Phanfic part 3
Dan's P.O.V
After we kissed we sat down on the couch I was in the corner and he sat beside me. In the peace my mind began to think again.
Why did he kiss me, would he like me. No he couldn't, I could never be good enough. He just felt sorry for me being so pathetic. I want to run away and never show my face again. He is probably thinking about how pathetic I am. Why do I always fuck up. This is all my fault. I ruined everything, sometimes I think everyone should be better off if I was just gone⦠gone forever. Then pulled my knees to my chest and started crying. How pathetic . suddenly I felt an arm around me
"Dan, everything is going to be okay. Don't worry too much. Will you please tell me about how this started?". I sighed. "you don't have to tell me anything if you are not ready to." Where should I begin? What would he think of me if he knew every single demon inside my head? Will he think that I'm crazy? I started to breath heavier and heavier.
"Dan relax, it's okay. I'm here for you." Phil said to me in a calming voice. I mumbled something "w-why did you?" I didn't say it clearly but Phil heard it anyways. "why did I do what Dan? What do you mean?" then something in me snapped, I pushed Phil away from me and yelled at him
"WHY DID YOU KISS ME. Why are you messing with my head. Why Phil? Why Phil? WHY? Did you feel pity for stupid pathetic Dan? Did you feel sorry because I am such a huge mess?" he looked at me with his beautiful blue eyes, the eyes I could stare at for hours. He didn't say anything he just slowly stood up and walked towards me, he sat down on his knees and grabbed my wrist with all the cuts on it.
I looked away because of the shame. Then I felt a soft kiss on my wrist. "relax Dan, I'm here for you. You don't have to be afraid anymore, you don't have to do this all alone. Don't be ashamed of your scars, just tell me about them, why you made them. I want to help you because I really love you and I care so much about you. You are the most important thing in my world! Don't ever forget that I will always be beside you, no matter what kind of trouble you have! I love you Daniel James Howell, I love everything about you."
He pulled me into a hug and whispered in my ear "shh, it alright Dan. Please don't cry. I'm here, I've got you." I buried my face in his neck "thank you, I love you so much."
