Hi everyone so here it is the third chapter. Enjoy!!!
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"Alice, honey?" Jazz asked in a soft velvety voice with his southern accent creeping it. So beautiful.
"Yeah, Jazz?" I replied back.
"If we are going to go to a club tonight I should go get changed." He told me.
"Yeah, I will go have a shower." I told him. I went to my suitcases; one for my dresses, one for my jeans, one for all my shirts and jackets and one for my bikinis and lingerie. I went to the suitcase with the dresses and picked out one of my favourites that I picked out on my last big shopping trip that didn't involve the internet. Ever since she died I could hardly ever go out, so I did most of my shopping on the internet and occasionally went out. But only for a few hours, too much reminded me of her face when I brought her to the next store. I chuckled at the memories but stopped when I remembered what mistake erased ever seeing her face again. My brother.
In the end I ended up wearing a red strapless dress with a black butterfly belt at my waist where after the belt the dress ruffled out to give it that classical look. Accsesorised with cute golden loop earrings, a diamond necklace that Jazz gave me for our 50th and since we were in Hawaii I wore a colourful anklet what matched my black sandals. That was a first I thought to myself. I looked at myself in the mirror. I decided to just keep my hair in its natural, flicky state. It went well with my tropical theme. I sighed in content. It was true; shopping was a girls best friend.
I went outside of the bathroom to find my family in various stages of annoyance. Serene at the height of it. "What took you so long, it doesn't take me this long to get ready to go out," said Serene in her high pitched nasal tone. She started smirking, "But I guess you have to be born with it." Oh she did so not go there. I was planning on how to attack her when Edward growled at me and pulled me out of my reverie. Oh well a girl can dream can't she. "I could have spent this whole time dancing and having fun with my Edward," Serene stated.
We went outside and followed Edward and Serene as they already knew the way. I walked really slowly, even for human standards and was soon far enough behind Edward that he would not be able to read my mind if he didn't want to. Jazz wanted to stay with me but I knew that the pain I was about to feel would really harm Jasper so I told him to leave and go have fun with the others. He looked at me and said "Love, I could only have fun with you. Without you my life is a meaningless pit of sorrow and pain." I laughed at that and he looked up shocked. I simply said "What would you do without me?" Then I shoved him in the general direction of the others and smiled, "Go have fun. I will be no company with the emotions I am about to go through."
I looked up at him warningly. He hated it when I knew that I was about to start thinking of her, because it caused me so much grief. But he also knew that there was nothing he could do to stop it because it would come down crashing on me sooner or later. He looked down at me one last time and then ran at a speed that no human could see over to the others.
Sigh, he was so caring and considerate. I only wish that I could control my emotions more. But I can't because the hardest part is knowing that I let this happen; not that Bella got mauled by a bear, not that she got her heart broken, not that my brother got his heart broken, not knowing that my whole family was going through pain, not even knowing that Jasper not only felt his pain and guilt but also ours. I let this happen. I let Edward go through his stupid plan to save Bellas' life from vampires. I was so confident that he would go back to her that I missed the one vision.
Bella being mauled by a bear…
Flashback
Ding Dong
Ding Dong
Ding Dong
Ding Dong
I rang the stupid, traditional doorbell a couple of times very impatiently. I had finally given in to the pleadings that I was receiving from my conscience. It had been 4 months and I really wanted to check in with Bella. See what we did to her. What was taking Bella so long?
Ding Dong
Ding Dong
"Coming" Said a voice I knew only as Charlie. Hmmmmm… What was Charlie doing home on one of his days he was supposed to be working. That was why I specifically chose this day to visit. As much as I loved Charlie he was not as forgiving as Bella was and I did not want to look into his accusing and hate-filled eyes. (Ugh how I wish that was all I got that day) I heard a sniff and a shuffle of Charlies footsteps. I also heard the heartbeat. Heartbeat as in singular. What was going on.
The door opened and a mixture of emotions went through Charlies face as he took in who he was seeing. Surprise… Shock… Annoyance… Anger… Rage… Guilt… Sadness… Pain…He collected himself and asked, "Alice… Alice Cullen?"
"Hi Charlie," I answered back as sweet as I could be under these suspicious circumstances. "I was in the neighbourhood and thought I'd stop by and see Bella. Did I catch you at a bad time?" I asked him that because as I said that his face crumpled in pain and he looked like he was about to cry.
And that he did. I took him into the living room and comforted him as sobs racked through his body. I had never seen his emotions so let out before. Only Bella could do this to him. I was getting really nervous now. I tried to look into the future and I gasped at the vision I saw. I was dressed in the black suit that I swore I would never wear because it was so depressing and screamed out FUNERAL and yet I always took it with me wherever I went. I was in the local church and I could see many of my Forks High School acquaintances crying. Charlie was sobbing and next to him was Bellas' Mum Renee she was also crying hysterically. I looked to the front and saw a picture of Bella and there was a quote written there…
"Bella's…" Charlie brought me out of my reverie to confirm what I already knew. "…dead." OMG!!! OMG!!! OMG!!! OMG!!! OMG!!! OMG!!! OMG!!! What happened? How the hell did I miss this? I couldn't have missed this? I wouldn't have missed this! OMG I did miss this.
