-End Flashback-"Hello? Alex? Hello?" Izzie said waving her hand in front of his face."What? Oh sorry just spacing out I guess." Alex said sitting in the chair next to Meredith."Alex you look like hell. you want some?" Meredith said handing him half of her sandwich."Yeah thanks." Alex said taking the sandwich. "Does anyone know why he left anyway?""All i know is that he got into a fight with Derek and the next day he was gone. But Derek called him a couple days later and they made up so I don't really know." Meredith explained to Alex."Torres told me he didn't even pack. Just bought a plane ticket and left. No one even knows where he went." Christina added still focused on suturing up her dolls arm."That's so weird." Izzie commented. "And kinda a douchebag move if you ask me. I mean he had responsibilities didn't he? Eh, just proves looks aren't everything." "Just shut up Iz. You don't even know what the hell happened!" Alex yelled at Izzie leaving the room with Meredith not far behind."Alex! What the hell! What was that all about?" Meredith asked when she finally caught up with Alex in the elevator."I can't take it anymore Mer! I have to tell someone!" Alex screamed pushing the emergency stop button on the elevator."What is it!" Meredith screamed back at him."I had sex with Sloan!" Alex yelled relieved to finally tell someone."…what?" Meredith said with a huge smile on her face. "Are you serious?" "Yes." Alex said with a sigh."And i don't know what to do about it Mer. He left right after it happened. What kind of jerk does that?" Alex said tearing up."Aw." Meredith said hugging Alex. "The kind who's Mark Sloane, Alex." "You know, your being a lot calmer about this then I thought you would." Alex said wiping his nose clear with his sleeve."Well I thought I'd hold of the "Was he as good as he says" questions til later. I mean this must have been a horrible secret to keep!" Meredith said surprised he kept it as long as he did."Yeah horrible, wonderful, amazing, it was everything at once Mer, and I'm so glad you don't hate me." Alex said hugging Meredith again."Hate you? Why would I hate you for this?" Meredith asked holding Alex's face between hear hands."Because, well I don't know. I just thought if I told you everything would change." Alex said"Well I can't promise there won't be any changes but I'm sure they'll all be good changes." Meredith said giving Alex a tissue to wipe his eyes clear."Thanks. And I'd appreciate if you didn't tell anyone. I don't know how Sloane would feel if he came back and everyone knew he fucked me." Alex said pressing the button to reactivate the elevator."Well lets not worry about Mcdouche right now. Lets just worry about why he's coming back. What exactly happened that night? I mean don't need all the dirty details but why do you think he left." Meredith said as the elevator doors opened at the second floor."I don't know. I thought we had a good night. I mean he definitely enjoyed himself, and it was great for me too." Alex said going through the night again, getting a little hard remembering certain details."So you just woke up the next morning and he was gone? Didn't leave a note? Didn't call? Nothing?" Meredith asked in disbelief."Yeah he texted me." Alex said getting his phone out and showing Meredith the text."Thanks for the great night sorry i couldn't stay wish i could explain" Meredith read out loud. "What the hell kinda text is that?" "I don't know. I don't know anything anymore. I'm not even sure how this all got started." Alex said walking into an on call room with Meredith not so far behind still rereading the text."Well have you talked to him since? Did you ask why he's coming back?" She asked handing Alex his phone back."No not yet. I thought about texting him but I have no idea what I'd say. Hell i don't even know what I'm gonna do when he gets back!" He said starting to stress out."Hey just calm down. I think you should just lay down for a while. I'll handle your patients today and then tonight you can tell me all about that night and we can talk about what your gonna do when he comes back." She said pushing him back on the bed gently."Yeah, ok. Sounds good." Alex said laying down as Meredith walked out of the room reminding him not to worry.-Later that night-"So…do you wanna eat first or take a shower first? Or do you just wanna talk?" Meredith asked classing the front door to her house."Uh lets just talk. I already ate at the hospital." Alex said walking upstairs to Meredith's room."Ok. So what exactly are the boundaries for this talk." Meredith asked as they laid down next to each other on the bed, looking up at the ceiling."No boundaries. Ask me anything you want." Alex said preparing himself for the bombardment of questions."Ok." She said with a huge smile."Was he as good as he says?""Mmmm, better, he was amazing." He answered remembering the experience."I knew he would be. There's just something about they way he acts." She said with a slight shudder. "I bet he was big too right?""Massive. You know how I couldn't work the day after he left? Lets just say I wasn't walking straight." "Haha! Oh my god!" Meredith squeaked, overly excited that she know had the gay friend she'd always talked almost the entire night asking about the where and the who did what and even got a little more personal asking what positions they used and how long he lasted. Overall that night Alex had discovered not only was Meredith an extremely sexual person, but she also had a slight fascination with gay people. But the truth was Alex didn't know if he was gay or not. He liked sleeping with girls and he loved boobs but the past month all he could think about was Mark. Well not all he could think about. He had unfortunately also adopted a certain dream that he was moderately ashamed of. He dreamed of walking into the hospital only to be pulled into the on call room by none other then Jackson Avery. How this had happened he didn't know but whatever it was he liked it, and he hoped it wouldn't stop even with Mark coming back.-Later the next day-"Hey Iz wait up!" Alex called from down the hall."What do you want Alex. I have a patient." She said uninterested."Listen. I'm sorry I yelled at you yesterday. I've just got some personal issues going on but that's not an excuse for what I did, and I really am very sorry." He said pleading for her forgiveness."Wow. I think that is the first time I've ever heard a sincere apology from you. I'm impressed. But your not getting off that easy." She said sinisterly."Alright, I guess that's fair. What do you want me to do?" He asked willing to do anything."You see over there?" Izzie pointed to an old lady in room 218. "She gets bed sores if you don't turn her every hour, and you sir are going to be her personal turner." Izzie said smiling at Alex as he handed her 's chart."Ok, sounds good. Anything else?" He said grabbing the chart from her."Yeah, you have to tell me why your acting so….different. It's freaking me out." She said staring at him strangely."There's no reason Iz. I'm just, trying to become someone knew. Someone different." He said then walked into 's watched Alex walk into 's room smiling almost like he was…happy? No that couldn't be. Alex was never really happy. At least not this happy.
