Chapter 3
A Daddy's love.
We leave the Dot and walk towards my house.
"I'm going to stay for a while if that's cool with you and your mom.I want to play with the little guy."
I nod my head a little not fully taking in what he asked.
"Clare are you even here with me?"
I blink fast. "Huh-What Adam?"
He looks at me."I knew it I asked if it would be okay if I stayed for awhile to play with Munro."
"Sure it would be after all you are his godfather." I smile a little we reach my house and walk in.
"Mom I'm home Adam's with me." I say as I shut the door behind us.
She comes out of the living room with munro in tow.I smile instantly at the sight of him.
"Hi Mrs. Edwards. Is it cool if I take him for a bit?" He says with a open arm gesture.
She nods and hands Munro over to him. "Everything okay sweetie?" She looks at me with concern in her eyes.
I look at her. "Too soon to go back." I fight some moe tears back.
"Clare it's okay I'm not mad. In time everything will be okay I promise." She walks over to where I am and hugs me tightly.
I look up at her. "W-why did all of this have to happen to me?"
"Things just happen sometimes sweetheart."
She was still hugging me.I notice we are still standing in the foyer and I let go of her body and she does the same.
"Why don't I go make you and Adam some snacks?"
I nod my head lightly as she goes to the kitchen and I go to the living room with Adam and my son. I smile at the sight of Adam playing with his godson.
"Well isn't this a sight?"
He looks up at me and laughs."What?"
He laughs some as I sit down next to them in the floor.
"Nothing it's just nice to see that he will at least have some guy advice even if it is coming from you." I tease lightly and laugh.
"Ha ha very funny." He says with sarcasism Eli rubbed on both of us.
Mom had come in with a bowl of popcorn and brought us some soda.
"Thanks mom." I smile as she sits it down on the coffee table.
"Thank you Mrs. Edwards." Adam smiles and goes back to playing peek-a-boo with Munro.
Flashback
"What should we name our son?" I smile at him while sitting at a table at the through the book of baby names CeCe had bought us.
He flips through the pages and goes to the m's scans the names and he finally points to one."How about Munro?"
He looks up from the book and smiles." Gaelic from the mouth of the river roe. Is what it means."
I look at him with a wide smile."Okay well then I get to pick the middle name out."
He nods with understanding."Deal blue eyes." He gives me a smirk.
"Munro Elijah Goldsworthy." I smile at him and then take a sip of my water.
"I like suits the little guy." He leans over and his lips crash into mine and I smile.
"So it is settled.I'll be right back I have to use the restroom."
I get up and kiss him and head to the I come out I see him sitting there with a smile on his face drinking his coffe.I walk up behind him and put my hands over his deep green eyes.
I say mysteriously."Guess who."
He acts puzzled but I know he knows who it is."Um is it Clare? My Clare?"
I giggle as I put my hands down and he turns around to face me.
"How'd you know it was me?"
He smirks."I'd know the hands of the one I love anywhere. Ready to go blue eyes?"
I smile and nod my head. We leave a five dollar tip and exit the Dot with our things in tow.
I hadn't really touched food so my mom had devolped ways to get me to knew I couldn't resist certain foods so tended to have them more often.I grabbed a handful of popcorn she had brought us.
"You going to stay for dinner Adam?" I asked with a mouthful of popcorn.
He looks up from my son."Sure,You actually going to eat?"
I bite my lip after I swallowed the cheeks turned red with embrassment.
"Y-yeah I a-am." I finally managed to spit out at him.
"Good because we need you." He looks at me and then at Munro.
It was weird how Adam had the same effect of making me feel guilty as Eli did.
"I KNOW ADAM I'M TRYING!" I rasied my voice not really meaning to it just happened.
He gives me a hurt look and I swallow hard.
"Adam Im so sorry."
He nodded but I know that doen't make it any is the only friend that really understands at Degrassi I mean seeing as Alli Left. We both need each other and I just hurt him.
