I'm back minna! It took a long time. Really felt like ages. I had this little writer's block over all of my stories and heck! I have an exam tomorrow! Why am I typing this down and posting it at this time? Can't help, it just took the form today and I ended up typing it!
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Chapter-3
Feelings
'Cause Feelings are very important…
Serenity reigned over her façade as she closed her eyes, during her trip home. Though her calm demeanour hid away her hurt, her eyes were giving it out much to her dislike and her cerulean blue eyes were the reason she chose to shut them from the world. She wondered how much stronger she became, playing hide and seek from the world and her nakama.
"Ma'am, we're here," her tranquillity was disturbed and she had to let her eyes guide her to her room.
She forced a smile at the driver, mouthing a 'thank you' to him as she reached for the doors of her home.
"I'm home," she chirped, aware of the fact that no one was going to greet her back. They were long gone. Everyone- her father, mother and her little brother- all died in an accident when she wasn't there with them. Curse her body to make her sick at the right time and leave her alone in this selfish world to fetch for herself. Of course, they did leave a lot of wealth for her- the wealth which became a reason of her popularity in her previous school and even paved the way for making new friends. However, such a friendship wasn't entertained by her.
She made her way to the room, smiling at anyone and everyone she crossed. This gesture somehow made the servants feel her mistress was okay, despite an aura of weirdness that enveloped her.
She walked in her lady-like dignity, containing her feelings within her heart, till she was facing her door. She turned the knob and entered in, shutting it behind her entering form. That was it!
Her hands rose to her mouths, tears pooled in her eyes, leaving traces down her cheeks. She threw herself onto the bed, digging deep into the damn soft pillow, trying to find comfort for herself.
Why was this happening to her? Why? She questioned herself, only for no answer to be found. She hugged the pillow tight till her eyes dried out, making her believe those little sobs from her died down. She looked up to the ceiling to notice the rotating fan and made an illusion of catching it. This childish act she put up brought a smile on her face but revived the sobs when her eyes fell on a small shiny platinum ring on her left index finger.
She tried hard to control herself but her eyes defied her. A tear slid down her porcelain cheeks as a smile tried to remain on her face. She was strong. She was too strong. She wasn't moved or was she?
~0~
Gray messed his hair, blinking twice in confusion. What the heck happened?
Wasn't her reaction should be jumping in joy onto him and bringing him down with her to the ground? Or more so to faint in happiness? Why was she behaving weird? Why doesn't she… believe him?
Gray was trying to contain in his frustration. He could swear he'll beat anyone's crap out of them if they so much try to face him at the moment.
"They're gone, Gray-sama. Juvia think it's time for us to leave too…" her words didn't seem to leave his mind.
"Who are they? And how do they concern me? Why should you be leaving me when you're the only thing that matters to me? Why, Juvia, why?" the raven haired lad frowned as he grabbed his bag and left for his home. His mind clouded with the thoughts of the girl he loved.
He threw his bag pack to a corner and plopped on his bed still frowning. He was sad, sad beyond his limits and wanted to cry. How weak of him to think of crying? He was a man and men don't easily shed their tears. However, he was a human too. He had his own feelings. He felt happiness, anger, hurt and… love. Now, he wanted to taste the tears that he saw on many people's face. He wanted to cry so badly but the tears won't make it to his orbs.
He walked to the window, his eyes gazing at the scenery that unfolded before him.
"Is it because of my initial cold behaviour that you are doing this to me? If it's so, then cut it out! I won't be able make it without you. I won't be happy without you. Trust me, Juvia," he whispered his feelings in to the nothingness of his room.
~0~
He groaned as he heard a loud ringing noise.
"Master Gray, wake up!" he heard shout from outside.
"Is it already nine in the morning?" he thought, as he glanced at his alarm clock which showed only 06:30 am. He mentally noted the time, before screaming to his disturbance to go away and slipping into sleep.
His eyes threatened to close when realisation dawned upon him.
"06:30?" he screamed. He ran to the bathroom, finished his routine, changed into new clothes. He ran down the stairs and saw his mother sitting on the dining table. As if he was the wind he ran to her, giving a small peck on her cheek, he left for the door, not even grabbing his breakfast.
"Gray, don't you want to eat anything?" asked the raven-haired woman.
"I'm not hungry! I'll grab something later. First have to meet up with someone," he yelled as he exited the house.
The older woman smiled, knowing exactly where her son was heading to. She was glad to see this change in him- he never returned the feelings for his fiancée but now, may be tables have started to turn for the better. May be, her son has finally grown up.
~0~
He ran like a turbo jet, making things fall down and spinning people around as he ran past them. He had to see her. Though she didn't believe him, he wasn't going to give up. That was what he decided on. If she was putting his feelings for her to a test, then he was going to go through it because the prize was going to be the best in the world, the prize being her heart.
