I Have Forever
The average human lives for seventy-five years,
The average life-time heartbeat is 2.52 billion times.
The average human cries 300 billion tears,
But it's just once that the average human dies.
I was the average human, regardless of my birthday,
I would have had the average heartbeat,
I would have died of old-age, the average way,
But for me death is easy to defeat.
I have loved and I have lost,
So many times I have been broken,
There are so many I have bossed,
Because I was afraid of spoken
Words. I have been afraid for far too long,
Although one day I found a man who stole my heart,
The man who proved to me that I was wrong-
Despite the fact I tore his world apart
With the single gunshot to her back.
I'll never forget the appearance of his face
When he was losing that mental track
That kept his unnerving serenity in place.
The rest of the day I held firm an angered facade,
While the team kept watch over the Welshman's act,
Before finally leaving along the Cardiff Promenade.
I proudly hold sacred this minor fact:
I invited him to stay the night.
Heaven's know- he was in no state to be alone.
He stayed beyond the moon's sombre light.
He didn't even ask about going home.
He spent the night, curled lovingly in my arms,
Grievant sobs racking his slender frame.
I had no intention of causing so much harm,
So he was right to blame me for his pain.
He had every right to hate me,
Every right to make me suffer,
But why he didn't leave
Will remain a mystery buffer.
Even to this day, he still holds the blame
Above my head like a sharp crystal pendulum,
Yet he has forgiven me, although I cannot clear my name,
Each painstaking memory a clear photo album.
In him, I found what I thought I had lost,
My Welshman, joy of my heart.
But I don't yet know the cost,
A calculation I don't want to start.
And when I ask if he's ready to talk he replies "Never",
But he knows when he is ready I will listen, because I have forever.
