Chapter Three: Loving is Hard…

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I was questioning if it was right to tell Ben. I love Ben, but as I think about it I think I only loved Ben because I needed someone by my side. I didn't truly love him if I did then I wouldn't be here kissing other guys. Ben loves me, but I am starting to feel that Ben doesn't know what love is. He is way to spoil with his dad.

"Yes, Amy."

I looked at Ricky at the moment Ben said that. Ricky seemed to not want me too. I didn't even want to tell him myself. Ben will do something stupid if I did tell him. As I started to think more into this, my phone rang again. It was from Ricky.

From: Ricky at 10:32 p.m.

Don't tell Ben. He can't handle it here. Just say that you had one of those break downs about how you can't do anything. He will understand and change the subject. Just do it. I don't need him in something that had nothing happening.

"Ben, we weren't doing anything. We just talked a little. I had a break down again. You know me. So Ben, what do you want to talk about?"

"I guess I will be going since it's late. Amy, I'll see you later tomorrow night the usual," as Ricky said to get leave and not be involve in the conversation.

"Okay, see you tomorrow."

"I want me and you to get back together. I love you, Amy, more than anything in the world. I want to be your husband and see your lovely face every morning."

"Ben, I think we still need time. You seem to always want to be together. How about we just see how life is? When I am ready, I will get you. Okay?"

"Amy, I feel like something is just more happening with you and Ricky."

"No. No. No. Ricky and I are just parents to John and nothing more."

"Do you still like Ricky?"

"I love Ricky as the father of my baby. I love that he is caring and knows how it feels in my position."

"Ben, you just don't get it. He is in the same position with me. He knows what I am feeling. He is in my life no matter what. He will always be there because of John. John is mines and Ricky's son. If you can't handle that then you should not even consider dating me. John is my family and that means Ricky is my family. I can't be with someone who can't handle Ricky being in my life. He will always be in my life no matter what people say and do!"

From: Ricky 10:45 p.m.

What happen? I mean you don't need to tell him at all. He is way too weak to handle this. If you do, you clean it up. I am not at all. Text me back a.s.p!

*I quickly replied Ricky's text message.*

Reply to Ricky's Text

Ben just wants to get back together with me. I am not telling him, but I will soon if you don't. I think he is going to ask me again if I want to get back together with him.

"Amy, I love you. Can we just forget everything and go back to where we were?"

"Ben…"

From: Ricky 10:50 p.m.

Are you going to get back together with him?"

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