Story: After All, What is a Whore?

Rated: T for language and thoughts of over all self harm

Chapter 3: Tainting You

Summary: How can you handle knowing you will never be able to look straight at the sun, and know that the lies are all you have?

Pairings: SasukexNaruto, KakashixIruka (light bits if you're looking for it…actually it's blaring. Who could possibly have a problem with that? It's adorable! ((cough)) um getting off track…) Any others you have a strange craving for. Or me. Ask!

Text-text (obviously (rolls eyes))

Text-thinking.

A/N: I'm trying to be more professional I hope this works… this is turning out to be multi-chaptered; I thought this would stop at 2 chapters, but this seems to have turned into something! O.o My knew nickname is beanie-chan sometimes:D I wrote some of this at like, 2 in the morning, and my mom was talking in her sleep… O.O and then at 6:13 in the morning another day… So, I'm pretty screwed up right now. The quote… they're from tc, and she feels kick-ass right now. She is in my head… the song is Blackbird, by the Beatles. It starts in Sasuke's view. Like, back in time farther. With Naruto, except in Sasuke's view. Uh…you'll see.

(another) A/N: I decided it was kinda weird no one was around…even if it's in the rain, so I added Iruka. I don't know if the Iruka/Kakashi is going to go anywhere…probably not. I also watched Naruto, and I suddenly have this thing for Hinata. I giggle whenever she swoons over Naruto. I see a pairing craving in the making… O.o Oh, and sorry for the delay! I've probably scared off all my readers…I've been depressed lately… Gomen! (bows deeply, Sasuke kicks over) Itai! .

Sasuke: Shut the Hell up and let them read it!

Naruto: Yeah!

Me (beanie-chan): (rubs butt in pain, grins anyway) Bwahaha! I knew you wanted it!

Sasuke: …er… (shifty eyes) …uh… (grabs Naruto and runs)

Naruto:D

Beanie-chan: Bwahaha:D Yes Sasuke… You had to give in some time! (grabs camera)

Now here is the story. XD

Start part 3


"…and here I am. living the unlived life. and I feel fine… cause hey, at least I didn't get hit by that truck like you." –tc

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arrive
Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to be free.

Blackbird fly, Blackbird fly
Into the light of a dark black night.

Blackbird fly, Blackbird fly
Into the light of a dark black night.

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
You were only waiting for this moment to arise

You were only waiting for this moment to arise


Sasuke (this is in 3rd person… kinda. And it is a bit of what he was thinking earlier so…no confusion)

Sasuke took a deep shaky breath and set his hand on the handle of the hospital room door. He felt his insides stinging and he felt his heart tightening and burning in his chest. He leaned forward and rested his head on the door. He sighed and his face fell into a resigned expression. His head felt calming against the cool door, and rested his whole body against the door. It probably would look strange for the nurse or anyone else to see him standing there, in that position. Personally, Sasuke didn't give a shit.

He sighed again, and his head whirled with thoughts of Naruto. He told anyone who asked or gave him strange looks that it was simply because of the team. He was a team mate. Of course he cared. He frowned again, thinking of the look Kakashi had given him. Humph. Thought he was so great now that he's with Iruka. He's so conceited. Sasuke literally rolled his eyes, and huffed in a out of character way, just thinking about it.

Naruto.

He sighed again, louder, as though the action would make his mind clearer. He felt his mind roam, unwillingly, to the subject again… Not thinking, he slammed his fist against the door, above the handle he had just been holding. "Dammit Naruto," he whispered harshly. "Dammit, dammit, dammit."

He bit his lip and clenched his hands into fists. "Dobe…" He had sighed, when he heard a noise behind his door. Is he…awake? His lightly shaking, pale hand clenched the door knob, and he stumbled in, and he saw Naruto, sitting up in the bed, staring at his wrists, looking over whelmed, like he was almost… desperate.

His eyes where, too quickly for Sasuke, on him, and he suddenly lost all train of thought. He suddenly was asking him questions he had so desperately tried not to think of before, just with those big blue eyes on him.

Just with Naruto.

"Why are you not sleeping? Or eating? I know you aren't sleeping, you have it all over your movements…What's wrong with you?" his voice was broken and pleading, but he hoped he didn't notice. At the moment, he only cared about Naruto. His eyes seemed to have gotten wider at all of this, and Naruto again seemed panicky. But he only looked desperate again when Sasuke asked the most important question.

"Why… why would you hurt yourself?"


