A/N: Anne has issues.
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Her face, her arms, her legs, whole her body hurts. She was tired but she suddenly opened her eyes. But she don't saw anything. Everything was black.
"QQQUUUAAATTTRRREEE!" she yelled so hard that her vocal chords almost brooked.
She heard footsteps. "Is that you, Quatre? WHY I DON'T SEE ANYTHING? QUUUAAAAAATRRRRRREEEEEEEE HEEEEEEEELLLLLLPPPPPP!" She was lightly hysteric, "WHERE AM I ? WHO ARE YOU ? WHAT'S HAPPEN TO MY EYES ?"
"Sst." It was Quatre's voice.
"Quatre? WHERE AM I ?"
"Right here, in the house, in your bed. Calm down!"
"What's happened to my eyes?"
"Well, you …" Quatre stammered. A noisy person came in the room.
"Hé, Quatre. Have you already told her that she is blind?"
"WWWWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!" Anne cried.
"Well thanks, Duo!"
Duo smiled. "OEPS! So-ory"
Anne was crying. And Quatre just looked with his eyes full compassion.
But Anne could not see him. She would never see his eyes again.
"Why don't you comfort her?" asked Duo wondered.
"Because … she have said that I don't may comfort her. And I just do that because she have it already hard enough now."
Heero and Trowa came in. "Who have make her crying again?" Asked Trowa.
"Wild guess : Duo?" said Heero and he looked reproaching to Duo.
"Hey, don't look at me like that. I have said sorry."
Anne tried to say something in her tears. "How … how long was I sleeping?"
"Two months and 19 days and …" Trowa looked on his watch, "14 minutes. You had loosed much blood, your vocal chords were broken and your … your eyes don't get enough blood for two minutes and the eye-nerves stopped working. That's why your eyes don't work anymore. We don't now of you ever can see again."
"There is still a chance?" asked Anne with a little bit of hope in her voice.
"Maybe if the eye-nerves begin to work again, but when that happened or even if that happened I can't say," Explained Trowa, "But we have done everything to help you. By the way, you must be careful with your voice to. The knife perforated your voice chords. We have stitched it, but it still stays a tender point. You can start with crying a bit softer, my ears are a tender point to, you now!"
Anne nodded with her blind eyes full of tears. "I will try it."
"Hey, isn't it lunchtime?" asked Duo cheerfully, "Hé Wu Fei!"
"Yes, Duo. The lunch is almost ready. Be patient!" Yelled Wu Fei back.
"May I help you?" asked Duo to Wu Fei, "Then the lunch is ready sooner. And then I can eat …"
"Yes, sure. All help is welcome!"
"Hééro, Trowa! Come on and help me with the food!" Yelled Duo, "Or else … I sing a song!"
"Sing? No, Duo, No. PLEASE don't sing!" cried Heero, "What must we do, boss Duo?"
"Follow me to the kitchen!" Said the new master Duo and he lead Trowa and Heero to the kitchen for helping Wu Fei.
"What we eat? MAY I eat?" asked Anne.
"As you are careful, you may eat." Said Quatre, "But be careful. Your gullet is not healed jet."
"Tell me, Quatre. Have I more handicaps?"
"You have just one. The other things heal, and maybe you can even see as you give it enough time." Quatre looked her straight in the eyes, but she could not see him, "Why have you tried to kill yourself? Is it … because of me?"
"Oh, God. No! You …" as she wasn't blind, she would look him in his eyes, but she was blind, "You were the only reason to NOT do it."
"But why … why have you done it then?"
"I … I ," she bowed her head. What if the earth would explore? "I can't tell."
"Why not? You now that you can tell me everything."
"I can't. Really, I can't. As I could, then you was the first and the only one I should tell it to. But I can't. Please, don't ask me ever again." She was begging and almost crying. A little bird flew to the window. Death. Anne only heard the crack. But that was enough to make her cry again. Quatre wanted to hug her, comfort her. He stretched out his hand to hug her, but he suddenly realised that Anne had said that he don't may touch her. Anne stopped crying.
"Why don't you comfort me?" asked she wondered.
"Because … you have said that it was forbidden to comfort you."
"Don't you get it? I just was confused with Granny's death. As you are mourning, sometime you say things you don't mean. Of course you may comfort me, I was just mad at the whole world. It wasn't meant like that."
Quatre nodded.
"Dinner is ready!" Yelled a happy Duo.
"Okay, QUATRE! HELP! How I must go to the kitchen?" Cried Anne.
