Chapter 3

She hadn't needed to worry. He didn't appear in her room. Actually he had kind of disappeared altogether. She had been anxious that she would run into him, before she had figured out what to say. You know, come up with some kind of excuse. Like; `I was possessed', 'it wasn't me, it was a skin walker, 'I was on drugs'… But after three days no one in the house had seen or heard from him. Victoria had spent as much time as possible out of the house, grapping every opportunity she got to do some field research, check up on leads or even spend three hours grocery shopping. She had had time to figure out what to do about herself, and this evening she was packing her bag.

Dean and Sam had tried to convince her to stay. Bobby had almost pleaded, but she was going. She searched through the closet for the most essential close. She had told them that she needed to go straighten some things out with her family. A plausible story when you knew the world was ending. She had told them that she would come back, and she fully intended to. She just needed to get away and get her head on straight somehow. Maybe she would go live over a bar for a couple of months. She could keep researching through the day, and drown her feelings in booze and men during the evening. Maybe she could drink and fuck him out of her head. You know, develop a cynical side. Anyway, she was leaving in the morning.

Victoria had just crammed the last of her stuff in the bag when there was a knock on the door. Probably Bobby coming home from the bar early to try and talk her out of leaving. Dean and Sam were on their way to Massachusetts to help out some old friends with a ghost problem.

"Just a minute!", she called as she zipped up her bag and put it on the floor. She really appreciated their efforts to make her stay, but she had to go. She couldn't think of any other way to escape this. She went to open the door.

"Sweet Bobby, I know this isn't… ", she had started her speech as she opened the door, but she didn't get to finish it. It wasn't Bobby standing outside. It was Castiel.

For a brief moment she was sure she would slam the door in his face, but then the moment passed and the door was still open. She tried to swallow that big lump of distress that in seconds had build up in her throat. She just stared at him and somewhere it occurred to her that she probably looked like a deer caught in a headlight.

At first he didn't say anything; he just stood there looking at her with those examining eyes. He shifted uncomfortably on his feet.

Then he spoke; "Bobby said you were leaving …"

It wasn't a question so she said nothing. She wasn't even sure she could have if she wanted to.

"… Why?"

She took a deep breath to help the lie come out, but it was no use.

"And I know the only family you have is a second cousin once removed who lives in Kentucky. I don't believe you even remember his name…" He looked at her. "… So that's not the reason"

She didn't know how to answer, but she did feel herself falling back into those enigmatic eyes of his. Then she tore herself lose and turned away from him, as she stepped back into her room. She didn't know where she was running so she stopped in the middle of the floor. She heard him step over the threshold and into the room.

"Victoria?"

She loved hearing him say her name. A knot was evolving in her stomach and she felt tears pressing in the corner of her eyes. She closed her eyes to hold them back, and took several deep breaths before she could speak.

"I…I can't stay here right now. I haven't been felling well lately…" That wasn't entirely true. Amidst the nerves and the bad conscience, it had also felt wonderful being around him. It had felt wonderful kissing him. "...and if I want to get better I gotta get away from here for a while"

'Away from you'

"Bobby was quite upset; he doesn't want you to leave… I don't want you to leave", he said, a note of unease in his voice.

The knot in her stomach grew tighter and her voice was shaky; "I have to go. I have to go, or ells I think I'm going to have some kind of breakdown"

She turned around to face him again. She couldn't read his expression as she felt he could read hers.

"Please… don't leave", he said as he stepped closer to her.

Tears filled her eyes and she averted his gaze. She bowed her head and hid her face in her hands as she felt tears begin to run down her cheeks. Then she felt his arms around her.

"I want you to stay"

She heard the care and concern that filled his coarse voice and she felt his protecting arms encircling her. After a while she sensed the knot inside her loosen up. Then her heartbeat slowed down to a normal rate, as she breathed in his scent. A dusty warm scent like cinnamon and peace. And now that she had calmed down, she could sense the racing beat of his heart through his shirt and trench coat.

