Note to Self: I miss you terribly
Chapter 3: Come back to me
a:N: Hello again! I'm finally back after major procrastinating. Well maybe not MAJOR, but it seems to be big to me. -sweat drops-
I just got back from my volleyball camp about an hour ago, and I'm SOOOOO brain dead. Mostly cuz I was multi tasking between coming up with ideas for this chapter, AND hit the ball over the hit. ( I was thinking of new ideas…. Maybe that's why the ball hit me in the nose. --; It's taken so much abuse, that it didn't even hurt!)
Anyway, please review and enjoy the chapter! ( Oh and Hiei's Ice maiden, the color in ur e-mail did show up:)
Hiei closed his eyes and let the summer wind sweep him away with his thoughts. Standing on the roofs of buildings always seemed the perfect place for him to sort his thoughts out. For he had a lot of questions that were swimming unorganized in his mind.
He couldn't understand it. Why did the onna fill up his thoughts? Why couldn't push the stubborn desires of seeing her away?
And even if he did manage to push them far away, they always managed to wander back to their rightful place.
Hiei sighed with genuine exasperation and opened his crimson gems. But his vision was clouded by the memory of Botan's smile. Her beautiful smile that would never go away. Like a open wound that wouldn't stop bleeding.
" Having unorganized thoughts again?" A sincere, distinctive voice rung in Hiei's ears, and snapped him back to the real world. " That's how you would put it at least."
Hiei didn't even need to turn around, for he knew it was the damn fox. The damn fox who always seemed to come whenever he needed to be alone( a:N: Just so everyone knows, I HATE shonen ai, and there will be no stupid gay couples in this fic. I don't know why I borught that up. I'll shut up now)
" Don't sneak up on me like that." Hiei growled frustration flowing in his voice.
" Sorry about that." Kurama's mouth curled into what looked like a mix of a pleasant smile and a smirk. " You're not the type who gets startled usually, so I figured that you would've sensed my presence."
" Hnn. I just… just.." Hiei's voice trailed off, for he was about to admit on not sensing Kurama's presence because of clogging thoughts, but Hiei's pride choked his words.
" Just a little preoccupied?" Kurama finished, the smile turning into a definite smirk. " Or maybe a little lost?"
Hiei twitched in annoyance at Kurama's teasing. He hated how the fox could identify his feelings so easily and flawlessly. It was starting to piss him off.
" Shut it fox." He snarled still not looking at Kurama.
" But it's true isn't it?" Kurama shrugged casually. " I can tell when you miss somebody. Especially a girl." He smiled pleasantly at the thought of his words.
That did it. Hiei whirled around to face Kurama, eyes flashing, and narrowed dangerously.
" If you're indicating that I miss the onna Kurama," Hiei snarled fists clenched, " You're mistaken."
But Hiei's heart seemed to kick him the chest as he spoke this deceit.
Kurama smiled again, and turned around to leave. " You're only lying to yourself when you say that."
Without another word or gesture, Kurama went back downstairs to go about his business.
Hiei stood in the same spot, Kurama's words and his visions of Botan circling his mind.
Was he truly lying to himself? Did he really not care of her well being? If that was the case, then why did he keep thinking about her?
All he did know, was that he wanted her to come back. Back to him. Back to him so she would smile at him once more, or make another embarrassing and idiotic scene in front of him.
Hiei faced the front again and closed his eyes again. All he could see was Botan. Her smile, her eyes, her face, and her warmth.
" Come back…" Hiei whispered these words into the summer breeze. " Come back to me…. To me."
a:N: Wow! That was a short chapter! At least that's what it seems like to me. -glances at clock and eyes get wide- WOAH! Then why the hell did it take me an hour to write this! Maybe it is longer then I thought…
I'm listeing to Note to Self by From first to last! Just like the title of this story! I now kinda realized that the story is sorta based on that song. At least I think the song lyrics are a lot like Hiei's feelings of uncertainty and of course, missing Botan.
Anyway, please review and thank you for reading! ( Hey, there's no randomness for this chapter!) Oh, and tell me if any of y'all have heard that song or not.