"Well, you just step out your bed, set your foots on the ground …"
"I CAN'T SEE THE GROUND!" Cried Anne hysteric.
"Okay, give me your hand. I will help you." Said Quatre with a nice voice.
"Quatre, WHERE IS YOUR HAND?" Asked Anne frighten. Quatre gave her his hand.
"So, now just move your feet to right. Yes, and try to stand on your right foot, now your left foot. Now I gonna let your hand go …"
Anne hold fast his whole arm. "QUATRE, I AM FRIGHTEN!" She cried, "I am not hungry anymore, I just go back to sleep."
"Come on, Anne. Try to stand. I promise that I will not let you go."
"Promised?"
"Yes, promised. Now, try to move your left foot. Yes, and now your right. And watch for the mat."
Anne clanged to Quatre when her foots hit something. "AAAAAAAAAAAA! What was THAT?"
"That was the mat I have warned you for," Explained Quatre, "As you keep yelling like this, then we NEVER get to the kitchen."
"Okay, I will try. AAAAAAAA! What was that?"
"That was your bed, Anne. Watch for your voice chords! And here is the door. Don't yell when you pass it, there is a little lump in the wood of the door."
"I won't yell. WWWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! QUATRE, Were are you? HEEEEELPPPPP!"
"DUO! That was NOT funny!" Yelled Quatre mad to Duo, "She is already frightened enough."
"Sorry, but else she got NEVER to the kitchen and I am HUNGRY!"
"QUATRE, WHERE ARE YOU? HELP ME!" cried Anne frightened.
"I will take it over from now. I give you my hand. And now we go a bit faster." Duo leaded Anne to the kitchen with a high speed.
"QUATRE! HEEEELP! STOP ME!" Anne tripped over a mat, "AUW QUATRE, HELP ME! WAAAAAAAAAAAHH!" She bumped against a wall, MY BACK! QUATRE! HE IS TRYING TO KILL ME!"
"STOP IT, DUO!" Cried Quatre mad, "She is blind, remember. She can't see walls, mats or traps. And she barely now the house. Just try to image what she feel. As your lunch mean more for you then a human, please go to a restaurant!"
Duo let go Anne. She cried of fear.
"DUO! Please think a bit to. As you just let her go, then she have no handhold anymore. So just give her a hand and lead her to me. Then I will bring her to the kitchen to eat."
"O…okay. S … sorry. It was not meant like that. Can she ever forgive me?"
"Maybe if you are a little bit nicer to her. Come, Anne." Said Quatre and he gave Anne his hand. She cling to him of fear.
Duo stand watching to them. He was not hungry anymore.
"Quatre, was it really necessary to be so mad at him? He is just to playful, it's not his fault that I am blind." Said Anne.
"But … I … I mean that …" Stammered Quatre, "Duo!"
"Y…Yes? What I have done wrong now?" Asked Duo scared.
"S…Sorry that I was so mad. But you was really reckless with Anne."
"I… I am sorry to. I wasn't thinking. I always make Anne cry. Maybe I shut kill myself anyway." Proposed Duo.
"No, Duo. Don't. It's not your fault. I think that you are a really nice person, as you want. I accept your apologises." Said Anne nice, "Give me your hand."
"O…Okay." Said Duo. And Anne hugged him. "Let's make a new start. We forgot everything what is happened. Come, Quatre." Quatre was looking jealous to them and came closer. Anne picked his hand and hugged him to.
"But you still stay the most important one in my life!" she whispered in his ear.
Quatre smiled happy. His life was perfect.
In the kitchen. Anne's noes smelled a lovely flavour.
"Roots, beans, peas, chicken … Jummie!" She was really hungry, she haven't smelt food in two months.
"There is your chair. Try to sit." Said Quatre and he leaded Anne to her chair.
"Enjoy your dinner!" Said Wu Fei and Duo start to crunch his food.
"QUATRE! Were is my fork?"
"Right here, Anne." Said Quatre and he laid Anne's fork in her hands.
"And … where is my food?"
"In your plate."
"And were is my plate?"
"Just a front of you."
"Were are my beans?"
"Right here." Explained Quatre patient and he leaded Anne's fork to the beans, "And there are your roots, here your peas and here your chicken."
"Were ware my beans again?"
"There, Anne. Now, try to eat something."
"I … can't … get … those … damned … beans … on … my … fork!
QQQQUUUUUAAAAAATRRRRRREEEEEEE!"
"Give your fork to me." Said Quatre and he squeezed some beans on the fork and gave it back to Anne.
"Quatre, can't get it in my mount!"