I found out that Bella went out a couple of nights ago with her friend Jacob Black where they had a recent fight but had gotten over it. Her departing words to Charlie were "Yes Dad, I promise I'll be back soon. Love ya" and then she ran off with Jacob Black into the forest behind their home. She didn't come back and Charlie was beginning to get worried when all of a sudden he heard a howling in the background. There had been recent reports of giant wolf like creatures around and with Bella out there and her tendency to draw danger he got worried.
He started searching around and found not so far away from their house blood was everywhere. No body. Just blood and paw prints. The blood was tested and it was confirmed as Bella. Poor Bella. After everything we did to her and then left her she still managed up dead.
After I talked to Charlie I told him that I would stay for the funeral to say goodbye and nothing more. Then I just went to my old home and crawled up into a ball shaking from the sobs that racked my body and wishing for the tears that would never come.
The funeral was beautiful just the way Bella should have gone. It was closed casket as there was no body found. The speeches were beautiful. Charlie and Renee got up and then much to my surprise several Quileute boys got up. I think their names were Embry, Paul, Jared and Sam. They all got up and stated that though they had not known her for a very long time they were truly touched by how selfless and beautiful to the core she was. The odd thing was that whenever one would catch my eyes they would give me a cold glare. Then Jacob the last one to ever see her got up said one beautiful quote and left.
"In life I loved you dearly,
In death I love you still.
In my heart you hold a place,
No one could ever fill."
Everybody applauded and broke into another sobbing fit. I needed to get out of there. I watched the burial ceremony gave a small bunch of flowers. I left Forks.
End of Flashback
I never returned after that last visit to Forks. Too many bad memories filled the place up. But that one vision that I never saw ruined my families life forever and for that I will never forgive myself.
Jasper also felt very guilty. He thought he was the one that ruined our lives and Bella's because he attacked her which caused Edward to leave in the first place. I told him repeatedly and repeatedly that Bella would have forgiven him and wanted him to stop holding himself responsible. But as Bella was not here anymore and could not say that he was to feel guilty for the rest of his existence.
Rosalie felt guilty because the last time Bella saw her before she died was of her smirking of smugness and trying to tell Edward that Bella did not belong with us. She also felt guilty because she never treated her right because of her own self vanity.
Esme felt guilty because she could not stay with Bella while she was in pain because of what she was and never had the proper chance to say goodbye but just a simple goodnight while concentrating more on her son that ended up ruining our lives.
Emmett felt guilty because the last things he said in Bellas presence were "Come on Jasper". He loved Bella like she was his own flesh and blood. Like a real big brother to her and she loved him back like he was. He hated himself for listening to Edward and never saying a proper goodbye to Bella.
Carlisle had absolutely no reason to feel guilty if any of us did and yet he thought to bring it onto himself that our whole family has fallen apart. Emmett hardly ever jokes around anymore and when he does Serene finds it upon her to give him a loud lecture on personal respect and privacy. Rose was always down because Em was always down. Jazz was depressed because he had all of our depressed emotions on his back. Esme never paints anymore and she doesn't hum tuneless songs to herself that made our houses feel like home. I hardly ever get excited over things anymore and I don't go shopping not nearly as half as much as I used to. Carlisle spends most of his time away from our zombie-like family and in the hospital. Edward and Serene always stay in their bedroom but none of us gave them the time of day to begin with.
All of the things that used to make our family a family that I once took for granted were now gone and our family was emptied of all the happiness it used to contain. Only since Edward came back with Serene did we actually try to get back on our feet but when we were alone our thoughts crept back to Bella and what could have been.
I started noticing the loud techno style music that was playing. I got here at about 7:55pm so our vampire girl would start her gig in roughly 5 minutes. I went inside the club and saw Serene, Edward, Rose and Em dance. I searched around and finally saw Esme, Carlisle and Jazz sitting around a table at the edge of the place. I hated this techno music so I didn't get up to dance and I knew that it would be finished soon anyway.
As if right on cue the music turned down to a soft, calming background noise after the loud racket it had been only minutes ago. The lights turned down to give that eerie feel in the room once again and the no noise coming from the audience made the scene just that much more spectacular. Then that loud voice came over the intercom "And here she is… The one you've all been waiting for…" The same drum roll began and the tension mounted higher. "…B!"
The crowd screamed with excitement, obviously she was not a first. She greeted the stage confidently and happily, "Hi everybody, welcome back to the Spritz. For those that don't know me or are new here welcome to Swan Rivers. Now how about we start dancing? Huh?" Her voice was so beautiful that I had a small spite of jealousy.
