They were silent for a moment.
Addison took a deep breath trying to calm down a bit.
- Derek, I'm done here. I can't take it anymore. – She threw her handbag and car keys on the table and looked him in the eye waiting for a reaction. He was silent. He didn't care. So she tried to smile.
– You see – so easy you're free! – She turned away from him to go get her things but he grabbed her by the hand. Hard. He spun he around and loooked at her with suddenly dark eyes.
- No, Addison it's not easy. You think you can just break into my life again ruin it agaun and be done? Just like that huh?
- Ruin it - what are you…
- Shut up Addison will you? You ruined my life and I hate you for that!
- I know that you hate me ok! Ever since I came here you treated me like shit! – she was screaming at him now struggling to get out if his grip, but he didn't let go of her hand.
- That's what you get for fucking your husband's best friend in your family bed!
- Will you ever let go of it? You didn't fucking care! You left! So don't play victim here – in fact you left me long before you found us in bed together!
- I was working! And instead of supporting me you fucked Mark! And your problem is you think it's ok but it's not! – Addison managed to free her hand and she was so mad at Derek she couldn't hold it in so she pushed him in the chest with her palms again and again untill he was pressed against the wall.
- I don't think it's ok! I regret it every minute of my life and I wish I never did it but I did! And I have to live with that! And I want to make it up to you but you just won't let me! You are cold you are indifferent you are all like before Mark happened! You don't care!
Derek had never seen his wife in such an angry state –she was truly fulious. Her cheeks were flaming and she was hitting him in the chest really hard how so he grabbed her, turned her around and pressed her back against his chest stilling her movements.
-If I didn't care why would I take you back?!
- To torture and humiliate me! To hurt my pride like I hurt yours! Do you think I don't see the way you look at her?
- I look at her because she makes me happy! But I am stuck here with you because you are my wife!
-Oh you remember that! What a surprise! Maybe if you remembered that back in New York I wouldn't have to sleep with another man to feel like a woman again!
- You wanna feel like a woman – I'll make you feel like a woman! – Derek was beyond angry now – so he pressed her against the wall, caught her hands and held them above her head abd kissed her hard on the lips. Addison couldn't move so she just bit him.
- See Addie, you are not a woman you're a fucking bitch! You blame me for being indifferent? If anyone is indifferent it's you! I don't even know what you are doing here! I don't even know why I let you be here! Shit I hate myself cause I still can't get over you and I hate you because you're not miserable and not broken when I am! – and now Derek was not only furious but also scared like hell cause he never meant to admit his feelings for her but it was too late now.
- Cut the crap Derek! You got over me pretty quickly when you fell in love with Meredith! You got over me when you left me in bed with your best friend! You got over me when you chose to sleep in on-call room and not at home! And now when I finally admit that you are over me and there's nothing I can do why don't you let me go and get over you when I'm finally ready to?!
They were both breathing hard both mad and he was still pressing her against the wall holding both her hands above her head and Addison felt like she couldn't do anything – she couldn't move and she couldn't fight him because he was much stronger then her. And then he was suddenly kissing her again, and it felt surprisingly good, but she was just too angry so she bit him again. And he bit her back but he never stopped kissing her brutally while pressing her harder into the wall. Addison was in pain and she knew he wouldn't stop for anything. She felt weak and exposed and totally at his mercy and suddenly she was hot and she was kissing him back with equal force, still biting, sucking on his lips, moaning against her own will. It was a vicious circle.