Victoria raised her head and looked at him. In a few seconds she watched hesitance turn into determination, and then he bowed his head and kissed her. At first just carefully, as if testing to see if she would melt away. She slandered her head and parted her lips, and he wasn't late to comply. Then she put her arms around his waist. A wave of desire rushed through her, as he deepened his kiss and pulled her closer. Her knees almost gave in beneath her, but Castiel closed his strong arms tighter around her and she didn't fall.

She didn't know how long they were standing there, his hands pressing against her back and his lips moving against hers. Outside the sun disappeared behind the horizon and dusk began to sneak in through the corners. She had lost all sense of time, and she couldn't even fell the floor beneath her feet. He took up all her senses and he kissed away all the doubts and fear which had been haunting her for the last few months.

Suddenly there came a loud slam from the hall, and Castiel broke away from her and looked in the direction of the door, which was still wide open. Now they could hear Bobby mumbling loudly to himself, as he took of his jacket and shoes. For a split second she feared that he might disappear, but then he waved his hand backwards towards the door, which slowly closed with a barely audible click. Then they looked at each other, and her face broke into a smile, which he returned with those characteristically, slightly screwed eyes.

"Where were we?", he asked in a husky voice.

She drew a deep breath before she answered; "I think you were well under way to seducing me"

At first she didn't get a reaction. Then an unfathomable little smile crossed his face, and he leaned in to kiss her again, now more unrestrained. She could feel his warm skin through the shirt. She moved her hands up over his chest and he reluctantly released his grip in her, so she could strip of his coat and jacket, yet without breaking their kiss. His hands quickly returned to her, and he let them glide from her hips, up her sides and back over her shoulder to her neck and then returned down to her waist. Her clothes had become untidy and he quickly found her exposed skin and slid his hands under her white, cotton blouse. It was as if the feeling of her skin intensified his craving for her and his hands searched frantically for more of her to touch. Her body shivered with delight under him eager hands. She wanted him with every fiber of her being and she almost couldn't control her finger enough to loosen the knot on his tie. She finally succeeded and pulled the tie over his head, interrupting their kisses. He continued to kiss his way from her jaw line to her neck, while she unbuttoned the top buttons of her blouse. He had to stop his kisses again, when she went to pull her blouse over her head. She tugged and pulled but she couldn't get the top past her chest, and as her frustration grew she let out an aggressive whine. Then she froze in the act, when she suddenly realised he had stopped moving, and was now looking at her with an investigating expression.

"What?", she said with an almost desperate air.

"Wouldn't that be a lot easier if you untied that first?"

Victoria let go of her blouse and looked down as he nodded towards the red band tied firmly around her waist. When she looked up again he was wearing that little smile once more. She bit her lip as he slowly reached around her and untied the band, before he pulled her blouse over her head. She wasn't wearing a bra. He reached up and pulled her hairgrip out, making her long, red locks fall around her face. Then he moved his hands to her waistline to undo her jeans. He took a hold at each side of her hips and slowly sank to the ground before her, as he slid the jeans down. Then he tenderly lifted one foot free of the bundle. Then the other. Starting with a hand on each of her ankles, he then, with unbearable patience, ran his hands up the full length of her legs as he raised himself from the ground. A thrill ran through her as his hands traced the curves of her body. His hands then found rest on her hips and his eyes turned dark with lust he stood there, admiring her slender body. She felt the yearning grow inside her.

When she could stand it no longer, she pulled Castiel to the bed where she eased him down on his back. As he lay down she crawled on top of him and began to unbutton his shirt. She drew the fabric aside and when she placed her palms on his chest, she could feel his rapid heartbeat. His eyes followed her as she leaned forward against him and put her lips to his skin. His muscles tensed up and she felt his chest heaving, as her hands and mouth caressed his warm skin. She wanted to drink him in and she kissed and nipped a trail over his chest and let her tong explore him. She just couldn't get enough of him and her hunger increased as she felt his body react. Straddling him, she could feel his hardness against her burning centre. She let her hands trail down his chest and abdomen till she reached his waistline, where she quickly rid him of those last bothersome clothes. Returning to her straddling position, she held herself above him and she heard him moan when his erection brushed up against her most sensitive area. He had placed his hands on her hips and she couldn't stand it anymore. She slowly lowered herself down over him and let him fill her up. He let out a gasp of pleasure as he felt her surrounding him. A wonderful shiver ran through her body and she slowly began to revolve her hips.

