Damon

There was a time when angels roamed the earth as like water in the ocean; there was a time humans can see their angels face to face; there was a time humans accepted the plans of God for their lives, there was a time it was a taboo to disobey God's order. But every now and then, when angels like me come along, we defile them and set time back. And that is the reason why humans can no longer see their guardian angels with the naked eyes.

It was a Saturday, I had just returned from my mid-day snack, but my stomach kept turning, i almost felt as if I had done something wrong. My mind is starting to wander back to when and why I was dethroned from heaven; why the rules of engagement between God, humans and angels changed.

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Flashback

Gabrielle was pacing up and up the corners of the room, he screamed at me, "Your...place...you are not the one who gets to decide where your place is. You should have thought about staying in your place before claiming her innocence."...

" Your stupid act of love has changed the tide, it has ruined God's plan; now another Jezebel has to be born because you have set fate back a few decades. You have tainted the person you were built to guide and you will pay for it... Did you think for one second that God would give you a welcome home child after finding out about what you did?."

"I didn't think so."

"Do you know God is really pissed at you? Anyways, be thankful, you have been reassigned to a new born, her name is Delilah. It's your job to watch over her till she takes Samson down"

"I won't, I will not; my place is with Jez."

"Jez? you little shithead, you even have a pet name for your human lover...I got news for you, It's either you go to Delilah or you'll fall."

Angels are like computers, once you give them commands, they just know what to do and what's to come next. Most angels were too scared to break the rules, not me.

Gab continued to circle me like a tiger would to his prey, " I never really liked you, I was hoping father would make me the morning sun but the moment you came along, he saw the sparkle in your eyes and he favored you above all. With you gone, I will no longer be threaten by the possibility of anyone being in a higher rank than I am."

"I don't care what happens to me, I'll take the fall... Just let me be with the one I love, she wants to be with me too."

"You are so sweet and naive...wanting things that belong to those made with flesh and blood. You must have lost your head but try not to lose your glory for a mortal...We are mini-gods Persia, we do what humans can't do, we are the keepers of the world. Do you really wish to give that up for the love of a woman? You have no say in it, neither do I. I'm just here to deliver the message to you. Just remember that betrayal runs in the human blood, nothing good can come out of this."

"I'll take my chances, I must refuse this assignment...I want to see God, I have to see him and talk to him till he sees reason."

He looked at me as if I had lost my sanity. "You...talk to him? The big guy...God? Impossible."

"But why?"

"Because he's designing new angels and overseeing the world and you are the last person he would want to see. If this will make you feel any better, only a few angels have seen God since the beginning of time, and most of them were archangels."

"Great, we get to work for a boss we can't see, brilliant."

"Persia, most angels don't get second chances, you are only getting one because you are specially made."

"I can't leave her. If I leave...You know what happens to humans who fall in love with their angels... you know what happens when their angels are dethroned?"

"Yes.. you will watch her perish; because as we speak, God is molding a new angel for a yet to be born Jezebel."

"He's going to replace her?"

"Yes. It's too bad Persia, I didn't completely hate you, you were almost like a prodigal son to me. You are too greedy son, as if it wasn't bad enough that you laid with her, you wanted to procreate with the human...I take it that you have discovered a few of God's secrets. How did you find out?"

"I just know things, and there was nothing we wanted more than to create something wonderful together."

"Were you hoping that having Nephilims (half angel, half human breed) will soften your maker's anger toward you? You should be in Tartarus ( Lowest region of the world) for what you have done."

"we wanted it because we love each other. Besides, Jehovah knew this was going to happen; he is the all knowing, all powerful one, isn't he? Since he saw this coming, what the hell is he so fucking pissed off about?"

His voice rang out loud with anger, "Because he demands total obedience from us...you especially. you were designed for something special, but now it's never going to happen."

"Well I'm not sorry."

"You should be, since Lucifer's fall, he decided not to create another morning star...but when he finished molding you, he saw something great in you, he was going to put you in charge of all angels, archangels included."

