Chapter 3 Changes

OK so Jasper has been going a little insane and the last line was:

This pain sent me back to a time with the most pain in my life, it wasn't the same pain, but it was enough pain to make me cry out in agony. PS. If the writing is in italics, he is having a memory. Sorry about the long memory scene, I just really wanted to write it.

She leaned closer to me. I stiffened. She was so beautiful and yet, I felt that she was dangerous. She parted her lips, closed her eyes, and inhaled deeply. She let her breath out slowly and contentedly. As it seeped across my skin, it left a path of goose bumps all along my neck. It was a sickly sweet and cold as ice. It added to the essence of fear. Her breath trailed up my neck until it filled my ear. Her lips caressed the bottom of my earlobe

" I truly hope you survive Jasper. I like you."

Her lips tickled my ear as she spoke. Her icy breath froze the side of my face. She pressed her lips to the side of my neck. I remained rigid but I noticed the miraculous texture of her lips. They were smooth but not at all delicate or fragile. They were just as cold as the frigid night air.

I felt a pinch from under her lips. This was definitely not a mere kiss. I had never been superstitious but, as this strange girl bit harder and harder on my neck, I was unsure. I began to have a horrible stabbing pain in my neck in place of the pinch and I felt my body go limp from what was probably blood-loss from the wound in the main artery of my neck. Instead of the cold peace that is supposed to come with death, I felt my veins surge with fire.

My mind skipped to later that horrid night. Why was I doing this to myself? Wasn't I already in enough pain without being forced to relive this most accursed day?

I had gone unconscious from the pain. The girl that I met earlier, who had bit me, must have been an undercover enemy soldier. I wasn't familiar with using women in war, I was used to protecting them and getting them out of harms way. I must admit that is was a tricky maneuver. I crunch d my eyes shut against the enveloping pain. I could feel the cool and steadfast restraints holding me to a large metal table like the ones in the operating rooms at the hospitals. I figured that I must be a prisoner of war. They were torturing me with a new drug that they girl injected into me when she kissed me. They must want military secrets. I was true to my troops. I could not betray them in this matter. They could torture me all they wanted; they wouldn't get a word out of me.

"I'll never tell you anything. Just kill me. There's no point in trying to get me to talk. I would never betray a fellow man that way. Stop the fire! That's all I ask. Stop the fire or kill me!" I stopped only because of the howl of pure agony that screeched through my charred chest.

I could hardly force audible and distinguishable words from between my teeth. Sweat was beading on my forehead and rolling down my neck from the exertion of my thrashing away from the fire.

"Why do you torture me so? Let me die. I can't stand this any longer. No matter how long you torture me, I will never even utter a word," I squeezed between pants of stressed breathing.

Suddenly I heard her giggle. The girl I met on the road found humor in his situation.

"Ahh, silly Jasper. You will never die. Not now. We don't want your secrets. I'm sorry it hurts so much but, it will be over soon."

"What will be over soon?! Why are you doing this to me if not to gain my knowledge?! I demand answers!"

The three girls had begun a conversation while I was ranting. I figured out that the leader of the group and the girl I met in the alley was named Maria.

" All in good time. All I can tell you right now is that you are becoming a God. Something much more powerful than any human. You want power don't you?"

" I don't think so. Not bad enough to endure this pain. I don't believe in that religion stuff. Even if I did, I hear a God cannot be anything close to human. "I stopped my rant for only a few moments as a stronger wave of fire ripped through my body. My whole body turned rigid against it and my spine arched off the table and against my restraints. My body was convulsing in udder pain. I let out a few more breathless grunts of pure agony. Only then did I really look down at the belts that held my wrists and ankles to the table. They were in fact the hands of Maria's friends. I strained against their hands. I was pulling and writhing against them. They were only meek, young women after all, I could escape their grasps. I tried to twist my body away from them. I rolled and pulled with all my might. All my pulling and chances at escape came to no avail. The women restraining me didn't even seem to show that I was putting up a fight! The drug that burned me must have also made me incredibly weak.

"I don't know who you are, what you've done to me, or why I'm here, but I'm not of any use to you as I've explained to you. Let this misery leave me! End this most horrid of tortures!"

"Oh Jasper, I'm afraid I can't do that. Besides, the transformation is almost complete."

"What transformation?! What have you done to me?!" I pulled even harder and more frantically against the girls' hands. My body shook and seethed wildly.

"Calm down Jasper." She turned her head toward the tall blonde girl at my ankles "He's getting stronger Nettie, he's almost done." Then, she directed her question to the girl with beach blonde hair at my wrists "Careful Lucy, you know how it is with newborns. They get their arms around you and you're done for."

" Newborn?! Newborn what?!! Tell me! I need to know. What transformation is almost complete?!"

"You are becoming a newborn vampire."

My eyes fluttered open as if from a nightmare. I hadn't been sleeping, just losing touch with reality. That was the moment I realized the terrible creature I was damned to be for eternity. That was the worst day of my existence, which goes without saying. That's when I discovered what I was always going to be. A vampire. It wouldn't' be so horrible if I had someone. Not just someone. I knew who I wanted. Who I needed. I wanted the girl who hopped in and out of my mind periodically. She was to fast for even me to see her. I wasn't even sure that she existed outside of my head. I had never seen her. I had never heard her voice. All I knew of her was that I needed her, with every fiber of my existence. She had to exist. The only reason I even knew about her was that I cod sense her presence all around me and yet, only inside my head. I began to notice her hovering around my thoughts was when I began to question Maria's authority and when I eventually left her, Peter, and Charlotte. I think that this girl was the reason that I distance myself from… Maria. I could hardly think her name without filling with rage and disgust. I had no doubt that the happiness the mystery girl made me feel overshadowed even the largest amount of joy that Maria had ever shown me. This girl overshadowed the happiness that anyone had ever shown me. I needed to find the joy only she could show me. That why I ran into the black abyss of the forest.

I was searching. Searching every corner of the earth for the girl that enlightened every part of my existence she touched. I was searching for the shadow of the girl in my mind. Even the smallest amount of her was worth more to me than the universe itself. I had no idea how this creature had such supreme power over me when I had never even seen her. She had the power to make me search for a shadow in pure blackness. I knew deep inside that I would never finder her. Never.

I still had to try.