He stopped in front of a park named "Galuna Park", trying to catch his breath before taking off again.
"I know she will be here"
~0~
"Hey, he seems like Gray-sempai, isn't he?" a brown-haired girl said to her friend, who was gaping at the running figure in front of them.
"Yeah," the other girl nodded.
"Gray-sempai!" they shouted together but he didn't even turn their way.
"May be, he didn't see us?" the brown-haired one tried to assure herself.
"Is something wrong? He was looking worried. Now, that's getting to me," the other black-haired girl said.
"Let's check. May be, he'll need our help," they put on their determined expression before leaping in the direction they saw the raven-haired guy dash off to.
~0~
He finally made it. He rested his hands on his knees as he panted. Maybe he was running for an good half an hour. The park was nearby so he dashed off without thinking. If he had thought anything, he would have lost time which he badly needed. He couldn't risk his very first effort.
A smile crept on his face already at the sight before him. Like always, the blunette he fell hard for was sitting on the pond side. Her eyes seemed to be stuck on the still water with eventual ripples. It seemed that way because her back was facing him. She probably was not even aware of his presence. Who would be when you all of a sudden begin acting like a creepy stalker?
He blushed in embarrassment, before he began taking in her beauty, mesmerised by it. She was wearing a pretty blue dress, adorning her body. Her hair was tied to the side and was held in the front. She already was beautiful in his eyes. Stealing a glance of her beautiful face didn't seem a bad idea for a moment as he stepped forward, the grin never leaving his face. It threatened not to falter until he saw what the source of the ripples in the still water was. It was Juvia!
"Oi, Juvia, are you crying?" he asked, panicking within. Damn, never in his life was he good with crying girls. That's Gray for you!
The girl turned around, tears filling her blue orbs even more at the mere sight of the person whose been hurting her, even without the knowledge. Her eyes would have widened in surprise if not for the already dwelling pain which suppressed it. She stood up, wiping away her tears.
"Gray-sama, when did you come here? Juvia didn't notice you. Juvia probably was spacing out too much," she smiled sheepishly. The look on his face didn't tell her that he bought the answer.
"And you want me to believe that?" His face showed the determination which wouldn't give in until he'd pry out the information he needed. The girl bowed her head in embarrassment. He was Gray, ne? He's supposed to be oblivious. How was he not buying her explanation?
He stepped forward, until he was near her. With his right hand, he raised her chin making her look into his eyes. He placed his left hand on her right cheek, giving her solace.
"Juvia…. I want to know…" he said. Tears pooled up in her eyes when she saw pure concern in his own. That was all a lie, ne? Everything he said…. It was all a lie. This isn't even possible, not in reality at least. She was sure this was a nightmare, nightmare because everything won't be the same as in this nice dream of hers. Reality was always bitter. How she wished to stay in dream like things like this one in particular where his eyes shone with concern for her? She knew that wasn't possible. 'Cause despite the fact that it's a dream, feelings are that which matter. Feelings are very important and without them the world is incomplete.
He encircled his arms around her, pulling her into an embrace. His eyes were closed but depicted the fear that hid behind them. Her eyes were wide. Was it really… real?
"I need to know… I can't see you cry. You're strong, maybe stronger than me. So, let me share the pain of yours. Lucy says sharing the pain lessens the burden…" he whispered into her ear.
Before he could say anymore, he felt something wet trickle down his shirt as he felt being grabbed by her.
"Gomen-n-n… G-G-Gray-sama" she stuttered, wording her words with utmost care. One wrong word and she would be giving away the entire act. She wanted to say more but her sobs prevented from speaking any further.
"J-Juvia's just missing Mama and Papa. Today is their…. Death anniversary, ne?" she replied. No, that would be wrong to word it that way. She lied. Yes, she lied to him… Not a complete lie though, but the part about her crying. It indeed was her family's death anniversary that day… Why you ask? She didn't want to burden him with guilt.
"Crap, how did I forget that?!" he mentally smacked himself. He was about to scowl when he heard her speak next.
"Juvia was feeling lonely… and… and that no one…" she bit her lip, digging deeper into his hold. She hid her face in his chest as she said those words. "… and that no one cared for her…"
At least she wasn't lying to him entirely. Her last words were right. She has been feeling that way for a couple of days now. That wasn't any lie.
He was taken aback. How did she think that? How could she? His mother was there. So were their friends. He was with her. How did she think she was alone? She can never be… not until the day he breathes his last.
He pulled away a little, opting to look into her eyes. Cupping her cheeks, he wiped away her tears with her thumbs and grinned at her.
"Oi, never say things like that!" he complained like a child would. "I feel like being left out. What would I do without you? Since how I am never alone because you will be with me, I'll always be with you in the same fashion and I'll love you forever…" he said out aloud, his eyes softened at her.
"…though you'll buy it or not.." he thought thinking of his present status.
