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I walk through the abandoned streets with a heavy heart; I feel like I should stop pitying myself and work on being happy down here. I don't know if that's possible, but like they always say, it doesn't hurt to try, right? Wrong, if you jump off a cliff in order to "try" and fly, it'll hurt when you hit the bottom. Believe me, I've fallen off a cliff before, and it wasn't a small one either.
But, for some reason, it may start with the letter I and end with nuyasha, I just can't move on. I am like a stone deeply embedded in the river floor, immoveable and stuck, causing all the water to ripple and become disrupted around it.
…I can almost hear the tiny the world's smallest record player, playing "My Heart Bleeds for You" in the background.
What happened to the amazing, tough priestess who soothed the wild demon and protected the Sacred Jewel from all kinds of evil?
Oh ya, she's right here, wallowing in self pity.
A spike of self loathing stabbed through my heart, I didn't want to be this. I didn't want to hurt anymore. I didn't want to be floundering in this sea of emotion anymore. I didn't want to be broken anymore!
I dust off my priestess robes again, although this time it was with slightly more vigor. I walk with swift movements in the direction of the better half of town, or at least I had always assumed it was better since whenever I wandered that direction the buildings had seemed to grow nicer in the distance.
Not that before today I had ever even had the slightest motivation to go there. I was suffering internally; therefore my environment should reflect that. I would have been nauseated to have been in a cheerful place, with cheerful dead people, cheerfully hanging out with their forever buddies, friends, and family for the rest of eternity.
I strode, quite confidently I might, in the direction of what I was searching. As I walked I thought quiet, yet strong motivational thoughts that really should be put together into a book, and sold for $12.99 to others who are going through my situation. Brilliant! With my mind desperately distract itself I didn't pay attention to where I was going. I tripped over a small rock, it wasn't small it was tiny, tiny I tell you, how pathetic…
Just as a small stone brought down Goliath, this small rock brought me down. Down to the ground.
I looked to my elbow which was now bleeding profusely, was I still made of flesh and blood? How could I be bleeding if I was dead? I didn't ponder it any longer, because I sob tore its way out of my chest, and before I could stop, I was sobbing. This whole time I hadn't cried once, crying would mean that I was giving up. But, maybe this was what I needed, to cleanse my heart and mind of the past, so that I could move on with the future.
And with that thought I let my weeping take over, and emptying my mind of everything else, not watching as I turned the thin layer of dirt on my face into mud. At least my skin will be baby soft.
Sora: Thank you so much to the two wonderful people who reviewed! I was honestly very surprised, because I thought with Kikyo I would have to write a million chapters before anyone would review, so now I am so excited!
And to anyone who knows the tiny, record player joke: congrats you're awesome :))
I haven't been able to update this chapter in awhile because of the error with FanFiction! However Mangascribbler let me know how to and that's how I got this chapter up! Three cheers for her! For anybody that needs to know how to get around the error, here's how: when the error page pops up look at the URL and change "property" to "content" and it will let you keep updating your story! No news on how to post a new story though... If anybody knows please tell me!
Thanks all!
Next chapter will be up ASAP!
