So I don't know if any of you watch The Newsroom, but that's where this song is from. To me, it really feels like a Fitz and Ana song in this moment. And for other past time events. You should listen to it while reading. You may like it! It's called 'Let My Love Open The Door' by Luminate
Release yourself from misery
Only one thing's gonna set you free
That's my love
Let my love open the door
Let my love open the door
Let my love open the door
Adriana just stared at him with nothing but anger in her eyes. After all this time, he wanted to talk now? While she's in the hospital? With a concussion? The nerve of him.
"Let me be very clear about this. I don't want to talk to you. Not now. Not ever. You've had plenty of time to talk to me in the last five months and I heard nothing. So go back to your prefect life, with your prefect little job and the perfect family and leave me and my fuck up one alone. Now get out before I have you thrown out!" she yelled at him.
"NO! I told you I'm not going anywhere! I'm your goddamn brother and I need you in my life. I know I said some really fucked up shit to you and did some even worse, but Ana, you're not so innocent yourself!" he threw back at her.
Adriana got up and stood in front of him.
"You don't think I know that? You don't think I wish I could take back knowing who you really were? Are?! There is not a day that goes by that I wish I didn't! But now I do and I hate it! I HATE you! You did this to me and I fucking hate you!" she started hitting his chest and arms and Fitz grabbed her and pulled her into a tight hug.
She resisted at first until Fitz sat down in the floor with her, cuddled to his chest and cried with her. They both had reached a breaking point and only the comfort of each other would sooth them.
Fitz kissed the top of her head as she grabbed his shirt of dear life.
"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry Ana." He cried to her. All Adriana could do was cry harder.
After about forty minutes, they both stopped. The room was quite but Fitz was waiting for her to take the lead.
"I see him." She barely whispered. If Fitz had not been so close, he would have missed it. "Everywhere I go, I see him. It's like he really didn't die. Every time I close my eyes, he's there. Every corner I round, he's there. I can't sleep at night out of fear that I'll see him." She paused and started crying again. "He's not dead. He's not dead Fitzgerald."
Fitz's heart broke for the girl before him. To the world, she was a woman of the Grant kind. But to him, she was always that little girl that always needed protecting and he was her protector. And right now, he had to be Superman. Or Super Fitz as she use to call him as a child.
"Yes he is honey. He's gone and he is never coming back. Ever. You're safe and I will never leave you alone again for as long as I live."
Adriana nodded her head and looked up at him.
"I'm sorry. For everything. Olivia, you, Shawn, Andrew, Carter. You guys should have never had gotten involved and if it weren't for me coming to see you that week-"
"It's not your fault Ana. We would have got mixed up with it anyways. You just gave us a head start." He chuckled.
They let go of each other and Fitz returned her to her bed and sat down with her.
"I have questions." He said.
"As do I." she replied.
Fitz took a deep breath and began.
"Did you try to kill yourself Adriana?"
Adriana stared at him for a while before answering.
"No."
"Then what did you do?"
She out her head down and spoke.
"I came down here with Harrison because he needed a professional view on a case he's working on. The night we landed, I went to my hotel and tried sleeping but… I kept se..seeing him. I tried to ignore it but that didn't help. So I went and took my panic and anxiety medications. I don't remember how much I took because the next thing I know, Harrison is over me yelling then I'm in here."
As Fitz sat there and listened, he realized his sister had accidentally overdosed without knowing it.
"So it was an accidental overdose?"
She nodded.
"Ana, you can't do things like that! What would have happened if Harrison had never went over there? You can talk to someone about this. You can talk to me!"
"Really? Because that's worked out so well in the past." She told him quietly.
Fitz bowed his head in shame.
"My turn. You and Jake huh?"
"I was trying to protect you from Harrison. I didn't want you to go down that road with him again. Was it wrong the way I did it? Yes. Do I regret it? Hell no."
Adriana laughed humorlessly.
"You know, I actually liked Jake. I did. And for a while, I saw us together. But then Harrison kept creeping back into my mind. Then Jake told me about what you two had set up and I felt betrayed. Have I EVER interfered with your love life? No. And there were times I should have. I never once stopped you from being with Olivia! Shit, even Mellie! Although I let it known I didn't like her. What about that time you and Olivia broke up for two months?! I STILL DIDN'T STOP YOU! And you want to know why? Because you love her and fought for her! And that's what Harrison was trying to do for me that night! I'm not saying it's all your fault, but I would probably be in a much better pace right now if I had him that night. You betrayed me!"
"And what about you? You made me, Shawn and Andrew tell you about Maximum and you knew the whole time that we were. And you want to talk about betrayal? What about me? What about how I felt?"
"How you feel? Tell me something. Do you know how it feels to kill your own brother? To protect you're other brothers and families? To look into his eyes and know you share the same bloodline and because of that, he's in you? Apart of you? You think I wanted to become who I am today? You think I didn't want to tell you as soon as I found out? I had to protect my own. And if that meant lying, then so be it. That's the thing you're not getting. Everything I did and went through was to protect Olivia. And Andrew. And Shawn. And Carter. And you. And you want to talk to me about betrayal?"
Fitz felt all the blood drain from his face.
"I didn't realize…I'm… Okay."
"Okay."
"So where does this leave us now?"
"Honestly, I don't know. Can we even repair what's broken here?"
"I think we can."
"I think we can too."
The nodded at each other and sat in silence for a while. Fitz noticed that she was getting tried and told her to lay down. He stepped outside to call Olivia.
"Hi."
"Hi."
"How is she? She okay?" Olivia asked.
"She has a crack in her skull, but it'll heal. She accidentally overdosed."
Olivia started to panic.
"I can feel you panicking and you need to calm down. I'll tell you why later. What time are you leaving the office?"
"About six. I'm too tried to pull an all-nighter again." She told him.
"Okay. I'm gonna stay here til then. Call me when you leave?"
"I'll call you when I get there?"
"Olivia…" he warned.
"No. She's my sister too and if I want to see her, I will. Don't try me on this. I miss her just as much as you and it's about time I see her." She threw at him.
Fitz sighs and didn't fight back.
"Okay. Be careful and I love you."
"I love you too babe."
He walked back in Adriana's room and sat in the nearby chair.
"Fitzgerald?" Adriana asked.
"Will you come here?"
He got up and went over to her. She moved over on the bed to provide a space for him to lay down with her.
After her took of his suit jacket and shoes, he climbed in there with her and pulled her to his side.
"I love you."
Fitz tried fighting back the tears threating to spill over but lost.
"I love you too. I love you too AnaBear."
FINALLY! It's been 84 years. I hope you guys liked it. And let me just thank you to Missschievous and LoreneMichelle41. You guys are AWESOME! Let me know what you guys think about this one! I love getting your reviews. Next chapter is when everything really starts going. Hint: Some finds out a huge secret about Olivia. Thanks guys! :)
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