A grin made its way to her face as she smiled back at him. May be, she could believe him. What was happening to her wasn't a nightmare not even a dream. She could believe it was all reality. May be, over the time, he did fall for her. If that was the case, she'd be really happy. She would want to try believing him, giving him a chance. So, she smiled wider at him with those new thoughts to move forward.
"Arigatou… Gray-sama" she said, the smile never leaving her face. This wasn't a fake one, rather one from the depths of the heart. She was confident; things were going to turn out well.
He smiled, before placing a kiss on her forehead, leaving her dumbfounded. She was so going to love this new development in their relationship.
~0~
She walked out of her car and made her way into the school building. Her mind was preoccupied with thoughts of her earlier meeting with her fiancée. They totally lost track of the time and he became late for the school. He was lucky she brought her car with her or he'd miss even his second class. She giggled, remembering the frustrated look on her fiancée's face. It felt like a long time since she last laughed with her whole heart.
Her smile changed into an expression that depicted the confusion on her mind. She could see the girls glaring at her, while the guys whining after her. What the hell was happening?
She came to a halt when she heard her name from the corner.
"Juvia, was it?" a girl said to another.
"Yeah, I really wonder what she had done to Gray-san? Is she prettier than me? Or even you? She doesn't even deserve him!" the other girl said. Juvia's blood boiled upon hearing them. How can they decide if someone deserves some other or not? She was about to scold them when she happened to overhear the next part… something which she was not supposed to!
"I heard from a few sophomore girls that they saw Gray-san and that girl cuddling each other in the park. When Gray-san first announced his relationship, I thought it was just a prank to keep us all fangirls away. I never cared about it anyways!" the first girl humphed.
"Seems like he's really serious about this one. He wouldn't cuddle a no one or more so kiss anyone!" the other girl scowled.
"Maybe, we should leave him alone…" the first one mumbled. The second one nodded, not liking the idea even a bit.
"What the heck?!" she mentally screamed. "So, that wasn't true either. Okay, I believe he cares for me as a nakama. So, all the consoling part might not have been"
Her mind trailed off to the words he spoke earlier.
"and I'll love you forever…" She broke again. Her resolve to move on shattered. She ran to the washroom as tears threatened to surface her eyes. She closed the door with a bang and splashed water on her face.
"It cannot be! It just cannot be!" she thought to herself. " No way, Gray-sama is going to do that can he?"
All signs of happiness were removed from her face as tears trickled down her cheeks.
"He was lying… Plainly lying…. Just to keep them at bay," she saw her reflection in the mirror. Her face was dripping with water. Her eyes lay on her forehead, which received a kiss from the man who appeared to be very promising that she made a mistake of believing him and being left heartbroken once again.
She began furiously rubbing her forehead, her heart being stabbed by the pain of betrayal again and again.
"Why does he do this? Why does he? He can tell me that it was all act. He doesn't need to behave like that, making me believe it was all true and then shattering my dreams in a single go. He could have just told me people were seeing us! Why? Why?!" she cried mentally. Her pain remained unspoken. Her forehead was sore from all the rubbing but the pain it gave was nothing when compared to the thing he's doing to her. Worst of all, he's unaware…. He's still unaware of the…
"Juvia…" a sweet voice called her name, making her freeze in her tracks.
"This can't be happening. No way!"
"Lucy-san…" she muttered.
The blonde's eyes widened seeing the blunette this devastated. However, before she could snap out of the shock, the blunette grabbed her bag and ran away.
"Juvia!" she called out to the blue-head. The blonde dashed out after her, trying to reach for the crying girl.
"No way! Lucy-san must not know. Gray-sama… he shouldn't… know…" she muttered as she ran to her car.
They were so occupied with their thoughts that they didn't even notice who they were passing by.
"Oi, Lucy? Juvia?" a pink head called, unable to comprehend what the running was for. Was there any running competition he wasn't aware of? Why didn't anyone tell him?
He began chasing after the two girls. By the time he reached for them, he only found one- the blonde who was kneeling on the ground, panting. He now realised it wasn't any competition but something even more serious than that.
"Lucy…" he muttered as he bent to held her tight. Just then, a familiar voice greeted the couple, which however, was oblivious to the fact that it was not very welcome- not at least at that moment.
"Hey guys!" a grinning raven-haired male said, frowning he missed his first class. He was about to turn away when a deadly voice stopped him.
"What did you do?" the blonde snapped. Natsu remained silent while he was close to handle her.
"What did I do?" Gray blinked in confusion. Man, this was annoying for someone who was in an as good mood as him. His efforts seemed to work, though he was clueless about how. Juvia smiled at him and accepted his comfort after a long time of pleading.
"Yes, what did you do Gray Fullbuster?! What did you do make Juvia cry?!" Lucy shouted at the poor guy. His eyes widened as the words went into his dense brain.
"Juvia was crying?…."
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