Circul Fără Inimă Chapter IV: Hopeless

Riku was glaring at Zexion who was of course ignoring it.

"Don't blame me Riku," he sneered. The Relaxed likable person in front of the audience was gone, "I had to entertain the audience."

They were backstage. The show was over and therefore Zexion did not have to be nice to people. Riku had brought Sora backstage to let him rest. He didn't have to be out there for the finale so he stayed back. When everyone else came back in they were smirking and making some snide remarks but he ignored them.

Siax, the manager, came in a spoke to Riku, "Tell me when he wakes. Xemnas wishes to speak with him."

Riku didn't answer him, but he looked at Sora. What possessed him to do that? Was it the rush of the audience or something? He found Sora to be intriguing but he didn't know what to think of him yet. How could you like someone without even knowing who they were? All he had was a name. Nothing else. It was stupid.

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"Hello?" Roxas entered back stage, "I was told Sora would be in here? I'm Roxas his…uh, brother."

He was welcomed by a silver haired man, who was announced as Riku in the show, "He's in here."

Riku turned back around not saying anyting more to Roxas. What was his problem? Then he saw Sora passed out and the first thing he thought was, shit not again.

"Oh, God what happened," Roxas went over, "did he get hit in the head or something?"

Riku was scrambling to explain, "Umm, no. Well… what happened was, umm… wait weren't you in the audience?"

"Yeah but I wasn't paying attention but because it's Sora either he got hit in the head or something emotional happened, like a kiss or something."

Roxas saw the blush on Riku and that settled it. Ugh, this was not good. He face palmed.

"Riku wasn't it?" Riku nodded, "something emotional taxing happened, right? What was it?"

"We kissed in front of the audience." He was blushing red when he said it. Roxas somehow knew this wasn't going to end well.

"Hellooooo!" There was an irritating voice coming from the door, "Hey Riku did you woo your love awake yet?"

When Roxas looked over and it was an over dramatic red head with teardrop tattoos under his eyes. He panicked. Please don't let his name be…

"Axel, what are you doing?" Riku's tone was monotonous, unlike when he was talking about Sora.

Of course, it was Axel. Roxas went and zipped up his backpack. Axel would not want to see inside it.

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Earlier that night.

Roxas lost Sora and only five minutes into the circus. Seriously he was like a puppy. He texted him to meet at their seats and then went to go get some food of his own. He wasn't a sweets person but he couldn't resist ice cream. So he went to find an ice cream stand.

When he finally saw the stand someone crashed into him, "Oh no I am so sorry."

It was a girl with black hair that came up to her chin. Her face oddly reminding him of Sora's.

"It's okay, here let me help you," She pulled her up off the ground and picked up her books. The last one he saw was a red leather bound book. It had yellow and red gems gleaming off of it casting the light everywhere. He handed it back to her reluctantly.

"Thank you," She smiled, "My name is Xion."

"Roxas," He kept looking at the book.

"Then thank you Roxas," Roxas saw the delicate smile that played on her features, "I would like to thank you. I am a fortune teller here and my instincts tell me that your fortune is in this book."

She pulled out the book he had been eying on, "fortune telling is not about seeing the future but seeing what people need and I think it's not only you who will need this."

Roxas was holding the book again, "Uh, thank you."

But she was already walking away. So he opened the cover and saw handwritten words

This journal belongs to Lea Axel

What? This thing was a journal. Roxas was confused. Why would she have a journal that didn't belong to her? He felt wrong about wanting to read it now… but one peak wouldn't hurt would it?

So Roxas opened the first page which only stated two things. First that he was Axel and he was glad that the circus sold sea-salt ice cream.

Roxas was intrigued, he was Axel now. Did that imply he wasn't Axel before? What was sea salt ice cream anyway? Looking at the ice cream stand he did see the sea salt ice cream.

So he bought one.

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So now Roxas was standing in front of the Axel who was Lea and liked sea salt ice cream, which was delicious. He also knew he was obsessed fire which explained his act and was afraid of being forgotten. Was this considered invading privacy? Yes, but Roxas didn't care now back to the situation at hand.

"Can we help you with something?" Roxas pointed his glare at Axel, "We're kind of in a crisis if you haven't noticed."

"Hey Riku who's the blonde?" Axel completely ignored Roxas.

"If you want to know I'm Sora's brother." That word still didn't fit correctly on his tongue. Brother.

"Who's brother?" The look on Axel's face made him want to strangle the red head.

Riku supplied an answer, "The guy I kissed on stage."

"Oh," Axel smirked. He wasn't this annoying in his journal was he? "So when is he going to wake up and him and Riku can live happily ever after.

"Well he'll wake up in a half hour," Roxas knew what would happen, "The happily ever after part? Probably not going to happen."

"And why the hell not blondie," Roxas did not like this man. No matter how interesting his journal was.

"Because he won't remember he liked Riku." He swore if Axel touched him was getting punched.

But nothing was done or said.

"What do you mean he won't remember what happened?" Roxas looked over and saw a blue haired man with a cross scar.

"Yeah, what?" Axel questioned this too with Riku agreeing in silence.

"Well," this was going to take some time," Whenever Sora does something that involves a strong emotion he can't handle it."

"What in the world does that mean?" This would be a lot easier if there were no interruptions.

"It means," glares were set on Axel, "That say he gets kissed. He is going to faint and when he wakes up he'll know something happened but he won't remember that he liked it."

"So… his emotions were reset," Riku spoke about it for the first time, "and he won't feel that way anymore."

"Exactly," Roxas was done talking about it, "It can be emotions of strong dislike as well but he's more prone to the good emotions. The only thing that doesn't bother him is bliss."

"How many times does this happen?" The blue haired man asked.

"The last time it happened was two years ago," or so he heard, "When his childhood friend kissed him. It caused such a commotion that he felt like he couldn't see her again."

"Wait," Axel was in again, " So the blackout turned him gay?"

"Is that a problem?" he felt his own emotional problems come churning up.

"Aw, nah," Axel brushed it off, "I was just wondering if it would do it again."

"Possibly…" Roxas didn't know much about Sora's predicament, just what to tell everyone else.

"So that means…" Roxas saw that Riku looked more than upset, "I have no chance?"

What could Roxas tell him? Of course not, he will never love you back. It's hopeless. He wasn't that cold hearted.

"He can't feel anything Riku," Roxas was trying to console him the best he could, "he can't feel anything but ignorance."

As ignorance was bliss, and that was the only Sora that could survive. An ignorant blissful Sora…

That Roxas knew, broke a silver haired boy's heart into a million pieces.