The broken clock is a comfort
"It helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can start tomorrow
From stealing all my time
And I am here still waiting
Though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best
Like you've already figured out
I'm falling apart
I'm barley breathing
With a broken heart
That's still beating
In the pain
There is healing
In your name
I find meaning
So I'm holding on
I'm holding on
I'm holding on
I'm barely holding on to you
The broken locks were a warning
You got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded
I'm an open book instead
And I still see your reflection
Inside of my eyes
That are looking for purpose
They're still looking for life
I'm falling apart
I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart
That's still beating
In the pain(In the pain)Is there healing?
In your name(In your name)I find meaning
So I'm holding on(I'm still holding)I'm holding on(I'm still holding)I'm holding on(I'm still holding)I'm barely holding on to you
I'm hanging on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I will be okay
Broken lights on the freeway
Left me here alone
I may have lost my way now
I haven't forgotten my way home
I'm falling apart
I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart
That's still beating
In the pain(In the pain)There is healing
In your name(In your name)
I find meaning
So I'm holding on(I'm still holding)
I'm holding on(I'm still holding)
I'm holding on(I'm still holding)
I'm barely holding on to you
I'm holding on
(I'm still holding)
I'm holding on
(I'm still holding)
I'm holding on
(I'm still holding)
I'm barely holding on to you
Read more: LIFEHOUSE - BROKEN LYRICS
'Claire's pov
''Claire, wake up sweet heart'' I heard my aunt Emily's voice say. I didn't want to wake up. Some how Quill and I are were in a laying position with my head on his chest and his arm wrapped around me fast asleep.
I fluttered my eyes open as she gently shook my shoulder.
''good morning sleepy head'' she said laughing lightly.
'' its morning" I asked confused.
''yeah you've been asleep for a long time. I came home around 8:00 last night because the boys we're sleepy, and you and Quill were passed out.'' she said, while playing with baby Neil on her hip.
''What time is it now" I asked, rubbing sleep from my eyes.
''it's only around 7:00" she said, while walking to the other side of the room to put Neil in his playpen.
I maneuvered out of Quills arms and made my way to the bathroom. I looked in the mirror, and was happy to see that my cover up was still working. I forgot to bring the bottle so I couldn't reapply.
I tried combing through my messy hair with my figures, to control it a bit.
I huffed and gave up after a few minutes of useless trying.
I opened the bathroom door and walked to the kitchen.
Emily's kitchen was very homey; the walls were darkish beige; and the cabinets were all dark mahogany wood, and the counters were a pretty marble. I loved it here this has become my home since my mother died; I wish I could just move in with my aunt and uncle.
''Good morning sleepy head." Uncle Sam told me, as I climbed up into the bar stool as he was making chocolate chip pancakes. He always did when I came he new they we're my favorite food. Aunt Emily cooked most of the time, but he's the main pancake maker.
''morning Uncle Sam, how was the bon fire?" I asked.
''same old, same old, you missed nessie and Jake, they were asking for you." Sam told me, while flipping a pancake in the air effortlessly.
"Aw I should have gone; I miss Uncle Jake and nessie. Have they finished their house yet?" Uncle Jake and nessie got married a few weeks ago and while they were on their honey moon Esme has been remodeling an old house in la push. Hoping that it would be ready by the time they got back so that it would be a surprise for them.
''yeah they're going to move all their stuff in there today'' he said putting a pancake on a plat then putting it in front of me.
''oh are they going to need help'' I asked, cutting my pancake into bites.
''yeah I think the pack is going to help, would you like to come?''
''sure, I would love to see ness!" I told him taking a small bite of my pancake.
Just then Quill came in and sat down in the bar stool next to mine.
"Morning, string bean'' I said, leaning over to give him a kiss on the cheek.
''Morning, midget" he told me with a smile.
''pancakes Quill?" uncle same asked, putting pancakes on a plate.
''Yes, please"
''Here Quill you can have the rest of mine, I'm not very hungry'' I said handing him my plate.
''you sure" he said looking conflicted about it.
''Positive. I'm going to go change; I'll be done in a minuet"
I walked into the living to get my bag then went into the bathroom.