He sat up to embrace her body and connected to her with a passionate kiss which told her just how much he desired her. She felt his craving hands roam her body until they found her breasts and their kiss was broken by her moans. He let his lips brush the sensitive skin on her neck and continued to kiss a trail down the arch of her breast. Her skin was burning under his touch. It felt like all the nerve ends covering her body had been exposed, leaving her skin super sensitive. When he closed his lips around her nipple, she threw her head back and rode the waves of pleasure rapidly building inside her.

Castiel kissed her again as he leaned back and pulled her down with him. A thrill ran through her as he flipped her over on her back, never breaking their connection. His weight pinned her to the bed, lying immovable on top of her. She tried to thrust her hips to encourage some movement, but he held her down with a firm grip, while he kissed her hungrily. She craved the friction feeding the pleasure that had been rising in her, and she wondered if he didn't have an instinct that would set in. She felt almost mad with desire for some release, but he still didn't move an inch. She felt as if she would burst and she couldn't control herself;

"Please…please", she whimpered in between his kisses

She crammed the sheet in her fists and when he broke the kiss, she opened her eyes only to se a wicked smile on his lips. No way! He could not be teasing her! He saw the look of bewilderment on her face and when she opened her mouth to retaliate, he closed it with another kiss. Then he slowly began to move against her. She grabbed on to him as waves of thrill coursed through her body, like she had never felt before. It was like an energy she could best describe as soothing electricity, flowing over her from every place his naked skin was pressed against hers. Like the friction of their bodies created some kinetic energy, charging her body. His forehead rested against hers and they breathed in each others air in heavy pants. She lifted her hips to meet him, and moans and whimpers escaped her throat as he began to move faster inside her. She knew she couldn't hold on any longer. Her body was charged with his energy, coursing through her body, making her shudder beneath him. She clung to him, almost desperately, as he thrust deep into her. Then euphoria grabbed hold of her, making her mind go hazy. She cried out his name as ecstasy rushed through her body like a tidal wave, and everything exploded in white light. Her walls tighten around him, pushing him over the edge with her. He buried his face in her neck as the same ecstasy overwhelmed him and he whimpered out his own powerful release

He was almost gasping for air, pushing into her a few last times, her body still convulsing beneath him, as they came down from rapture. She was clinging to him so hard, she wasn't sureshe could let go. Then he lifted his head and look at her before placing a soft kiss on her heated lips. He eased out of her and rolled to her side, before pulling her close to him. She felt a wave of amity flow over her as she lay there in his arms. For a while everything was silent.

"I feel I should say something... ", she turned over to lie on her side against him. "... but I can't think of anything".

"I'm surprised", he said as he stroked her back. "I had no idea it would be so... ", he took a deep breath;"... all consuming". He looked down at her. "Was that normal?"

Victoria smiled; "I don't think there was anything normal about that. I mean that was just...", she sighed and didn't finish the sentence.

There were silence before she continued; "An hour ago I thought I would be on my way to California by now. I thought I had to get away from you" She rested her hand on his chest. "You really took me by surprise there, Cas"

He was starring at the ceiling; "I took myself by surprise. I didn't know what I would do. I didn't know what to do with the feelings I get every time I think about you. I just knew that I couldn't let you leave." He stroked her back; "I guess it'll be less dramatic next time"

She lifted her head and sent him a questioning look; "Next time?"

He looked back at her, suddenly with an unsure look in his eyes; "Well, I mean… I just thought that…", he didn't get further before she cut of his words with a kiss. Then she sent him a reassuring smile. He looked into her eyes and broke into a smile so warm, her heart swelled. It was almost like he was glowing.

"I think you've convinced me to stay", she said and kissed him again.

She laid her head back on his shoulder. For a while, the sound for silence again filled the room. She had almost fallen asleep when he broke the it;

"Can I tell Dean about this…?"