Warnings:
This story will contain - Yaoi/mentionings of yaoi, sexual content, Sasori x Deidara, fluff, angst, OoCness, gore, violence, sadism and language. If you do not like, DO NOT READ
Deidara, Tobi, Pein, Sasori adn the Akatsuki belong to Masashi Kishimoto!
The plot and the dead child belong to me! (aka vatelle/petite-neko)
and Sorry if Tobi shall sound weird, but it's my first attempt at keping in in character
'It's been so long…' I thought to myself, clenching my fists
Chapter 2 – Discoveries and Assumptions
'It's been so long…' I thought to myself, clenching my fists. Truthfully, it's only been about two weeks. But… it felt so long. Every day felt like an eternity to me. The time would pass by like the wait for something… or one. That one person whom I was waiting for, they would never come back; nothing could bring him back, not now. My fists tightened as I punched the wall, the inner layer of plaster breaking. Kakuzu would kill me once he saw my room, but I didn't care. I wanted to die anyway. I saw no point in living anymore, and no point in staying within the Akatsuki. Yet, for some reason I felt that I must.
I heard a faint knocking on my door, my ears perking to hear a slightly muffled voice. "Deidara-senpai? Are you in there?"
I was about to answer, but my throat wouldn't produce any noise. I coughed and regained it, though quiet. "Yes." That was when I realized I had been crying. I quickly ran my arm across my eyes, ridding my face of the tears. I glanced into the mirror to see my visible eye puffy and red. Crap. I couldn't go out like this!
"Deidara-senpai is here? Leader-sama wishes us to see him. Can I come in?"
"NO!" I said a little too loudly, too forcefully.
I could tell the orange-masked brat was taken back by my tone of voice. "O-Okay Deidara-senpai… Tobi will be waiting by his room!"
His room?! His room?! I felt like screaming at the idiot, taking out all of my fury and grief on him. That was NOT his room! It was… It was…
A sob in my throat stopped my trail of thoughts. Like I could have though of his name again. Just seeing his picture, his art, or any reminder of his life hurt, it tore at my heart. Why… Why did I have to leave him?! Why was I so greedy?! Why….
I quickly grabbed the eye drop bottle, and put some into my eye to rid myself of the redness and puffiness.
When I saw that I could have passed for a slight infection or tiredness, I turned around and left the room.
I saw Tobi waiting for me outside of the door and I nodded, walking toward Leader-sama's room. I kept my eyes straight ahead, not really seeing nor feeling. I felt like an animated corpse…
A puppet flashed before my eyes, and I closed them, stopping for a moment. No… No… I couldn't remember… it hurt too much. Puppets were his art…
"…pai… Deidara-senpai?" A voice echoed in my head, bringing me back to reality.
"Yes?" I asked monotonously.
"Is Deidara-senpai okay? You suddenly stopped, not to mention that you haven't been saying 'un,' 'yeah,' or 'hmm' at the end of your phrases. You've been so quiet and reserved since--"
"Shut up Tobi!!" I cut him off, glaring at the boy. "I'm perfectly fine! There's nothing wrong with me! You're just imagining things!" Now that I notice, I haven't been saying my speech impediment nor have I been the loud fool I usually was.
"Okay if you say so senpai." Tobi said, shrugging slightly before he moved his hands to clasp behind his head as he walked.
That idiot found so many ways to annoy me, and he still hasn't ceased to do so even while I'm in this current state. I felt like... ugh! I just wanted to kill the idiot.
We silently approached the room and I knocked, being the senior in the pair. Heh… how ironic… just like him. I shook my head slightly, ridding myself of these thoughts. I had to forget, I must.
I felt a memory tugging at my mind but I ignored it. I cannot cry in front of Leader-sama… I couldn't!
"Who is it." A voice broke though my thoughts, my body automatically responding, "Deidara and Tobi." I spoke without feeling.
"Come in."
I stepped in tune with Tobi, and he look at the area where the Leader was. He hid himself within the shadows and he spoke.
"Deidara, it is time to dispose of the corpse and the area where Sasori died…"
I head no more. My ears stopped hearing, my lungs stopped breathing… Sasori… I thought, my world shattering on me. The only visible recognition of my mind's absence was my wide eye.
Sasori… Sasori… my... my lover… Sasori… he's….
"Deidara? Deidara-senpai?" I heard a voice speaking, snapping out of my phase.
I glanced toward Tobi and looked at him like he was stupid. "What is it." I said, my voice dead.
"We are going now."
Going…? Going where? I followed the taller Nin nonetheless.
"Deidara-senpai… are you all right? You spaced out in Leader-sama's presence when he mentioned Sasori. Are you sure you are alright?"
Sasori… my eyes widened again as I stopped movement. Saso…
"Deidara-senpai?"
I switched back into reality. "What is it Tobi. I've told you I am perfectly fine."
"No you aren't, it's him right? You cannot accept his d-"
"SHUT UP TOBI!" I screamed, covering my ears. "Shut up! What do you know?! I am perfectly fine! You don't know me!" My heart lurched, it ached. No. Not now. Later… later…
"I'm right senpai, stop denying it. It's him, it's S-"
At this, I punched the side of Tobi's face. "How many times have I told you to shut up?! I'm getting my clay, meet me outside you idiot!"
I thought I heard Tobi chuckle before he stood up straight again. "Alright senpai!" He said in an energetic voice.
