Hey Guys! This chapter is a little longer than the other ones thankfully but its still pretty short =(. And don't think that the old questions won't get answered because they will. Its just part of the story I swear lol. ENJOY!
Heart Strings
The sun rose and morning came yet neither had woken me from the deep sleep I had fallen in to. I finally woke up around noon when the sun was high in the sky. Although if it hadn't been for Tyson and chief argueing I don't think I ever would have woken up. Even after I was fully awake I couldn't seem to find the strength to move, or the motive to. My night didn't seem like a reality, but at the same time it was confusion and let downs. I had dream that night too. Nightmares actually. I had no recollection of them in my memory. Just the terrible feeling in my stomach.
It was quiet for a long while. I was pretty sure that I was alone at the dojo. Or atleast that Tyson wasn't home. That didn't help to get me motivated to move. I sighed, a few more minutes in the peace and I'd get up. My eye lids drifted shut as my mind wandered. Dangerous thoughts came to mind. Just yesterday I swore to push them away. Kai.
Whatever happened the day before was a blur to me. I was sure of two things above all else. First, whatever events had happened Kai had some how saved me. One minute I get knocked out cold, the next I wake up in my bed. The only one who could have done that was Kai. My Kai. And second the next week was going to be one of the longest in my life. My infatuation with Kai, or what ever you wanted to call it was not handling this all well. I wanted him so badly to be there and comfort me. Just to hold me until I felt okay. But that's not on the list of possibilities.
What was wrong wtih me? I wasn't suppose to feel like this. Especially with him. Kai wasn't in to anyone. He was hardly friends with us, even after two years of us all practically living together. My feelings were wrong, and there was no one I could turn to for comfort. I know Tyson and Rei and Chief... they'd be okay with it. They would just never be able to understand. Them knowing would only make it harder to forget. If anyone knew, I'd never be able to let it go. And at this point letting go was impossible in the first place. He was always right there. Silent in his ways, hardly a word or action. Every moment I still clung to. Memories would never go away would they? I just wanted more than anything, if I couldn't have him, to be able to let him go.
Don't let go.
I sat straight up and gripped at my hair in fistfuls supressing a scream. Everytime I thought like that. Of wanting to let him go, a voice from the depths of my head would whisper sweet hope to me.
"It's not fair!"
"Whats not fair?"
My hands dropped to my sides immediately as my eyes searched the room for the speaker. In all the time I laid there I had never heard anyone come in, or heard anyone in the room. The color in my face turned beat red as my eyes set on Kai. He was sitting in the open door way to the backyard with his arms crossed over his chest, eyes closed. How could I not know he was there?
I almost choked on my own tongue trying to find words for him. Nothing came out. A thick silence filled the air. I knew if I didn't break it he wouldn't. I didn't think I could handle that much anxiety either. So I threw out the first question that came to mind.
"Where is everyone? It's so quiet I kind of figured it was just me here."
There was no joke to his voice. "Can't say I really know or care Maxie. I told them to leave you alone so they left after practice." His voice was steady, calm as always. It sent chills through my spine. My ears were begging for him to say more. To call me Maxie. I couldn't help but smile when he spoke no matter what he was saying. It was so rare. Then a cold fact hit me.
The two of us were alone.
From what Kai said the team was gone. All of them. Except me and him. My body apractically shook with nerves and excitement. This kind of thing never happened. There was always someone with us, or would be at any moment. Yet this time was different. I'd never had a chance to do anything. Ever. If there was a time to act I knew this was it. Especially because my body was craving to crawl over to him, sit myself on his lap and kiss that cold smile of his. To wrap my arms around his neck, kissing him as if he was mine. To make him all mine.
I wasn't going to let this oppertunity to go. I really was going to get up and crawl over to him. And do something. I opened my mouth to say something bit I got no further because Kai coughed a few times and stood up leaving the room.
"Stay here."
My mouth shut tight nothing else could be said. Part of me was relieved while another screamed about not doing anything. And yet there was a third side of me. The one that won over the other two. Why was Kai in here with me if everyone else was gone? My cheeks blazed. It was Kai. He never hung around if he didn't think he had to. Or did he? Was he just baby sitting me? Or was he watching over me? I was shaking. Everything was just so weird. One day I decide to end it and the next he might be getting closer to me. Was I just reading too much into this? Maybe this was a coincidence. It was so frustrating.
I threw myself back onto my pillow. Lost in my thoughts I didn't notice Kai had already come back in the room. When I saw him leaning against the door way I gasped a little. He stared at me for a moment, those grey eyes cold and emotionless. "Oh hey didn't see you there."
There was no reply, not that I thought I would actually get any. He walked over to me and put something on the floor beside me. I was too busy looking at him to notice it. At no point would he actually look at me. He just turned and walked towards the door.
"You better eat, they'll be back soon. And we have a lot of training to do."
I blinked confused. He had set down a plate of food, I'm sure something Rei had left for me before he left. Somehow when I looked back up he was gone. I hadn't even heard a sing foot step but he was far gone. Leaving the room to feel empty without him. Empty and alone, just like he always left me. Why did he always make me feel that way?
"Kai if you only knew..."
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