Quatre sighed and he picked her fork. "Open your mount. Yes, like that. And now chew it. What you want to eat next?"
"Chicken!"
"Okay. Get ready for the chicken!" Warned and he gave Anne a malls piece of chicken and softly putted it in her mount.
Trowa, Wu Fei and Heero were staring jealous to Quatre.
"Quatre," Trowa said, "She may not eat chicken yet …"
"Qu…Quatre! My neck, my gullet. It hurts. Quatre, I stifle!" Cried Anne.
"Anne!" cried Quatre and he tried to bear her, "Help, guys. We must to operate her quick and remove the chicken. Anaesthetise her." Cried Quatre. Anne loosed consciousness.
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Anne's neck hurts like hell. She tried to swallow. It felt like her gullet was burning. She retched.
"So, are you awake?" asked a Duo-voice, "Are you alright?"
Anne nodded, "But my gullet it hurt…" she felt a pain in her neck, "AUW!"
"We had to open your gullet by making a incision in your neck," explained Trowa, "So your neck … You may not eat for a wile, until your gullet is healed. And you must to be VERY carefully with your voice too."
Anne sighed, "What ever you say. My life is already doomed."
"You don't have plans to kill yourself again, have you?" asked Quatre worried.
Anne smiled, "No, I have learned my lesson. Imagine that I try to kill myself and you save me and I am deaf. No way! Some mysterious powers tell me that I stay alive, what ever I do. And why should I try to kill myself as I do stay alive? For fun? For having a extra handicap or something like that?"
"I'm glad to hear that. I hope that the time of suicide is over, for all of us." Said Quatre.
"Have you tried to kill yourself to?" asked Anne wondered.
"Yes, everybody of us. But Heero is the champion."
"And I am still alive!" smiled Heero, "A normal person should be death after so many suicide-tries. Why am I still alive? And why are all those people death?"
"Maybe it is the destiny. Maybe we must to stay alive to protect all the survivors of the war," Explained Quatre, "To protect a new generation, to help the new people to survive. Like Anne. Without us, she would be death."
"Excuse me," complained Anne, "But as you guys didn't bow up the 'Six Feet' building, then you never had to save me. Then I had work, was Granny still alive and I had my sight too! Protectors? Hà!"
Then there was a painful stillness. It was all there fault what happened to Anne.
It was Heero who start to talk again. "When we were operating you, we found this in your neck." He showed a chip.
"Can't see! Remember?" Said Anne.
"It is a chip. Do you now anything about it? It would help me a lot as you just said what it is."
Anne was frightened - A chip? Maybe it is a special spy-ship from the boss. Wait a second! On my first day at the 'Six Feet' building, I had a medical check-up. I was under narcoses for a while, for a 'intestine-test'. Maybe they implant the chip then. Maybe that was the chip were the boss can look in my brain! That means… I am free! No longer a spy -
"Hey, Anne. I am waiting for a answer."
- Can't say anything. Maybe he let the earth explore as I do. -
"Anne!"
"Euh…I don't now what it is." Stammered Anne.
"Well, then I must to investigate it." Sighed Heero.
"No! Don't do it. Please." Anne said it with a almost-cry-voice.
"Why not?" Asked Trowa distrustful.
"Can't tell. Don't ask me. Please." Anne's eyes were full of tears. The destiny of the earth was in her hands. As the guys would find out what the chip was, then her boss would let the earth explore. That she could not let happen, right?
Heero sighed. "I gonna investigate this, anyway."
"You don't now what you are doing." Warned Anne with a sharp voice.
"That's what I gonna find out." Laughed Heero and he stepped to his computer.
Every bit of Anne's face was twitched of hate. - And what with the earth? Thinking is not there best side. I must to do something, for the earth. For Amelia and Miala, they are still on the earth. -
She wasn't thinking. She just jumped out her bed and ran to the direction were sound of the computer came from. She wasn't frighten to fall. Her life was not important. It was the earth! She just stamped, jumped and hit on good luck. A hand slapped her on her head. She lost consciousness, but her mission was a success. The computer was totally destructed. "We are lucky that we have two computers!" was the least thing she heard Heero say. - Oh no! … -
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Anne's head hurts. She was lying on something hard. She groaned. What was happen? Were was she? She heard footsteps and somebody that opened a door.
"Who…Who is there?" She asked.
"Me." Answered Quatre, "Why? Why you have done that?"
"Done what?"
"We now it. You are a spy. And I thought that you were sincere." Said Quatre with a painful broken voice.
"I am not a spy!"
