About a week after Saïx and Xemnas left, they arrived in the grey area at around 9:30 in the evening, so Xemnas turned to Saïx and said, "Why don't you go to bed and rest up? You're back to doing your regular duties tomorrow."
"Yes Superior." Saïx replied with a polite bow of his head and walked off as Xemnas walked off his own way. As Saïx walked passed Axel's room, his sensitive ears picked up quiet whimper, so he pressed his ear to the door to hear more of what was going on.
"Don't worry, Roxas." Axel said.
"I'm trying not to, but I asked Demyx about this earlier and he told me it hurts like hell."
"I'm not going to lie, it does, but I'm sure he also told you that it eventually stops hurting and starts to feel really good."
"He did say that…"
"Then just relax."
Suddenly, Axel's door slammed open and Saïx saw what was going on; Axel and Roxas were both on the bed, completely naked and Axel was on top of Roxas. "What the hell is going on here?!" Saïx yelled at the top of his lungs, and Roxas swore that was the loudest he'd ever heard Saïx yell.
"If you can't tell, Saïx," Axel growled as he glared at him. "Roxas and I are trying to have some alone time, so a little privacy would be greatly appreciated!"
Saïx growled and was trying his hardest to not go berserk and not only kill Roxas, but to completely disembowel him before he let out a long sigh. "Fine! If being with him is what makes you… happy, Axel, then so be it!" He turned on his heels and stomped out of the room, slamming the door as hard he could behind him. He then sighed and ran down the hall to his room before going in and closing the door and then flopped onto his bed and cried into the pillow. (I know crying is not like Saïx, but roll with me here.) He looked up and out his window at the brilliant view of Kingdom Hearts. "The Lea I knew would've never betrayed me like this… he's changed."
The next morning, Axel walked into the grey area and saw Saïx standing in his usual spot so he walked over and said, "Hey." He didn't get a response or even a glance, so he sighed. "Look… about last night-"
"You don't have to explain." Saïx growled, his tone holding a lot of contempt that Axel was sure was directed at him. "I know what I saw!"
"I know you know what you saw. I'm not trying to explain what I was doing; I just want to apologize for the way I acted towards you."
"I don't want an apology from you!" He growled before throwing a folder at Axel and added, "Now, just go on your mission and leave me alone!"
Axel was shocked at the outburst before glaring at him. "Fine! If that's how you're gonna be, then maybe I will leave alone… forever!" He opened a portal, but before he walked through it, he turned his head and said, "You know, you've changed. Isa never would've stayed mad at me for this long, and over something so stupid!"
Saïx's hands rolled up into fists and he glared at the floor. 'Stupid?! This is not something stupid! You say you love me, but then you go off and sleep with Roxas!'
That evening, Saïx was doing laps in the swimming pool when the door opened and Axel walked in.
"Oh." Axel said when he saw Saïx who had stopped swimming and was looking back at him. "I didn't know you'd be here." He turned around. "I'll just go."
"Axel, wait!"
"What?" He asked after stopping, but kept his back facing Saïx.
"I just want to say that I don't think it's stupid to be getting upset over this whole thing!"
"It is stupid!" Axel yelled as he whipped back around to look at Saïx again. "Why the hell should you care if I'm going out with Roxas?!"
Saïx used the ladder to get out of the pool and stood up on the concrete floor. "What do you mean 'why the hell should I care'?!"
"I mean, you shouldn't! You never gave a damn about what I've done before, so why start now?!"
"Because you and Roxas…" He yelled and sighed before adding, "You two should not be together! You don't belong with him!"
"I don't belong with him?! Who the hell are you to decide who I do and don't belong with?! I never told you that you don't belong with Xemnas!" 'Even though it's true!'
"What?!"
"Oh, don't pretend you don't know what I'm talking about!" Axel yelled. "I know you're sleeping with Xemnas!"
That's when Saïx really got mad, teetering right on the edge of his berserker state. "Excuse me?! I have never slept with Xemnas, ever! So, don't you dare make those kinds of accusations if you have no proof of them!"
