Dear Sadie,

You're a head case. That's all I can come up with. Really, who the hell kisses somebody who's NOT their boyfriend, and then claims it was for "us"? It wasn't for "us" Sadie, it was for you. Was I not enough? 'Cause I pulled out all the stops for you, girl. I was suave. I was mysterious. I barely ever hurt you. I loved you. I love you.

You're a head case and I love you. This huge part of me wants to just accept what you told me, accept that you meant well, and go put our hotel room to use. But I can't, because another part of me wants to hurt you the same way you hurt me. The worst is that I know I never could. I can't tolerate the thought of anybody hurting you, much less me. Still, just when I think our relationship is getting better and better, you throw this anvil on me. So it's almost cruel how I can't stop thinking about you. You've got this grip on me. Is it cliché to say I've never felt this way before? I never have. I've never met anyone like you. You're beautiful, but there's so much more to you. You're smart--off the charts smart—you're responsible, organized, charming, sweet. You're caring and you look out for people. I think you're amazing.

And yet, for someone so unique, you end up just like all the others—crazy for little Tommy Q of Boyz Attack. Tom's a good pal but I always end up in his shadow. There have been lots of girls, Sadie. Tons. But the only ones who've ever stuck by me were either a, anti-Boyz Attack (They were frightening and hard to come by) or b, completely unaware of my friendship with Tom Quincy (that didn't last long).

Tommy knows it, too. He isn't quite the same as he was a few years ago, but he used to be cocky as hell, flaunting the fact that he got all the ladies, making everybody around him feel insignificant. He knows he could have any girl he wants and it makes me so angry that he felt the need to take mine. I don't know what's with either of you. Why do you people have to hurt me? Can't a guy just be happy? Maybe Tommy's just jealous of me, but I can't really see that. Tommy's always had the better career, but I never complained and I was never jealous. I was always a good friend to him, but I guess I wasn't as important to him as I thought I was. Anyway, the point is that he always manages to steal my girls. I never really blamed him for it, knew that girls couldn't help but fall for the famous one. I blame him now, because you weren't just another girl.

With you, I thought I was in the clear. You'd already been on the Tommy train and hopped off a wiser woman (or so I thought). And man, I really fooled myself into thinking you were "the one." I guess it's because all the signs were there, my stars were aligned, or something. The whole Tommy thing, for one, but then there were other little things. The way my heart beat a little bit faster when you were around. The way I worked harder if I thought you were watching. The way I was always just a little bit more,because maybe it would impress you.

I don't know why I was so sure. I have to remember not to put faith in good feelings alone. Thing is, I knew you were a heartbreaker, Sadie. That was my first impression of you, back when you were just a kid, another girl hanging off Tommy's arm. Used to think that's what made you a good couple, 'cause that's a quality you both share. But then I realized—or thought I realized—that there was more to you. I never dreamed, though, that you would break my heart.

So this is good bye, Sadie. You are not "the one" and you never were "the one." I'll just have to keep telling myself that until it's true. Can't say I'm not disappointed, though. I thought we had a solid, maybe even specialrelationship. I would ask why you did it, but I don't really want to know.

Just know this, Sadie, while you're off rekindling your relationship with Tommy: He may be the star I'm not, but Tom Quincy is not a better man then I am. And that's the truth.

Sincerely,

Kwest

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