the hospital, but not before Jade told the officers to let in Tori's friend's and family. They were escorted through the emergency room up to an exam room on the 3rd floor where doctors began to examine both Tori and her daughter.

Jade sat on a chair in the corner, closely watching Tori as she was examined. It was when the doctor said, "Could you remove your shirt please" Did she feel a panic set in.

Jade saw the look as a sense of dread began to fill her.

As Tori removed her shirt, Jade could immediately see a criss cross series of what appeared to be whip marks, scars and old injuires. Most of them were on her back. Tori couldn't help lower her head in shame.

Jade almost in a trance, walked up and looked over the scars. She lightly touched a small scar that ran across Tori's left shoulder blade.

Tori opened her mouth to speak to Jade but nothing came out of it. Tori could only see a growing look of rage on the goth's face. Silently Jade's face began to turn red and distort as her hands began to tremble.

"It's OK Jade." Tori said to try to calm down Jade. But Jade was light-years beyond calm. It was bad enough he took her Tori, It was even worse that he violated her Tori but he tortured her Tori. It was right then and there, Jade finally snapped.

Right there in the exam room, 9 and a half years of frustration, rage, guilt and depression came spilling out of Jade in the form of a long blood curdling scream. She couldn't hold in the anger one more second as the dam that had been built up over the years to hold back her emotions, suddenly burst.

As she screamed Jade's hand's clenched in fists of rage. It was a horrifying sight to everyone present.

As the scream subsided, Jade sank to her knees and began to sob uncontrollably.

"Is she going to be alright mama?" Little Jade said.

Tori didn't answer as she rushed to Jade and threw her arms around the sobbing Goth. Jade said nothing but just sobbed and sobbed.

One of the doctors, rushed and began to examine Jade. "I think she's having a mini nervous breakdown. I'll get her a sedative and take her where she can rest."

Tori shook her head. "Give her a sedative but she stays with me, Understood!"

The doctor nodded and quickly got a sedative which she injected into Jade's arm. Jade didn't protest, but just kept crying.

After a few moments Jade's crying began to subside as she went limp in Tori's arms.

"This will put her to sleep for a little while. She'll be fine. I think it's just been too much for her. I would advise some counseling for her as well as you." The main doctor said.

"Tori!" A voice called out from the doorway.

Tori looked to see Cat and Beck standing in the doorway.

They both ran up to Tori who still had a limp Jade in her arms.

"What happened to Jade?" Beck asked.

Tori quickly threw on her shirt. "I have scars, when Jade saw them, she sort of broke down. They sedated her."

"Tori, Cat will stay with you. I'll Take Jade into the next room. I don't think it's being used."

"Just the next room, I don't want her far from me." Tori said, her voice twinged with fear. "Don't let them take her any farther than the next room, UNDERSTOOD!"

Beck nodded and then gave Tori a hug. "Thank Heaven's your safe." He then picked up Jade carried her out.

"My god Tori! Your safe." Cat said as she began to Cry. "We all thought we'd lost you." Cat then threw her arms around Tori and gave her bear like hug.

After yet another tearful reunion Tori smiled and said. "Cat I want you to meet someone." Tori then pointed to her daughter. "Cat, meet my daughter Jade. Jade, meet my friend Cat."

Cat looked at the little girl with a amazement. "We'll hello little Jade, I have a daughter about your age."

Tori went back to being examined while Cat sat there hand held her hand. She told that they have a 6 year old daughter named Chloe.

After a few minutes Tori asked. "Tell me about Jade. All I know is what I've seen on TV tabloid shows and the news." Seeing Jade's semi breakdown, only worried Tori about Jade more.

Cat sighed. "Jade was never able to get past your disappearance. It's hung like a stone around her neck ever since. In the last 9 years, she's not had any relationship last more than 3 months. She and I'm sorry to say it, slept around a lot and was very self destructive. Fortunately, when she's working she somehow manages to focus and then she thrives. Her career is going great. But things broke down between all of us and her. We just got tired of trying to help her and she did her best to push us away. I do need to tell you, she's an alcoholic. She's a high functioning one, but still an alcoholic. It all basically boils down to that the fact that she didn't know what happened to you, tortured her."

A tear fell from Tori's eye. "My poor Jade."

The doctor interjected at this point. "You and your daughter both seem to be in good health. You both need some sun and you're both a bit malnourished, but you're both fine. Unless you feel the need to stay, you're both free to go."

Tori then heard the door open and looked up to see her mom and Gary standing in the doorway.

Thanks again, everyone. Let me know what you think of the story so far?

I'm not sure how realistic Jade's breakdown is but it made sense to me. Just seeing the scars on Tori's back, broke Jade as she now knew what happened To Tori.

Tori seems much better, but she does have issues. They're only starting to surface at this point.