"I'm not sorry for what I did. He should have done a better job at molding us not to love shouldn't he?"

He put his hand on my shoulder like a father would his son. "Humans need lots of love and affection, when he created us, he put too much emotion in us so that we could perform our duties to the human race."

" Well that emotion is what made me fall in love and I won't change it for anything."

"Is that how you feel?"

"Yes. I want to see God, I wanna see him. But since I can't, give him this message, tell him his rules fucking sucks. How could he do this to me and the human he create in his image."

"This is not about him but about you breaking the rules and challenging his authority, and leaving your human to be engulfed in the part of destruction before her time. you challenged his ways and his purpose for creating you. Everything he created is pure, staying on the path of righteousness is a choice we all have to make."

"Don't tell me that, he created evil himself, why would he want someone as innocent as Jez to become a queen who destroys a king and tears a kingdom down? And now you want me to guide Delilah, another human created to destroy a man and a nation. He created evil... angels did not create evil neither did humans...he created evil."

"You should watch how you speak of your maker. It's our duty to do his commands without questions."

"Not this time."

"The wages of sin is death Persia, you will die."

"Do whatever you want to me, just leave her alone."

" I have no say in this and neither do you. Every time you laid with her, she took a piece of you just like you took a piece of her; you tainted each other. Every time you laid with her, her soul stole a fraction of your glory and added it to herself because that's what humans do. They may not know it but that's what happens. Have you taken a good look at your wings lately, if you were not too busy screwing the human, you would have noticed the tiny black feathers growing underneath the white ones. Amongst other things, angels are not suppose t have intercourse; it lessens their powers. You are of no use in God's kingdom if your glory is diminished. If you wish to be a dark angel, this is not the right place for sinful blemished angels."

"And what happened to forgiveness?"

"Forgiveness is meant for a few humans and not for angels. Just go to Delilah and with time the black feather will fall out, the white ones will remain."

"And if I choose Jezebel?"

"All your wings will become dark and there will be no mercy for you."

"If I do what you want, what happens to Jez?"

"Either way, there's no hope for her. He has refused to assigned her a new guardian."

"He can't do that, you know what happens to humans without their guardians, she will be turned to dust. What if I give up my wings?"

"I don't know the answer to th..."

"Gabrielle please...don't treat me like a fool, I know your history, you loved once, you were just too afraid to act on it."

"I do not know the answer to that. But I have heard that every now and then, when clemency abounds he may claim those wings from you, and you become human."

"Which means I can be with her? I get the chance to love..." He turned his face away from me.

"I don't know the full story, the archangel who was telling me the secret got struck by thunderbolt before he could finish. But rumor has it that if you give her your grace before losing your wings, you may be able to save her."

"How do I do that?"

"I have already told you too much."

He wanted to walk off but I knelt down and grabbed his feet, "My lord please."

"It's different with every angel, you have to do it on your own and you get only one chance."

"Please, I know you know what I need to do."

" I have already defiled him by telling you more secrets, I have to go now. Raphael will be sending some guards to escort you to your new post where you will serve. You should go and be with your human, this is the last time you'll see her; her transformation is about to begin."

Little by little, her body began to change, she stayed rooted to the ground, her legs were starting to look like clay, the transformation had already began.

As they took me away, I cried out, "Jezebel, the mercy of God and his tenderness still abounds, may his face shine on you, may his light guide you through darkness...my his glory give you life, may my grace be sufficient for you".

I broke off from my captors and ran to her one last time, I still don't know why but I broke off the tip of my right wing and watch some snowy liquid barely dripped out of it. I heard an senior archangel yell, don't let him do it. Too late a drop just fell on her face and vanished into her skin.

I looked at Gabrielle, he whispered to me, " it looks like you just gave her the last part of your grace, that changes everything."

As they pulled me away, I looked back, she already became a pile of dust...I went barking mad.

