"You look like shit," Temari stated as she wiped down the bar. "Is it because of the mission?"
I only had two days left before I would go off and get myself killed. So if I looked like shit that would be as good of a reason as any. "What do you think," I growled annoyed by the stupid question.
"You didn't have to accept it you know?"
Pulling my beanie down a bit I rolled my eyes. Readers in my line of work we can't pass up jobs like a regular person can. If you refuse to take a mark then you were going to be jobless for a few months. That isn't ideal for me. And I know what you're thinking neither Is dying. But there's a reason I needed to do this. No matter what the risk or the certainties were.
"I suppose…" Temari shook her head before going to the other side and leaving me to my own thoughts. It didn't take too long for my mind to wander to the same place it always did Right before a mark:
Kimimaro was practicing this new dagger technique he called locust dance Right before our next mission. He always wanted to be better than he was the previous mission. That was what I admired about him the way he was never afraid to make himself better. As partners he pushed me to improve my skills and I taught him the meaning of relaxing. Unlike Kimimaro I was laying in the grass enjoying the mid spring breeze before we left. This was how I used to get ready for each mission because it was the only way to calm my nerves.
Today was the day we would go hunt down Orochimaru's new "experiment". This guy was taken from his home and tormented by that sick son of a bitch. We were told what they did to him… our only goal was to bring him back so Tsunade could try and help the guy out. I've only joined the ANBU a little under a years ago but from my understanding The guy behind this was getting ballzy. Maybe killing the last two mercs we sent gave him a confidence boost. I like to think he just wanted to see how much he could get away with.
"Tayuya," his calm voice reaches my ears. Cracking an eye opened I looked in his direction. "Its time to go. Do you need to stop anywhere before we head out?"
Hopping to my feet I grinned at him. "I'm good to go Captain."
He nodded his head thoughtfully. "Let's get some ramen before we leave." I was going to make a point that we shouldn't waste time my stomach decided to pipe up. Embarrassed I mumbled out an okay.
As we walked to Tenzin's shop my nerves were settling down. Food always helped. And the fact that I didn't feel as if I had anything to worry about anymore also helped a lot. We proved that we worked better with each other than anyone else. I didn't want to have anyone else watch my back but him. We took a stool by the end of the counter and waited for our order to be taken. Kimimaro released a soft sigh As he studied his hands carefully. "Tayuya...why are you still with the ANBU?"
"Because it's the only thing that I'm good at," I mumbled slightly embarrassed. "I mean I could always start up a band or something but it's not likely that I would make it… so this is the best number two option for me."
He shook his head this sadly. "Tayuya there's so much more in life than this," he stated motioning to the city behind us. "You just never thought you had any other options.
"Tayuya," Tenten voice snapped me back to reality. I looked at her with a small smile. "What were you thinking about?"
"Nothing that matters at the moment," I replied smoothly. Which is true...Kimimaro didn't matter anymore. Why? Well reader it's because it been years ago and there is no way I could change anything now. Maybe one day I could but that day wasn't today.
She sighed knowing that I wasn't going to open up on the topic anymore. "Just two more day…"
"Yeah don't remind me."
She sighed and slide a black folder towards me. "I know you don't really want to think about the mission but you're going to need this. Apparently they don't want you to kill the guy right away."
Grinding my teeth I stared at the black folder that was most likely filled with fake credentials, money, and who knows what's else. Pushing away from the bar I started to feel sick to my stomach. They wanted me to give my life as a warning now they wanted more from me. Wasn't I giving enough!
"I have to go to the bathroom," I mumbled half ass as I walked towards the bathroom ignoring Tenten's expression.
Reader as I puked up the sorry ass sandwich I had before coming out the only thing that I could think about is what was next.. What else did they fucking want from me!? To fuck the sonsofbitches!? Standing up I wiped my mouth and sighed heavily. I'm pretty much giving up all I had to offer, my life, and they wanted me to do more. Pathetic.
Walking back to the bar I took slow breaths. "Don't let them see you break," His voice echoed in my head. And I wasn't planning on it.
Sitting down I stared at the folder that Tenten slide towards me. Sighing heavily I opened the folder and saw exactly what I knew was there. Closing the folder I forced down the bile that was creeping back up. "I think I will take a four horsemen," I sighed heavily.
Tenten's face scrunched up as she pulled out the bottles. "You know there is still time to back out," she stated as she poured. Pushing the shot toward me she smirked. "Same goes with this drink."
Downing it I cringed hard as fuck. "You I know I can't do that," I mumbled.
She shook her head. "You're doing this-"
"Because I want to," I said cutting her off.
"For someone who left you high and dry! You owe him nothing Yuya," she replied with pleading eyes. She poured another drink and I could have sworn I saw her eyes begin to water. "Why don't you start the band that you always spoke of?"
Looking at the folder I sighed heavily. "Because that's not guarantied," I chuckled shaking my head. " It would be pretty awesome though. Sugar Coated Scalpel...that would be such a sweet ass dream to fulfill but how likely is that?"
"I would give you a job until things hits off for the band Or you can always take...Hinata up on her offer."
Slamming my drink I rolled my eyes without any amusement in them. "I wouldn't be able to give her what she wanted," I stated Looking away. "She deserves better, remember?"
"Yeah. But there is no way you don't have feeling for her. Maybe you could actually try instead of doing the same dickhead things over and over again."
Snorting I opened the folder again and examined the medical facilities badge that they made for me. "So I'm a doctor now?"
Tenten grunted annoyed that I was changing the subject not giving a damn for what she was saying. "Apparently it was that or becoming a janitor. Being a doctor makes it easier to get...the info they want."
"Right." Flipping through the documents I shook my head. "How long do they expect me to stay undercover before I kill the fucking asshole?"
"I wish I had an answer for that."
Hopping off the stool I grabbed the folder without passing Tenten a glance. "I'm going to call it night Ten. I guess I should Google what the duck half of this crap is and I still have a few things of packing to do now that this might take a month or two longer than planned. I'll see you guys tomorrow night." Flipping through a few more pages I sighed heavily. "At least I get to live in style for my last few days. They gave me a pent house looking over the city."
Not waiting for Tenten to respond I walked up the stairs and into the cool fall night. It was still early in the night but today was a Monday. Everyone was detoxing from the weekend drinking and preparing for the next drink-a-ton. "You're always your best in fall," his voice chuckled through the night breeze. I stopped in mid stride as the memories of the last mission we ever had together began to swim through my head. His blood filled smile. him pushing me out the way of a kunia. Him standing next to the biggest threat that we know of. Why would he betray me?!
"Why!?" Clenching my eyes shut I willed back the oncoming tears. After all of this time I was still wondering why. Why did he throw his life away for me? We could of found a way to escape with both of our lives. A little injured but still alive. Wiping my eyes roughly I continued my walk home. I still had a lot of packing to do with my time coming to an end, besides, crying where anyone could see just wasn't cool at all. "I'm Such a fucking dumbass."
Instead of going straight home I made a pit stop at Tenten's place and slipped the letter I wrote before stopping at the bar into their mailbox. Leaving now instead of giving everyone some half ass goodbye was a much better plan. Reader...I'm a coward.
A/N: We have about two more chapters before the real fun begins. So what do you guys think so far?
On another note I will be posting another chapter of Silver Spring soon. It is a adventure time high school flick.
Last thing I will have another story up soon as well so keep an eye out for me :)
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