(A/N: I know I know! But I put this in because Sasuke's view is important ((I think)) to this story. Obviously, when It's SasuNaru! I mean, Really! cough um, continue…)

Naruto

The air was clear and cool to my burning body, the rain biting, and soaking through my clothes quickly. My teeth didn't chatter, but my whole body was shaking slightly, but everywhere so it was overwhelming. I could feel it in my joints, and I could feel the rain sliding underneath my bandages on my wrists, and slipping under my drawstring sweats. My hands shook the most violently and I tore at my bandages, my insides screaming. I can't take this! I almost tripped and fell to the gravel like road, but caught myself in time. My breathing was ragged, and I wondered, for all it's worth, why it had started to poor. It's cold enough for snow almost… the air seemed to freeze just with my thoughts. Ugh…I have to find a place to hide… I sobbed and put my face into my hands. Just wait… someone might see you. I landed on my knees and fell to my hands. I felt so tired… I lifted my head and shifted and felt the soreness run through my knees and my hands. Then the thought struck me to go into the forest, and find a cave. But how will I get there when someone might see…?

"Naruto?"

I looked up. "Oh. Iruka-sensei! Hi." I laughed shakily and mentally slapped myself. I must look horrible…

"Naruto? What? Kakashi said that you passed out in training… what are you doing here?" He looked so worried. My heart twisted and my eyes burned slightly. Where's your self control? Get yourself together!

"Uh…oh, nothing Iruka-sensei. I just kinda…fell." Oh yeah. Smooth. That sounds logical! I winced at the sarcastic voice ringing in my sore blonde head. My wrists itched more. I have to leave!

I laughed shakily again as he looked doubtful and really worried.

"Do you want to get ramen and relax? You look like you've lost a life or something…" Oh…if it where only that simple. All my problems would be cake!

"Oh Iruka-sensei, you kidder," I laughed half heartedly, and slowly got to my slightly trembling knees, then on my feet, and concentrated on not swaying. How long was I out? I coughed lightly and said lightly as possible, "Ah, Iruka-sensei I do not feel very well…" I coughed into my sleeve for effect. I shivered slightly from the cold. Sasuke is going to find me if I don't leave soon! I looked down. And I don't think I could handle that…

"Naruto? Giving up Ramen? You poor thing…you must be deathly ill." I raised an eyebrow at him, I mean who could be so mother hen-ish in the pouring rain?

Oh right. Iruka.

My wrists itched impatiently, and I put my hands behind my back. I coughed more and mumbled hurriedly about having "to get home, out of the rain…" and I quickly shuffled by him coughing a little more until I was out of site. I turned and looked to see if he was looking at me, and when I saw he wasn't I turned down an alley. I looked up for only a moment, watching rain fall into my eyes. This is where I belong.

I can't see you quite clearly, Sasuke. I could never see you quite clearly… You can't look into the Sun, so perfect and strong with itself, so why could I look at you…? Thoughts seemed to drift into my head, and I remembered the first time I had wished Sasuke would hold me, like I had never admitted I wanted from anyone. A song drifted into my mind… "…take these broken wings and learn to fly…" my dry broken lips sang quietly.

"…into the light of the dark black night…" Tears fell down my face, burning and stinging in my eyes…angry tears? No… I sighed. Have I lost hope? "You have just been waiting, for this moment to arrive." Sasuke is… an avenger. You can't turn your back on that. What am I to him, we've grown older, he's got no Itachi to kill, and I am fighting for something I don't believe in…" I closed my eyes and whispered into the night before turning away, "The very worst part of Sasuke is…"

"Me."


A/N: This seems short…I will write more, promise! I write and write, but I keep re-writing it and stuff… If you want this to actually have a interesting plot say so, because I have one I know would probably work with this… The last thing he says involves it. Really. This isn't totally wandering aimlessly like a mosquito that you want to BURN ALIVE! cough cough I mean, I have plans. Shocked, neh? PLANS FOR THIS STORY! gasps aloud, falls off chair

Sasuke: You lie. Naruto steps out from behind

Naruto: O.O As long as I don't die…

Beanie-chan: Heh… who ever said that?

Sasuke: My kunai looks so… nice with red… who volunteers? Ami?

Beanie-chan: I told you, don't use my name! JUST 'CAUSE I'm PARANOID DOESN'T MEAN THEY"RE NOT AFTER ME! (shifty eyes)

Sasuke: O.o

Naruto: o.O

Beanie-chan: (cough) um, yeah.

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