Just a few moments ago, the edge of my wings turned into swords and I fought like there was no tomorrow I fought till Raphael captured me. Gabrielle shook his head at me in disbelieve, " You slayed a hundred and twenty-four angels and seventy-five of them were archangels...how did you think God was going to react to that? Do you know how long it takes to create and breed an angel? There are consequences boy."

"I'm not one of the angels built to just sing glory hallelujah all fucking day long day, they knew it was going to be war, they should have been better prepared If I'm going out, it won't be without a loud bang.

We all disappeared into the clouds, we were floating between the gates of Hades and Tartatus, a very handsome being came to the gates, when he spoke, fire came out of his mouth.

"Lucifer, the faded star!" Gabrielle greeted.

"Gabrielle. I have been expecting you, it's being a while."

"He's all yours Luc. He has faded glory just like you, looking for things he's not suppose to find and finding them then claiming them as his own. I'm certain you will find him useful."

"You are right, the darkness in him shines so bright, it's almost blinding to the naked eye. I see you already clipped his wings, thanks." He looked at me and let out a charming smile. "Welcome home child, you would fit in right here." I watch as Lucifer drank a red liquid from his goblet, he winked at me, "You will be my right hand."

Once the gates opened, I was pulled in and the remaining of my wings caught fire, I screamed as fully grown dark black feathers forcefully sprouted out.

I ran to the gate in a bid to catch up to Gabrielle but he was gone, I cried out, "Gabrielle, for the love of God don't leave me here." A hand forcefully jerked me back and sat me on hot a stool. The devil looked at me almost with pity. " I know what you want, and if you serve me diligently for a hundred years, I'll let you go and find her."

"But she's dead."

He smirked, "Yeh in a kind of way but...

"but what?"

"You did a honorable thing, you gave her the last drop of your grace. She will be reborn a couple of times...just because I like you, I'll give you five life times to get her. If you are unable to get her after the fifth chance, then you must come back and serve me for eternity. But in the main time, I will train you to be in charge of the Principalities and powers that rule the four corners of earth."

"Why are you doing this?"

"Because I have a score to settle with the ancient of days. Besides when other angels see what I can do, they will be tempted to cross over...you may get to leave here eventually but I have to woo the weaker angels to hell and you are my bait."

"But I get to be with her?"

"If you succeed in getting her to want you. Why not?"

"What's the catch?"

"I need you to destroy someone for me, she's becoming too powerful on earth. I gave her too much power and she burnt me. I have sent many but they have failed. After you finish serving your term here, I want you to drag Katherine back to hell why she belongs...with me."

He looked at my wings and shook his head. "Those new feathers look terrible on those wings, ...boys build him new wings. And be nice, he'll be your boss for a while...just for a century."

God, I cried like a fucking bitch as they ripped my wings off, it hurt, flames of hell was nothing compared to trading white wings for dark ones.

I was still thinking when I heard a lot of commotion downstairs, Oh I forgot to tell you that Stephan and his study buddies are here, how rude of me. I heard Stephan call my name, he needed help with something. I reluctantly went downstairs to eye what the craziness is all about.

It was Bonnie, she was on the floor with her eye tightly shut, she was weeping in between words. Elena looked up to me, "Damon, she won't wake up, she fell asleep for a minute and she keeps saying something about angels and wings...how they'd kill him or something. she's been like this for a good ten minutes."

I looked at the group as and barked orders as if they should be able to read my mind, " What are you waiting for? Someone turn the shower on."

I carried her into the bathroom and lowered her into the water filled tub and made sure she was in a sitting position. Her head kept jerking backwards, I gave Tyler a death stare, support her head idiot. I lifted up my shirt and I placed her hand on the left side of my chest, just underneath my breastbone. Tyler was right beside me, bitching and moaning. " Dude what are you doing?" I didn't answer, I had to concentrate. But with his stench so close, I could not think..."Stephan please hold Bonnie's head, it reeks in here, and this dog is making me itch real bad, it's like being dunked in a tank full of fleas.