"And the chip? It is eavesdrop-machine. Only spies use eavesdrop-machines. You are a spy. And I liked you. I thought that you liked me to. But you just tried to get information from me." Said Quatre sad.
"That's not true! I never asked you for any information!"
"Who cares? You are a spy. You have used us. And … you have broken my hearth." He was almost crying, "So, you must go. To a school. To a new home."
"What?" Cried Anne.
"Yes, we have found a adoption-family for you. And a new school. You must think on future. Forget us. And… I hope that you will be happy with your new life. With new friends. Without us."
"But…I can't live without you."
"You had to think about that before you start to be a spy. The taxi is ready for bringing you to a new home."
"I am blind, remember! How I must to survive?"
"Your family will care about you."
"I don't need any family," she grinned, "I just try to kill myself again!
And if I die, then the earth is safe, safe. And I am free. Forever."
"What you mean by that? You àre free with your new family."
Anne smiled, "Free? I will never be free, until I die. I can't say what I want, I can't do what I want, I just must to shut up! And I am sick of it!"
"But you can tell everything you want. We already now that you are a spy."
Anne laughed, "You don't get it at all."
"Well, tell me!"
"I CAN'T!" Anne cried, "I want to tell it, but I can't. I can't. Really, I can't."
"Why not?"
"I CAN'T TELL YOU!"
"Okay. Come on, the taxi is waiting for you."
"You really want to let me adopt by a family?"
"Yes. Follow me." Quatre gave his hand to Anne and leaded her to the taxi,
"Bye, Anne." Quatre said. Anne stepped in the taxi.
"I…I will never forget you. You will always have a place in my hearth," Anne laughed creepy, "Until I die!"
The taxi drove away. - I don't let me adopt. I don't want a new life. I want my old back, or …(she grinned) just NO life! - She touched the car. - I just jump out this car. With a bit luck, I am death. - She tried to open the car, but it was closed - Shit! Okay, stay calm. This car-window is in for it! -
-DZJ- The glass bored in her skin. With all her power, she jumped out the car. She was rolling on the street. - O great. The car wasn't driving hard enough. I am not death. - She stopped rolling. Her legs hurts. Her head was heavy. She felt that two hands were bearing her.
"Are you alright, Anne?" It was Quatre.
- LOVELY. I wasn't even far away from the house. -
"DAMNED! FAILED!" She cried grim. She lost consciousness.
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"AAAAAAAAI!" Anne cried as soon she was awake. Her legs hurts so much that she must to cry.
"Yes, that was not very clever. Jumping out a driving car. As you try to kill yourself, then do it good. The car wasn't even really started." It was Wu Fei.
"Hey, I am BLIND. I can't see how hard the car is driving!"
"And who's fault is that? As you had done it right at the first time, then we were delivered from you. But no! Now we have a blind girl with broken legs!" Complained Wu Fei.
"Are my legs broken?" Panicked Anne.
"What did you think? As you jump out a driving car, then it is NORMAL that your legs are broken. You should be death, but NO, you stay alive and we have all that trouble." Complained Wu Fei.
"Hey, that's enough, Wu Fei." Cried Quatre, "It's not her fault. She wanted to die. Maybe God want her to stay alive. Maybe she have a task."
"A task? What task? Braking the record of self-killings? I don't understand why we have saved her. Just drop her in some wood, then we have no trouble anymore."
"That's mean. Sick person! Have you any feelings?" Cried Quatre mad.
"You have to much feelings!"
"You have no hart!"
"You are to nice!"
"You are a mean person!"
"You are a teddy-bear!"
"You are …"
"STOP IT!" Anne cried mad, "Just give me a knife and I kill myself. Then are all trouble away."
"I have already taken care for a knife, here." Said Wu Fei and he gave Anne a knife.
"Farewell, lovely world." Said Anne and she direct the knife on her belly.
"No, Anne!" Cried Quatre, "Don't do it! Please, For me."
"As you cancel the adoption-family."
"Why would I cancel the family? I call them right now to say that you are better…" Said Wu Fei.
"Do what you want to do."
Wu Fei telephoned to the family to say that Anne was better.
"Okay, you have asked for it!" Cried Anne and she direct the knife on her belly. "HIIIIIIIIIJAAAAAA!" She cried when she put the knife in her belly, "Bye, doomed world!" She was almost whispering, "bye lovely earth, THAT I WILL NEVER SEE AGAIN!" She put the knife for the second time in her belly, "Finally it's over. Bye Quatre!" She whispered and she closed her eyes.
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