Thanks for all the reviews & comments, this chapter is kinda late and I'm really sorry. My cousin passed away and everything has been hectic. But I'll be sure to update more often, I promise!!
January 15th, 2010
I feel like a total idiot. To be honest, I really don't like myself. I think that I am a horrible, cold, and rude person. I don't mean to be but it just happens. I can't believe what I just did, why, why did I do it!? I actually like Troy a lot, it might not be love but I really do care about him but I don't deserve him at all. I'm a horrible excuse for a girlfriend, sister, friend, daughter and just a human being in general.
So many people assume that I'm the most confident girl in the whole school, I can wrap people around my finger so easily. Everyone seems to want to be my friend. Yes, I'm the president of the drama club. Yes, I have been in over a dozen school musicals, the lead every time. But people don't seem to understand. Drama, it's the only thing that make me happy. Most people would of course agree, she's a drama queen of course she would love drama, but it's different. Not the kind of drama when people are fitting or I'm getting worked up about something, but the art. It's the only thing that keep me sane and happy.
Sharpay Evans
The blonde beauty put away her book where she usually wrote poems and songs. She felt like shit, she should have never went there.
The room was crowded but the one blue eyed boy caught her eye the instant she walked into the room. She strutted over to him, knowing that he wanted her by him. "Hey," he said in a husky voice. "So, why did you want me to come here?" she asked. She would have thought to some to the party if he hadn't asked, she probably wouldn't have at all but she cared about him so she went. "To be with you." he smiled, Sharpay couldn't help but smile back. He leaned down and lightly pressed his lips on her collarbone, and slowly went her neck. His feather kisses seemed to hit all the right place. The blonde began to feel dizzy, she wasn't even sure if it was because of the alcohol or because of the kisses. He slowly stopped, "Maybe we should.." Sharpay knew where this was heading, but she hadn't felt like this in such along time. "You drank you idiot, don't go!" But her body was thinking differently as she walked into the bedroom door with Braden Johnson.
I guess it's a good thing that I have something like that, to keep me in one piece. But Troy, how is he going to be happy now? I cheated on him, it's not like a meant to, I can hardly remember what happened that night. "I don't know what to do. Should I tell him? And what if I don't? will he find out? Is it really worth all the drama to tell Troy the truth?" Sharpay whispered to her dog, probably her only real friend. She let out a sigh. It was hard to not have any friends, well real ones. Of course she had people to hang out with but there was never anyone to really to talk. She had once thought about talking to Gabriella Montez, a very long time ago when she had a class with her in grade ten. She seemed nice, smart and loyal, that would make a great friend. But one thing got in the way, and it wasn't even what most people thought it was, it was the fact the Gabriella Montez had so many friends. She could not stand the fact the Gabriella was so quiet and shy but still had so many friends. It didn't make sense. "It's probably because she is so nice, that would make sense, right Maui?" she asked the dog.
Ever since Sharpay started to date Troy she couldn't stand her even more. She had him as her very best friends and no matter how in love Troy was with Sharpay, Gabriella would always be the best friend. This caused resentment and the two just would not get along. It's not like Gabriella hadn't tried, she did on many occasions. Sharpay would even start to get along with her until she reminded herself why she could not stand her. It all seemed very immature but Sharpay was rather naïve.
January 15th, 2010
I want to shout it on a roof top but yet I want to keep it to myself. The secret is on the tip off my tongue. Will it ever some out? I don't know how to feel about it. I mean, who do I talk to? And how?
I used to be confused about it a lot but Gabriella is such a good friend, she listens and I think I might even tell her the truth soon. I trust her and so many people love her. I know that she isn't always happy with herself but I try to fix it, she helps me so much I should return the favour.
Ryan Evans.
The blonde boy put away the dairy that he wrote almost daily, it really helped him think and he was not ashamed to say he had one. He had been hiding a secret since sophomore year, and he still hasn't told anyone.
Suddenly his cell phone buzzed, a text message. He went over and picked it up from the cherry wood desk. "Hey, the group is going to have a get together at Chad's place tonight. You should come." he smiled as he replied to Gabriella, she always wanted to included him. "Do you mean get together or party?! Lol" he wrote and then hit send. A few seconds later his phone vibrated. "Well, knowing Chad, probably party.. " Ryan typed the keys on his phone, "I guess I could go.." "You better! :P" he smiled as he put his phone down. He walked over to his sister's room, she probably was already asked to the party, seeing as Chad is Troy's best friend.
He knocked on the white door and waited for a reply. "Come in.." he turned the door knob and walked into the room. Ryan and Sharpay, well they got along when it came to the drama club, but outside of school, it was like they weren't even related. "Hey Shar, are you going to Chad's tonight?' he asks. "Umm, I don't know yet." says Sharpay. She sounded nervous, since when was his sister ever nervous. "Is something wrong?" he asks, meaning other than the oblivious fact that her and Chad didn't exactly get along. "It's nothing, really.." she responses. He could tell she wanted to talk, but she was so stubborn. "Sharpay, we are brother and sister, you know you can tell me stuff. I won't tell anyone." Ryan says. "Maybe later, I'm heading to the mall. See you later okay." she says as she grabs her Chanel purse and walks out of her room to the garage.
Sharpay walked around, sipping on a funky monkey booster juice as she looked for another store to go to. You know how they call it retail therapy? Well that's what it was for her. It helped her relax and got all the weight off her chest. She walked into a store, not really paying any attention to what was in there. But once she spotted sparkly ballet flats she bolted over there in an instant. "Taylor, I don't want it." she hears the beautiful brunette say. Sharpay slowly grabs her size seven flats and browses the other shoes as she listens in on the conversation between the two brainy dark-haired beauties. "Gabriella, it's a size 4, that isn't big. I mean come on, the only people who are a size 1 are models, and even they are that small." Sharpay listens confused. Why would Gabriella not be comfortable in a size four? She was basically the same size as Sharpay, but she had a few more curves, which the blonde wished for. "I'm not saying I want to be a size 1 Tay, I just don't want the stupid jeans. How about a pair of sweats or something?" she says as she walks over to the sweats that are next to the shoes. Shoot! Why didn't she have to come over here? Sharpay tries to act natural as Gabriella is about a foot away.
Neither had really acknowledged each other since the incident at Troy's house. Normally they would at least say hello but the past week they hadn't said a word to each other. The chocolate eyes took a quick glance at her and quickly looked away. Taylor was soon by her side, "Oh hey Sharpay." she wasn't stupid, Sharpay knew that Taylor knew what happened. "Hi, Taylor." she says in a some what prissy voice. "Taylor, I gotta go home soon, my mom need help taking the lights down." Gabriella says after a long silence as she grabs a pair of grey sweats. "I thought that Troy was doing that." Taylor says as Gabriella nudges her tell her shut up, which did not go unnoticed by Sharpay. "Well, we will see you at the party Sharpay. Bye!" the two walked to pay for their things and then left.
The blonde walked to her car and headed back home. She was not sure about the whole Chad's party. That meant facing Troy, not to mention all his friends. Why was life so confusing? If it couldn't be easy, could it at least not confusing. She was still unsure on what to do, she liked Troy but she knew that he felt more for her and she did for him. Maybe it would be best to let him go..
