Arizona POV
*Flashback*
Me, Riley and Callie are sitting on the sofa whilst Ellie plays on the floor with her Minnie Mouse toy, everything is quiet like we don't want this moment to change
''Mom, Grandma and Grandpa Robbins are in heaven right? So I'll see them when I go?'' Riley says shocking both me and my wife
''Riley, what are you talking about? Your not going there''
''But I heard you and mama talking about me dying when I was supposed to be sleepin' in bed''
''Buddy you are getting medicine so you don't die'' I say grabbing Callie's hand she hasn't spoken yet
''Mama?''
''It's awesome In heaven Riles, all the toys you can imagi-''
''Cal'' I say warningly
''No Arizona he needs to know these things, So all the toys you can thing of, and all your favourite foods, no vegetables you have to eat, and you'll see everybody who's up there, Grandma and Grandpa and uncle Tim''
''Really!'' He says eyes full of excitement
''Yeah Really, buuuut, Riley I don't want you thinking your defiantly going okay? Like your mom says there are medicines and all differnt things to keep you alive so you stay here with me, mom and Ellie yeah?''
''Yeah I want to stay here, but If I go uncle Tim will look after me with Grandma and Grandpa, plus toys and french fires mom!''
''Yeah baby toys and french fries'' I say with teas in my eyes ''Hey it's bed time go brush your teeth'' I state and he scurries off to the bathroom ''What the hell Callie!''
''What Arizona?! There is a chance he could die! and if he wants to know about all these things then I'm gonna tell him! Plus you even said to me when you were down you saw Tim and you got a choice so, what's the problem Arizona?''
''I don't want to loose him! that's the problem!'' I say breaking down, I feel Calliope's hands grab me into a hug and she holds me so tight
''I don't want to loose him too, but we don't know what's gonna happen'' She says as she places a kiss on my forehead ''Who's turn is it to read him a story?''
''M-mine, your turn to get Ellie to bed'' I say as I walk to Riley's room, his room is full of trucks and toys with spaceships and aliens painted on the wall andhis race-car bed to complete it, a proper boys bedroom
''Hey baby, ready for your story?''
''Yup always''
''What one do you wanna read?'' I ask him
''I want you to tell me one, will you tell me about how you met mama?''
So for the next half hour I tell him about the night at the bar and how his mama was stumbling over her words until his breathe evened out and he was asleep
*End of flashback*
As I watch Riley and Ellie's faces light up the first time they see my wife and I can't help but wonder what's going o happen to Riley, he's come a far way since we first started but he could deteriorate at any time, and with Callie in a position she is in then I con't know what to do if they both deteriorate
''Ari.. You okay?'' Callie asks
''Yeah baby I'm fine, just thinking'' I assure her ''How about we all watch a film?'''
Callie POV
She can't cope, I know it but I can't say anything because I'm not there to help her, because I'm here stuck in this hospital bed, and it sucks, she acts like she's fine but our son is dying and I'm trying to get better
god, our son is dying, She hate's thinking about loosing him but it's a harsh reality that could happen, and it kiils me just thining about loosing him because I can't, Neither can she this maybe the thing that could break us, because I have no idea if we are strong enough to overcome loosing a child, if it happens
And Riley just takes it all in his stride, even when he's sick from chemo he's still the happiest person in the room, Since the first time I held him I felt a need to protect him and take care of him, but how can I protect him from Caner? how can a parent protect their child from that?
Ellie doesn't understand what's going on she probably thing the hospital is our second home, she doesn't deserve this, she deserves visits to the park and going to Chuck'E'Cheese but no she get's this, being dragged back and fourth the hospital not knowing whether she's coming or going, Everything sucks right now
But right now? Being in this bed cuddles up to Arizona and the kids, it feel perfect like I never want it to change, but all good things come to an end.. right?
I think this is a good place to stop, thank you for the reiews so far and if you could let me know what you thought of this.. that would be aweosme, many thanks! :)