I pulled off my shirt and gasped when I saw my ribs and stomach. Big blotches of black and purple marked my unique pale skin.
I lightly touched one of the marks and gasped immediately. It felt like tiny needles poking into my skin.
I pulled my hand away quickly. I hurried and grabbed my shirt from the bag and pulled it over my head. I pulled on my pants and walked out of the bathroom.
"Hey, you ready to go'' Quill asked me as I walked out.
''yeah, can I drive plweasee" I asked with a puppy dog face''
''oh, gosh you know you give me a heart attack every time you drive'' he said, shyly holding out the keys.
'' I'll be careful, I promise" I said jumping up and down, then running to the door with a sulking Quill behind me.
The ride was quite other than Quills fake crashing noises he did every now an then. I loved it though; just spending time next to him comforted my mind and body. But there was also a lurking thought in the back of my mind; I'll have to go home, back into that nightmare.
I hoped out of Quills big truck and was greeted by nessie wrapping me in a hug.
"Claire! I've missed you so much" she said in her bell like voice. I hugged her back tightly breathing in her vanilla and brown sugar smell that she's had since I remember. Nessie and I have always been the best of friend even when she out aged me. Since I was young and naive I never question her exhilarated growth.
"I've missed you too, how was the trip" I asked as Quill got out and Jake wrapped him in a manly hug.
"I'll have to tell you later" she said giving me a wink. I giggled and fallowed her into the new house. It was amazing; the entry way had dark wood flooring and blue walls with dark brown trimmings. The walls were decorated in Neisse's beautiful art work. A lot of them were wolves and landscapes, the forest nearby lakes and the haunting beach in la push. There was a round black coffee table and two chic black chairs that looked more like decoration than sitting.
"I'd give you a tour, but this is really the only furnished room in the house'' she said laughing lightly, and moving around empty boxes.
''oh it's fine. The entryway looks great by the way."
''thanks I really like it, its pretty awesome having our own home'' she said with a dreamy look on her face. It made me daydream a bit.
Quill and I in a two story house on la push, married with pictures of us hanging on the wall. Kids running around with Quills dark skin and my moms blue eyes.
'' I saw that'' she told me with a knowing look in her eyes. Neisse's powers grew a few years back, she can read your mind if she's touching you. I forgot that she was holding onto my hand. I pulled it away.
''don't tell quill or Jake!'' I all but yelled at her.
'shhhhh's they'll hear you." She said pointing to out front.
''I won't I promise" she promised leading me into the dinning room. This room was dark beige with dark wood floors and dark wood trimmings. There was a long table that sat twelve it was also dark wood with dark wood chairs that had light blue cushions that covered the part where you sat and your back would be. On one wall from the waist up were dark wood shelves. That had glass in front that you could slide to get into them. Than there was a dark wood counter that looked like it could be used for a buffet style dinner. Other than that boxes covered the floors.
"So I was thinking that while the boys go and get boxes we could unload them. This stuff is the first load that Jake and I bought." She said moving boxes in other places.
''sure, that's fine" I told her. My heart sank a bit, I was looking forward to spending the day with Quill but a day with nessie is the nest best thing.
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The day was spent nicely, I helped nessie and Quill was in and out all day.
Nessie and I talked about everything; art, her honeymoon, Quill.
"By nessie I'll see you Friday." I said, giving her a hug.
''I'll be there'' she told me pulling back. Jake came up and gave me a hug back they stood waving their arms around each other.
''do you want to stay with me tonight" Quills husky voice asked me as he pulled out of jakes driveway.
''of course'' I replied smiling, the butterflies going crazy in my stomach. It's been a month or so since I've stayed the night with Quill; and when I did Seth and Jared were there. Since then my fillings have expanded for Quill changing into romantic type feelings.
''kk you have some cloths at my house so we'll just go by Emily's tomorrow before I take you back home since its on the way." he said giving my a smile that made my heart melt.
''sounds good.'' I said shyly for some reason. Maybe it was the thought of having to go home.
''are you hungry?'' he asked
''not really my stomach is kind of feeling funny." I told him. My stomach was feeling off. From the bruises and something else that kind of made me sick that I can't figure out.