"Clare it's not okay to yell at me because I'm trying to help you."
He looks at me and I bite my lip hard so hard I drew blood.
"I know Adam I am truly sorry." I lean over and give him a side hug.
"I know you are go clean up your lip.I'm going to put Munro in his crib."
I hadn't really paid attention to my lip until he said something about it.I help him pick Munro up and then I go to the bathroom to clean the blood off my lip.
Flashback
I screamed and Eli came running to my aid seeing Fitz with a knife pointed at me.
"Clare what is he doing?" Eli looked at me with worry.
I was too panicy to speak.
"Emo boy I'm going to kill your pregnant girlfriend and your going to watch."
I was frozen with Fear.
"Fitz you get the hell away from her."
He stood in front of me now.
"Take me instead I'm the one you have a problem with not her."
"E-Eli no don't do this." Tears stream down my face.
"Blue eyes I have to I love you so much."
He pushes me gently to the Stabbed him and he fell to the ground slowly Fitz laughed at the sight of my Eli falling and took off.I stood there frozen at the sight but snapped out of it and rushed to his side.
"Eli?"
He looked at me the light in his deep green eye fading.
"Clare Dianna Edwards I love you So much and I had to so Munro could have a chance."
Tears stream down my cheeks but I give him a light smile.
"I love you so much Elijah Goldsworthy."
I kiss him lightly and his eyes slowly close and he stops breathing.
I scream a blood cruddling scream as I remember all the blood over my dress and hands. Mom and Adam come running to the bathroom.
"CLARE!" My mom open the door and Adam grabs me as I faint.
When I wake up I'm in my bed.I stare at the clock beside my bed it says 5:30 P.M. I look around confused. I see Adam at the foot of my bed.
"How did I get here?"
He looks at me and he draws in a deep breath. "You fainted in the bathroom and I carried you here that was hours ago."
I swallowed hard I could tell my throat was dry.
"What was I doing before I fainted?"
He sighed heavily. "Well you had bite your lip hard and drew blood I made you go and clean it up then we heard a blood stopping I take it you were thinking about the night Eli Died."
I looked up at him as I was staring at the floor."Where's Munro?"
"He is fine he is mom is watching him."
I nod."Adam will you take me to Elis' grave?"
He looks at me a little unsure."You think you can handle it?"
I bite my lip and nod."Yeah I need to do something."
He looks at me with confusion written all over his face."O-Okay I'll tell your mom where we are going."
I smile and get up and get somethings to take with us as he goes to tell my I'm done grabbing things I go to meet him at the door.
"You ready?"
I nod.
"Okay well we will be back ."
She smiles."Take your time kids."
We walk out the door and head to the cementary.
"What do you got in the bag Clare?" He looks at me.
"Just somethings."
The rest of the way to the cementary was silent. When we reached the cementary I take a deep breath in and walk to slowly to his tomb stone.
"H-Hi Elijah..." I speak weakly as I feel Adam put his hand on my shoulder.
"It's me Clare and Adam is with me. We miss you so much I brought you somethings."
I sit down on the ground and Adam sits down beside me.I pull out the things in the bag.
"A picture of our handsome son Munro Elijah Goldsworthy born a week after your weighed 7 lbs. 4 oz. and was 21 in. has your eyes and your actions." I laugh a little. "It took me until today to realize what you did was the right thing to was the right thing to do because it was A daddy's love and nothing is stronger than that. I love you so much."
I noticed tears streaming down my cheeks and I saw Adam had some falling spent a few hours just sitting there and I don't think I would have left except my stomach got the better of me.
A/N: THE SCENE OF ELI DIDN'T TURN OUT QUITE HOW I HAD IT PLAYING OUT IN MY HEAD BUT THIS THE END IF YOU ALL HAVE QUESTIONS FEEL FREE TO ASK YOU ENJOYED THE DO YOU GUYS THINK OF THE 3 NEW CHARACTERS FOR THE NEW SEASON?
