Frozen does not belong to me

*Trigger Warning!* some parts of the story may trigger, please read at your own risk.

Chapter 3

Btw this chapter may be triggering.


Blood, there was blood everywhere, it stained the floor. There was a soft weeping sound, her heart sped up, she back into the wall.

Blood and years mixed together, there was agonizing screams of terror. There was a soft creepy whisper that was hard to make out. She listened closely, her heart sank at its words.

"You a monster, no one loves you, you nearly killed Anna twice how could she love you, you!" Tears sprang in her eyes, she scanned the room the the owner of the voice.

"Your parents feared you, they made you wear the gloves because your a monster! They were afraid, disgusted, ashamed of having a daughter like you." She wanted to run, oh lord she wanted to run. There was no escape though, there was a sudden sharp pain, and she stilled as looked down, she saw something horrifying she gasped; her arms dripping with blood, a knife lay at her feet.

"Elsa..." She heard a familiar voice say, she looked up, and saw her baby sister standing there.

"Anna?" She walked forward, but her she stopped and studied her sister's face; there wasn't care, worry, fear, hurt or love, no there was only pure hatred and disgust.

"I thought you weren't going to do again Elsa?" Her heart cracked a little.

"Oh Anna..." Came her broken whisper.

"Whatever haplened to doing ot for me?" Another little crack, oh and there was so many.

"Anna, I'm sorry." She choked out as tears flooded down her cheeks.

"Yeah right, you only care about yourself." She heard it as it cracked again.

"No Anna, I am, I love you." She swore to her.

"Then why do you do this? If you loved me then why did you hurt me?" Another imperfect crack found its way on her hear.

"Anna believe me." She heard herself plea.

"How, all you ever do is shut me out? You were never there, not even when Momma and Papa died. You were too caught up in yourself." The cracks grew bigger.

"I just didn't want you to get her." Her coice cracked.

"I can't stand to look at you Elsa, I hate you, I wish it were you instead of our parents who died." The cracks grew deeper.

"Anna, no, please." She reached out, but stopped when Anna spoke again.

"I'm done, I give up." She turned and disappeared. And then her heart broke completely shattering into millions of pieces, there was a sobbing sound the broke out. She tried to figure out where it was coming from, but realized it was her.

There was nothing left to live for, her vision blurred she fell to her knees and sobbed into her bloodied hands, she felt something touching her leg. She looked down, I was the knife, the one she always had, the one she just used.

She didn't care she reached for it, there was nothing left to live for, she brought the blade up to her throat, she closed her eyes tears continuing to fall and then suddenly she heard a call.

"Elsa?" She cringed, but continued.

"Elsa!?" Tears continued falling as she felt hot liquid forming around the knife...

"Elsa wake up!" Suddenly she shot up from a laying position, she looked around the room frantically, breathing heavily. She pulled up her sleeves and saw no visible signs of blood, just scars. She pulled her knees to her chest and cried, still horrified from what she figure had been a nightmare. She didn't realize someone was in the room with her.

"Elsa, oh my god, are you okay?" Elsa's head snapped up, and her eyes met with her sister's, her sobs worsened. Anna pulled her into a hug, "It's okay Elsa, it was only a nightmare." Elsa returned the hug and sobbed into her shoulder. After a bit her cried subsided and Elsa pulled away wiping her eyes, she look over at her window and saw that the sun wasn't all the way up.

"Are you okay?" Anna asked, she was worried for her sister, she had woken up to her screams. When she came into her bedroom Elsa was sobbing and saying she was sorry and how she loved her, she kept repeating, "Please Anna." So the girl could only figure she was having a nightmare about her. The room was very cold; Elsa was and still is very distressed.

Elsa bit her lip, "Yeah, I just had a nightmare."

"Would you like to talk about it?" Anna offered, hoping that if her sister talked about whatever was bothering her she could fix or at the very least comfort her in the right way. But to her disappointment Elsa shook her head.

"No, I'm fine now. Did I wake you?" Anna shrugged.

"Yeah, but it's not a big deal," she saw a sudden wave of guilt wash over Elsa's features. "I probably would have woken up soon anyway."

"Anna, you know I love you right?" Elsa asked suddenly, Anna was taken back for a moment but recovered quickly and answered.

"Of course I know you love me! Why wouldn't I?" Elsa was relived slightly, she was still a little fazed by her dream she just had. She sighed.

"I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner….about my powers and self-injury. In fact I guess I didn't even tell you with either one…" Elsa said; she felt more tears forming in her eyes, before Anna could respond she continued with a sad laugh.

"I was just, really scared and ashamed, I really hated myself for hurting you Anna. I still remember seeing you fall to the ground, you were so cold and lifeless I called out for Momma and Papa they came quickly…" Anna was surprised she never had heard this story, how didn't she remember it?

"We brought you to the trolls, they healed you but took you memory of my powers away, after that our parents decided to separate us, and close the gates. Ever since that day Anna, I felt horrible, I felt like a monster. I was so afraid of hurting you again, I shut you out and our parents out completely…" Elsa's voice broke, Anna wanted to cry herself, but didn't she had to be strong for Elsa.

"When I was twelve, I began hurting myself, as a punishment and a way to feel again. It became a daily routine Momma discovered my secret one day….they asked me, no demanded me to tell them why I did it. I told them that I felt bad for hurting you and I had no idea why I cut." Elsa wiped away her tears, but the tears kept coming; she needed to continue, her sister deserved to know.

"Momma and Papa helped me as best as they could, I got better over time, Momma and Papa left and I thought I could do it without them, I had been clean of cutting for nearly a year, but then we got the message—I was going to kill myself, Anna, but then you came and told me you had thought about killing yourself and how we needed each other—after that I decided I needed to stop once and for all….but as you can see that didn't exactly go as planned." Elsa said, she sighed. She didn't really have more to say, she wasn't going to describe to her baby sister how she cut herself.

"I'm sorry Anna, I should how told you sooner." Anna smiled gently and sadly at her.

"It's okay Elsa, I understand, now more than ever. Remember if you ever need to talk you can come to me. I'm not going to make you promise me you aren't going to ever relapse again—that would make things worse on you, I just ask that you come and tell me when you feel like you need to cut, or if you do relapse." Elsa nodded, and returned a weak smile to her sister.

"Of course Anna," Anna pulled her into another hug.

"I love you, Elsa, we'll get through this, together. I'll be there every step of the way." They hugged for another moment and let go, Elsa felt a lot better now and so did Anna. They were both very determined to fight this, together.


Authors Note: I'm so sorry for the late update! I hope you enjoyed, this doesn't have to be the ending though, if y'all want me to continue I can, I mean it's not like Elsa's problems are all over. So tell me what you think, continue or not? Your choice.

Also, I'm looking for a beta to read over this story and I'll go back and fix all the missed mistakes in this and the other chapters very soon, just when I find time in my crazy life. My sister is in and out of the hospital, but I will find time I promise.