To: Jon_Snow
From: Arya_Stark
Date: 04/07/2007
Subject: Recovery
Dear Jon,
I've been home for three days, and they are still treating me like I am a freaking china doll. I hate it. They still don't believe that it was an accident. Even Rickon acts like he is walking on egg shells around me. If you were here, this wouldn't have happened. But you are not here. Gods know where you are. I still have nightmares about you. They won't let me have the pills again, so I wake up screaming every night. Some nights, I manage to hold back the screams though. I bite my lips hard enough to draw blood so I won't scream. Sometimes Sansa sleeps with me, and holds me and soothes me. She's a good sister. I'm afraid I haven't been a good sister for a while.
I went back to see Ms. Brienne yesterday. She is disappointed in me, I could see. It makes me angry. Who is she to be disappointed in me? She is just some woman Father's paying to talk to me. She does not care about me, not truly. I don't want to talk to her. I want to talk to you.
Robb is home. He does not even look at me most of the times. I think I remind him too much of you. He spends most of his time hanging out with Theon.
Mother and Father worry about me, I can tell. I want to tell them that I am fine. Except I am not. I am not fine. I will not be fine until you come home. So, please, I'm begging you, come back.
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To: Jon_Snow
From: Arya_Stark
Date: 15/07/2007
Subject: Soulmates
Dear Jon,
I'm back in school. None of them know about my trip to the hospital. Not even Hot Pie. And I'm immensely grateful for it. He's been worrying about me enough already. Classes seem to drag on these days. I've lost interest. The teachers do not even call on me anymore. I suppose they have been informed. Master Forel did not say anything. He treats me the same as before, which is something I am truly thankful for. Mr. Lannister told me to stay back after class yesterday. When I did, he said that he would give me an extension on the assignments I have missed. And he said that you would not want me doing this to myself. I am not doing anything to myself. What would he know about what you would want anyway? He does not know you, not like I do. We are one person in two bodies, you used to say. We were soulmates, you would say. Do I feel like this because you are feeling the same? I pray to the old gods and the new that it is not. I hope you are safe, wherever you are. I hope that you are safe and not in pain.
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To: Jon_Snow
From: Arya_Stark
Date: 25/07/2007
Subject: Crushes
Dear Jon,
Remember the boy I told you about? The one who is in my English class? His name is Edric Dayne. He told me to call him Ned though. He is still trying to talk to me. My glares (The ones you told me were icy and effective, you liar) are not working. Perhaps they have lost their power. Edric is a nice enough bloke, but he is very persistent. I think he likes me. Only the Gods know why. I question his sanity. I am not talking to him, though. Not more than necessary, anyway.
My classes are going as well as they can be. My grades are more than decent. You would be proud that I got a perfect score on the last math test.
I think Sansa and Margaery are dating. I saw them kissing once. They have not told anyone. Sansa has not even told us that she likes girls. I think she is hesitant about coming out. I do not see why. She is still Sansa, and now she likes lady parts instead of boy bits. I know Mother and Father won't have a problem. Besides, Margaery is a vast improvement from that twatwaffle Jofferey. Then again, anyone is better compared to that bastard.
Bran and Meera are going strong. It's sickening, really, watching them. They are disgustingly cute. Mother had a problem with Bran's choice in women at first, but Meera won her over. Good for her. You know how nice she is.
I talk to Bran sometimes. Talking to him calms me better than it does when it is Ms. Brienne. Bran misses you. Ghost and Nymeria miss you. I miss you. Everyone misses you, but I miss you the most. You are my soulmate, not theirs. You should come back to me.
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To: Jon_Snow
From: Arya_Stark
Date: 31/07/2007
Subject: Make It Safely Home
Dear Jon,
Today was the last day of school. Everywhere I looked, people were so happy. I wanted to shake them, to scream at them. How could they be happy when nothing is alright? Every day there is no news of you, I feel something inside me growing empty. But then again, I suppose, it is my pain to bear. I have not given up hope though. I heard Mother say to Father that maybe you were….gone. I do not believe her. You are alive. I would know if you were not. You said we were soulmates. I would know if you were gone. I would feel it. You are alive. You are out there somewhere. But you will come home to me. You will make it safely home. And when you do, I am not letting you leave. You are staying with me once you come back. Terrible things happen when we are apart. Please come back.
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A/N: Yes, I know no schools are open in July. Summer vacation and all that. But I only remembered that detail while writing the last email. So, I'm making it so that they have only August for their summer vacation. I hope you will forgive me for that teeny tiny or maybe not so tiny mistake.
Cheers xx