Axel was shocked again and struck speechless. "Wait…" He thought the whole thing through and realized he really didn't have any solid proof that Saïx ever had been with Xemnas in that manner. "You mean…? Never?"
"No, never, and I never will!"
"I…I was sure you had. I thought…" He sighed and sat down. "I thought that when you guys left on that mission, that you guys were just using the word 'mission' as an excuse to be alone together…"
Saïx calmed down after hearing that and sighed, walking over to Axel, and sitting next to him. "Next time, ask me before you just make assumptions."
"I will and I'm sorry." Axel said and there was a silence between them before he spoke up again. "I'm also sorry for saying it was stupid getting mad about this whole thing, especially when I was getting mad at the thought of you being with Xemnas when that wasn't even happening."
Saïx sighed again. "No, you were right. …I shouldn't tell you who you can and can't sleep with."
"I didn't sleep with him."
"Huh? But… I saw you two!"
"Right after you left, I told Roxas I couldn't go through with it after all, so I didn't."
"Why not?"
"Because I…" He wanted to tell Saïx that it was because Roxas just wasn't him, but he couldn't. "I just felt like I was lying to Roxas… and myself."
"Lying about what?"
"About me liking him that way."
"So, you don't?"
"No. I mean… he's a good kid, but… I don't have those kinds of feelings for him."
"Then why did you start going out with him in the first place?"
"Because when he told me that he loved me and I said I didn't think it would be a good idea for us to be together, he just looked so upset, so I told him I'd think about it. Then, I found out that you were leaving with Xemnas, and… I got so jealous that I was just like 'fuck it, if that's how it's going to be then I'll just take Roxas up on his offer'."
"So, that's why you used Roxas."
"I don't like the word 'used'."
"But that is what you did."
"…Yeah, I guess it is."
"I suppose… it's no different then how I used you…"
"You used me? When?"
Saïx sighed and just confessed; it was too late to turn back now. "That night you got drunk… do you remember anything about that night?"
"No, still nothing… at least nothing after I passed out."
"Well, it was me who brought you back to your room."
"Really? Then, why did you tell me that you didn't know how I got back to my room?"
"Because, on some level, I just wanted to forget that night ever happened."
"…Saïx?"
"What?"
"What did happen that night?"
"…After I brought you back to your room, you woke up and said that you were glad I was there and that you've loved me ever since we were kids." Saïx explained, leaving out the part where Axel thought he was a prostitute.
"Really? But wait… how does that explain why I woke up naked?" Axel didn't get a reply to that, but he put two-and-two together and asked, "Did we have sex?"
"…Yeah."
"You let me sleep with you? Why?"
"I don't know… I've been asking myself the very same question since that night."
Things were silent between them for a moment before Axel smirked and put his finger under Saïx's chin and made him look him in the eyes. "Do you love me too?"
"What? No, of course not! You know that we don't have emotions!"
"You and I both know that's a bunch of bullshit! That's just something that Xemnas forced into everyone's heads so we would continue working towards Kingdom Hearts' completion and not ask why we're really doing it in the first place!"
Saïx sighed and asked himself why he even tried to pull that line on Axel when it was true they both knew that Xemnas had ulterior motives, and that they did in fact have emotions. "I just don't want anyone to know, because if anyone – especially Xemnas – ever found out-"
Axel put a finger to Saïx's lips to silence him before smiling and whispering, "No one needs to know, okay? This will our little secret; we'll still act the way we always do in front of everyone else, but we'll secretly be lovers. Deal?"
Saïx thought about it for a moment before smiling the softest smile he'd had on his face in years, not since he was known as Isa. "Deal."
They sealed the deal with a kiss.
KH – KH
Did that get a little too sappy at the end? If it did, I apologize. I believe this will be the final chapter. However… I have been thinking about writing an epilogue, so if I do write one, I'll post it, I promise!
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