Oh great now I'm losing my mind and thinking like Rosalie. The funniest thing was Rosalies face when 'B' came out. Our vampire girl had such graceful movements you would think she was doing ballet rather than dancing. And her beauty easily matched Rosalies and probably was higher. The crowd cheered and I came back to the present. She whispered slightly "I thought so."
Something was strange about this girl. Although she smiled hugely and had great posture, walked and talked confidently she also had this aura of vulnerability about her. As if she had been through pains so deep that she could cry at any moment. I don't know whether it was just me or if it was the whole world but I just wanted to help her. Be a sister to her. Strange. The last person who ever made me want to be a sister to her was Bella.
I shook that thought out and listened to the music that was playing. She kept the crowd on edge with songs about love, life, passion, loneliness, hurt and heartbreak. I got up and danced all thoughts on the present for the first time in a long time. All danger of who she was and what would happen after the show gone as fast as the next up-tempo song began.
After 55minutes of non-stop singing 'B' talked to the audience again, "Well I'm afraid that this is the end of my performance."
"One More, One More, One More…" The audience chanted. 'B' started giggling, "Gosh I thought you'd be sick of me by now." The crowd just continued chanting and all us Cullens joined in too, "One More, One More, One More." We all stopped abruptly as she put her hand up to silence us. "Okay everyone. One more. But after that no more. Okay? Have we got a deal?" Yes screamed the crowd and we yelled along with them like children. "Well I wrote this song when I was going through a rough patch a little while back. Hope you like it because I have never actually performed this song, it is called 'What Hurts the Most."
She nodded at the band and started singing a melody so pure and rich every singer in the world could be put together and still wouldn't match up. It actually hurt my ears to listen. Her face lost in the memories this song so obviously brought back.
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house, that don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again I pretend I'm OK but that's not what gets me
What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Jazz flinched in pain. Most likely from either Edward or I because this song reminded us of what Edward said to Bella and how she most likely felt. I was the only one who knew what Edward said exactly. But Jazz was staring at 'B'.
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doing it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder getting up, getting dressed, living with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart that I left unspoken
Jazz must be receiving the pain from our vampire girl because her face was contorted in pain and she looked like she would cry if she could. I felt that urge to comfort her again.
What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while even though goin on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again I pretend I'm OK but that's not what gets me
What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
She sighed and shook her head as if to shake her head out of the memories she was seeing. The crowd whooped and cheered and she was broken out of her reverie. She thanked the crowd and ran off stage. The techno music started playing again and was so loud that we couldn't hear what she was doing.
The fear of who she was and what threat she possessed came back to me. I was about to ask what now but Emmett again beat me to it. "So… What now?"
"I don't know," I replied. "Do you think we should try going to her backstage room?"
"What do you see happening if we go in there?" Carlisle asked. I tried looking in the future and saw a blur of images and then one standing out. It was our vampire girl and me holding each other smiling. Just like the image I saw of Bella and I so long ago but never happened and never will. Edward and I gasped at the same time.
Jazz started panicking, "What, what, what did you see?"
"Nothing, just blurred images. That's all." I replied back as calmly as I could. This was so solid I could feel it. And this time I was going to make this vision happen and not let my stupid idiot of a brother ruin my chance to have a new sister.
I could tell that Jasper didn't believe me but he didn't press it. He knew that if something bad would happen when we enter the room I would tell him.
"I think that we should wait out the backdoor for her," Carlisle stated strategically.
"That's a good idea but it would probably overwhelm her to see 8 fully grown vampires waiting for her. I think that you, Esme, Serene and Edward should go home." I told them.
"Yeah but you need me I can read minds remember," Edward stated. I just smirked out smarting him. I thought to myself You can't read her mind remember.
He growled and Jazz put me behind him protectively.
"Well then why Emmett and Rose? I am sure that you and Jazz could handle the situation perfectly." He said smirking.
I let my mind slip to the real reason why. Because they don't look like zombies when they talk to people. Especially people that they can't read their mind.
I gasped and quickly apologised I am so sorry Edward please forgive me I wasn't thinking straight. But it was too late he was already walking off with Serene in his footsteps.
"Carlisle I think you and Esme should go after him. I might of thought something bad towards him," I told them.
Carlisle quickly looked at us and ran after his oldest son. Esme hugged us all and told us all to be careful and to come back. She looked especially at Emmett when she said that. We all promised and went outside to meet our vampire girl…
Sorry about the cliffy. What do you think is going to happen? Oh and by the way the song I chose What hurts the most didn't actually inspire the title for the story I chose the title at random and was trying to find the perfect song for this part of the story when I found that this song had the same title. The song is called What hurts the most and is done by Cascada for those of you who don't know. Please Please Review. I will keep writing no matter what cause I love this story but I love reviews. R&R! Oh and I am actually telling you that Anna and B are the same person but this person had two nicknames. Try and figure out what the name is short for!!!
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Melody xxx