As I entered my room, I collapsed, pounding the ground. What were we suppose to do again..?
My mind went back before I zoned out…
"Deidara, it is time to dispose of the corpse and the area where Sasori died…"
My eyes widened as I fought back tears. I couldn't crack down now… no…
'Think of it as you are destroying a place… Close your eyes… Don't look at his corpse… it's just an empty place… It has no meaning… no meaning…' I told myself, my mind and body calming. Yes… it's only an empty place. I stood up and grabbed my clay sack. I am just destroying an empty, meaningless place…
Tobi and I flew to the place we had to destroy. Memories threatened to break through the shell I created, but I pushed them back. I was safe within my room, and there I could give into my weakness. But not on missions.
We flew closer and closer to the target we needed to explode. I was going to throw clay, nothing was needed to see.
Just as I reached into my pouch to create my bombs, the idiot jumped down into the pit. "Wait! Come back here you idiot!"
I just heard the childish laughter of Tobi as he fell to the ground. I grumbled but followed suit. Like I could explode the area with my 'partner' inside it. I felt something tug at my heart but I ignored it.
I landed on the ground, hearing the crack of wood. 'Wood…' I thought. I closed my eyes, ridding myself of the thought. No… not now. No!
"Deidara-senpai! Come here!" Tobi's voice cut through my mind.
I risked a glanced, walking over, trying not to see the objects at my feet and on the walls. "What is it Tobi?"
"He's gone! His body is gone!!"
He? Who's… oh… his. Wait?! WHAT?! "What do you mean Tobi?!" My voice was loud and full of worry. No. No. No!! It can't be gone! NO!!
"His body is gone! Both are! See!" The idiot pointed to an area where I knew the true body of him belonged.
I felt rage building inside of me. NOBODY desecrates his grave! NOBODY touches his body!
"What's this?" The idiot asked, kicking the object of his current interest.
I glanced to see a small child and a sword piercing his heart. "It's a child Tobi." I spoke dully. Why was a child laying dead here and not him?
"But… he's dead. Oh! Tobi knows! Thieves must have taken Sasori's bodies and used them for money! And the child took the bandits here! That must be it!" Tobi began to clap excitedly. "See Tobi is a good boy!"
My hold on my temper exploded. My body was shaking with fury. "Tobi…." I said, trying to control my voice. "I suggest you get out of here before I blow this damn place up!" I shoved my hands into my clay sacks, tossing each chakra embedded model into every place I could within a matter of minutes. I didn't care if the idiot ran out of here or not. I would NOT let anybody touch this place anymore. NOBODY would walk upon his puppets again. NOBODY would tread upon his grave again. NOBODY!
I jumped up onto my bird and gained altitude. I felt a lone tear fall down my cheek as I stared down upon the place where I last saw him alive. This place had lost its meaning, without a corpse this place was an empty burrow. This place truly had no meaning to it anymore. "KATSU!" I screamed, explosions detonating one after another. I turned the bird away to fly away, my open cloak whipping behind me in the wind. I didn't watch each of my bombs explode; they had no meaning to me.
Tobi had managed to make it to the base before me. How, I never figured out, thought it didn't matter to me. As we reported, I felt the Leader's eyes settling on me. Tobi and I turned but my feet froze at the sound of my name. "Deidara."
I turned, my body shaking slightly. "Yes Leader-sama?"
I thought I heard an evil chuckle behind me before the door closed, and the masked-nin left.
"You need to pick up your act."
"Wh-What are you talking about Leader-sama?" I asked, stuttering slightly.
"I know about Sasori. I know about you and him."
"What… What do you mean Leader-sama?"
I heard a sigh and I saw a shadowed arm reach into equally shadowed hair. "Must I spell it out for you Deidara?"
I remained silent.
The sigh came again and the chair creaked as the Leader's form leaned toward the desk, his elbows resting on his desk, and his chin on his folded hands. "I know you two were in 'love' or something of that matter Deidara."
How… How did he know?! "Wh... What about it?" I stuttered, my mind struggling to remain intact.
"You haven't been taking too well with his death. I suggest you do something about it before I intervene Deidara."
"What do you suggest I do about it Leader?!" I snap at him, my voice raising too high.
"Deidara, do not take that tone with me!" The leader stood up to signify his superiority. After a moment he sat back down. "You could always… No, I believe it is better." He paused for a moment, walking toward me, still hidden in the shadows. His hand grabbed my chin as I stared into his eyes. "Deidara, you must…"
I nodded at his command, my body feeling numb. "Hai Leader-sama."
eeek! Deidara's PoV now!!
The poor guy he's really taking Sasori's death hard... well... 'death' and DAMN YOU TOBI! DON'T BELIEVE HIM DEIDARA
(see the kid WAS benefit for the plot )
Yeah, Deidara refers to Sasori as 'him'
It's easier for him to deal with it that way (I actually got the idea from a book XD)
And I know It sounds choppy, but that's intentional because Deidara keeps forcing himself to forget about Sasori momentarily so he can work ;;
I also added in the evil!Tobi as well, (the laughing/dark chuckles and Tobi's knowledge of the SasoxDei) I would really appreciate critiques on Tobi's character
and... uhh...
About the... cliffie...
I'm not going to answer it... for... a looonng time...
-RUNS AWAY FROM THE MASSES OF ANGRY FANS-