''are you okay?" he asked as he pulled onto the road that leads to forks.
''I'm sure Quill, it just feels weird" I said wrapping my arms around my torso careful to avoid the bruises.
''fine, but I'm picking you up some medicine at Walgreens" he said sternly.
''you don't have to, why are we going into town anyways?'' I asked turning down the radio.
"I'm going to go to mc Donald's; and you know I'm going to" he said pulling into the Walgreens.
''if you don't mind I don't feel like coming in" I said my stomach feeling worse.
''okay, I'll be right back hang tight" he said closing the door and leaving the car on.
He walked out of the store a few minuets later with a big sack.
''here I got what I could think of.'' He said opening the door an dropping the bag by me.
''thanks string bean" I said looking through the bundles of medicine.
''no problem midget" he told me with a smile pulling out of the parking lot; and heading off to mc Donald's.
He had bought; Tylenol, Advil, peptol bismol, aspirin, and a bunch of other nock off brands promising to relieve stomach aches. Ah my over protective, caring, best friend that I love dearly.
''go over board much''. I asked looking up as he pulled into the mc Donald's drive through.
''always for you'' he said rolling down the window.
''do you want a drink?'' he asked already knowing I wasn't hungry.
''um a PowerAde please" I replied, taking two Tylenols out of the bottle. He put in our order paid for the food and then started off to the house.
The rest of the ride was silent other than the radio playing in the back round.
Quill parked the truck in his tiny drive way and got out.
Quills house left a lot to be desired, when you come through the door you enter the living room; which has an old leather couch a coffee table and a TV hanging on the wall that Uncle Sam bought him last year.
You go up two steps and you enter the dining room that has a round table with four chairs. The kitchen is to the left and has a counter with two bar stools that are facing the dinning room. The kitchen has light wood cabinets and fake wood counters. He had an old refrigerator and a black stove.
When you walk through the dining room to your left is a hallway that has a guest bedroom a bathroom and then the master bedroom that has a bedroom. All the walls were yellow and the floor wood.
Quill sat the food down at the bar and climbed into the bar stool and started eating his food.
I walked over to the giant stereo I brought here a few years back to play music.
I plugged up my phone and started play Neil diamond radio on Pandora. I love Neil Diamond my mother use to play it when I was a kid and would dance around the living room.
''oh gosh your old music'' Quill said with a twinkle in his eye as he munched on French fries.
''you know you love it" I told him, taking a sip of my drink.
''come dance with me'' I said taking his hands as he finished his meal.
''only for you Claire" he said standing up.
We danced to Simon and Garfunkel's I am a rock. We sang and twisted around. He would twirl me out and I would come back in and he would dip me. The entire time my heart was beating out of its chest.
Then Jim Croce time in a bottle came on. He pulled my hand in his and his other wrapped around my waist and I had my head rested on his chest.
'' If I could save time in a bottle the first thing I'd like to do is to save every day 'til eternity passes away just to spend them with you.'' Quill sang lightly to me as we swayed. His deep voice sending shivers through my body.
''I could make days last forever, if word could make wishes come true. I'd save every day like a treasure and then again, I would spend them with you'' I sang back lightly looking him in the eyes
He slowly started to lean in, my body froze. I realized that there was nothing to interrupt us. I was going to kiss Quill Ateara.
His lips met mine softly and my heart leaped out of my chest. His lips were warm and gentle moving against mine. I put my hands around his neck and played with the hair at the nape of his neck. His hand stayed on my hips. I moaned a bit into his mouth as he rubbed his thumbs in a circular motion.
He pulled back and rested his forehead on mine.
'' I love you Quill'' I told him looking into his eyes.
"I love you too.'' he whispered. My heart had to be in space by now. Those four words meant so much to me. I breathed in his ocean water and woodsy scent that always surrounds him.
''what does this mean?'' I asked pulling away a bit.
''whatever you want it to mean" he said putting a strand of my hair behind my ear.
''I want to be with you'' I told him resting my head against his chest.
''as I with you'' he said kissing the top of my head.
