Note: The entire With and WithoutYou fic (a collection of one-shots) is dedicated to Marc (Siriuszilla), because he is the other half of Samius, that will forever exist and wouldn't have existed without him. I love you so much! 3 And a special thanks to Jenna (Jenna822) who inspired my Remus (Though I know your Remus would never kiss Fred. xD)

With and Without You.
3. Remus

Remus rubbed the hair out of his face. He sighed deeply at his confused head, not knowing what it actually wanted. You know you want Deena. But you are in love with Sirius, do not forget about that. Sirius will stay with Sam anyways. You don't know that for sure. He looked up as he heard a knock on his door.

"C'me in." Remus immediately regretted that as he saw Sirius walk in his room. "Hey.." Sirius said softly.

"Hey. How was Sam?" He replied hesitantly. Sirius bit his lip nervously. "Sam wants me to choose." Remus sighed.
"Deena doesn't want me anymore, anyways." He said serious. "What? Why that?" Sirius sat down next to him.

Deena's eyes narrowed as Remus grinned. "Oh, C'mon Deena. That's nothing in comparison to what I've done. But I regret it. I want you, Deens, only you. I miss you." She shook her head again and stared at the burning fire.

"You did not regret any of it, Remus. That is the point. Now, leave me alone."

Sirius shook his head. "I'm sorry Remus. I really am." He stood very close to Remus. "Sirius.." Remus said softly, hesitant.
"I can't help it, Moony. " He whispered back, not moving away. Remus gulped and tried not to stare into Sirius' dark-grey eyes. "Please, don't." He said weakly.

Sirius grinned. "You cannot even convince yourself, so why would I believe it." He whispered, his lips close to Remus' ear. Remus shivered and stood back. "If I want anything to work out with Deena, I shouldn't do this. I'm sorry, Sirius."

**

As he walked into the Hospital Wing, Remus heart stopped as he saw Deena, lying in a bed. "Deens, what's wrong?"

Deena smiled weakly. "The meds don't work." She said simply. Remus' eyes widened in sudden shock. "How can you be so calm about that? If the meds don't work, you're- You are going to die!"

Deena laid down her hand on his arm. "I knew that this would happen the minute I got ill, Remus. Do not expect me to be all in shock and desperate, I'm just not. You know I'm not like that. Don't expect me to cry, while you know I won't."

Her words cut through his soul and Remus softly pressed his lips on hers. "Remus..Don't." She said, staring at the marble floor. "I meant what I said that night, Deena. I love you. And no way I'll leave you until the end." Deena smiled sadly.

"You do not want to hurt yourself so much, Remus. I do not want you to hurt yourself so much. Do not punish yourself because of me, Remus. I will always love you, but now you have to let me go." Her lips softly pecked his, and she smiled.

"Let me go, Remus." He nodded, and walked out of the Hospital Wing, wiping the tears from his eyes. As Remus walked through the door, he bumped into Fred. Fred's eyes were red and swollen, and he knew Fred had cried. "Let's go for a walk." Fred said softly, and took Remus along.

**

"She loves you, Remus. Just do as she says." Fred said, his gaze turned towards the green grass of the Grounds. "It's such a beautiful day. At days like this, Deena and I always went on a walk outside, she enjoyed that so much. You really hurt her. More than she was willing to show." Remus looked at Fred and shook his head.

"If you wanted to go on a walk with me, just to make me feel even more guilty than I already do, than I'd rather go." Remus spat angrily. Fred smiled. "Just like you, I need to forget. I can help you, Remus." They stood still and Remus looked into Fred's eyes.

"I..-I dunno, Fred. It feels like betraying Sirius.." He hesitated, and looked at the ground, biting his lips nervously. "Sirius will be happy with Sam. I want Sam to be happy, and if that is with Sirius, I can have peace with that. We need to continue our lives, Remus." Fred whispered in his ear, and Remus felt a shiver racing up his spine. As response, Remus pushed his lips on Fred's, who kissed him back eagerly. Remus' heart pounded in his chest and for once, he felt a light shining in the confusing darkness.

"I can help you Remus..Just like you, I need to forget."