Her hand pierced through my skin like a hot blade on butter, she found her way where to a normal beating heart would be, I groaned loudly from the pain. I felt alive, my heart was expanding and contracting inside her tiny hand; that hasn't happened in a long time. Something in me almost came to life...she screamed in almost a whisper, "this is my fault, please don't perish on my account, tell them you'll leave and served her as they asked you to, tell them you'll follow the rules, tell them you never loved me. Your wings are too precious, they are the best thing about who you are, don't give them up for me.

"It's my choice to give you my grace."

"I can't take it."

"You can't deny my final request as a messenger of light, my grace, my glory was yours all along."

She let out a worried smile, "Like my last breath would be for you?" She asked.

"Yes, like your last breath would be for me." I whispered to her, "For you, I will give up a thousand wings, for you, I will rip heavens apart, for you I will tear down God's kingdom and for you... I'm alive...I'm fine, I'm human...they can't hurt us anymore. If you open your eyes, you'll see me...common, open your eyes, wake up."

"I can't, if I wake up I'll never see you again, I won't remember your face, your voice, your touch, your smell."

"Yes you will, you will because you love me."

"This is so unfair."

"I know it is."

"We are in love. We haven't done anything wrong."

"No we haven't, the old guy just has his knickers in a bunch."

I'm too scared to open my eyes."

"Don't be...I'm here...there's peace all around you, there's grace all around you, there's mercy all around you. Open your eyes...now."

We all watched as her eyes fluttered open, her eyes immediately raced from her arm to my chest; once she noticed it was inside me, she yelped and forcefully withdrew it, I fell on my ass and winced from the pain that came from my heart being tugged at. The wound instantly closed up but the throbbing wouldn't stop. She shook her head, reached over and wiped her blood stained hand with the pants I had on.

"What's happening?" she demanded.

I rolled my eyes, had "Awesome! Bonnie the bitchy witch is back. "I was about to ask you the same." I lied.

Although the trance was real in every sense, the moment she woke up , she already forgot who we were to each other.

At first, with the way she could not take her eyes off me, I thought her heart had softened toward me...well that was until she opened her mouth. She scanned the room till her gaze rested on Tyler, "Ty, Tee, honey...can you get me out of here?"

I disappeared back to my room before anyone had the chance to ask me what had just happened.

I peek through my window and saw her leave, she changed into a pair of Elena's cloths. I painfully watched as she left with him. She left as if I meant nothing, she left as if I wasn't even there, she left as if...well, you are human, fill in the blanks. I'm sure you know the feeling of seeing someone you love walking away from you with another in their arms.

I walked to the bar in the living room and pour myself a full glass of scotch, I drank the whole thing in one straight gulp then decided I was going to need at least two bottles to somewhat calm my nerves. As I sat down, I heard a song play...

Love of my life, my soul mate
You're my best friend
Part of me like breathing
Now half of me is left

Don't know anything at all
Who am I to say you love me
I don't know anything at all
And who am I to say you need me

Shit! would it be too much to ask this Katherine looking imposter to give me a break from the stupid heart break song. "Turn it off bitch."

"I don't speak bitch Damon." She replied, and the song continued.

Color me blue I'm lost in you
Don't know why I'm still waiting
Many moons have come and gone
Don't know why I'm still searching

Don't know anything at all
And who am I to say you love me
I don't know anything at all
And who am I to say you need me

Hmmm hmmm mmm
Uhhh oohhh aahhh
Hooo aahhh ohh ohhh

I got up from the sofa, and walked toward the cd player, I looked back at Elena and smiled, "You don't mind if I listen to something else do you?...Please" Almost pleading with her.

She sighed, "Since you asked so nicely, it's okay."

I got to the stereo, pounded my fist into it, It shattered with one strike...I would have loved to do that to the wolf boy, but since he is not here, this will have to do.

"Elena dear, do you hear the new track playing? It's called silence and I like the sound of it." I just saved a life, and I don't get a thank you. I'm sure If it was Stephy boy, she would have kissed him all over till he turned red from embarrassment but what does Damon get? Nada, zilch. She's probably going home to fuck the wolf's brain out tonight, but not if I have anything to do with it.