"Poison"
~Sasori's POV~
As soon as the movie was over, Konan fell asleep, her eyes fluttering closed. I smiled lightly, kissing her forehead and moving bangs from her eyes.
When I had saw Pain carrying Deidara, I thought someone just stabbed my heart with a giant kunai. I hated to see my old partner falling in love with another man.
I picked Konan up with a sigh and brought her to our bed. Laying her gently down, I went to my work desk and started working on a small figurine that looked a lot like Deidara…
I kept thinking about how it would have been if Deidara and I actual did get together, would it have been as good as I hoped? I doubt it. I couldn't get past the idea of Deidara's art.
My art was eternal beauty. Dei's, is that art was fleeting. Mine, had poisons, ones that killed slowly and painfully, others quickly and painless. Deidara blew people and things up. Creating a bomb from detente clay. He would poor his chakra into the clay so that the power was enough to hurt or kill the thing it was pointed at.
Okay. I understand his art a little. But I do not understand his fascination with it! Sure, seeing a few fireworks was nice once and a while, but I don't need to see them everyday!
"Art can only be truly appreciated when you only see it once, hm." He had said his first week of being at Akatsuki. "The art has to be remembered instead of looking at it more than once. Each explosion is different, either in color, size or sound, hm. Your 'eternal beauty' can be seen just looking at you! Wouldn't you like it if people could remember your art because it was unique?"
I understood what he was talking about. I really do, but why? Why would he even try if he knew I wouldn't care? I can usually scare people to death and that's about it.
When I looked at the clock, it was two AM. Maybe I should rest my chakra? No. I didn't need to. It was only an eight hour walk to my shipment and it wasn't that big of a deal. I got up and felt my arm freeze up. "What now?" I growled.
I took off my arm at the shoulder joint to get a better look at it, clay had wedged itself into the elbow joint and made it sticky. I sighed and put the arm down on my table and grabbed a spare one of the wall, putting it on, I left the room, making sure Konan stayed asleep.
I shook my head. "Why don't I understand anything anymore?"
~Deidara's POV~
Pain dropped me onto the bed and crawled in beside me. "I have to show you this." He said, taking out a box and paper. "Read the paper first. It'll explain everything."
Opening the paper, I read the only words on it. I Love You.
My heart skipped a beat, and I opened the box. A ring. A beautiful blue heart shaped diamond ring. I don't know, but I think I started crying, I turned to pain and hugged him.
"I love you too." I croaked.
~Sasori's POV~
I walked past Deidara's room, hearing a gasp; I looked through the slightly opened door and saw Deidara hug Pain.
"I love you too." Deidara whispered.
My heart shattered, and Pain looked at me, eyes wide with surprise. 'I'm so sorry!' he mouthed to me. Though I couldn't forget any of this, I was hurt, destroyed, dead. I hated the thought of me loving that boy now.
I turned away quickly and ran down the hall towards the living room, flopping down on the couch. How could I feel so empty? Was I afraid of loosing Deidara? Why would I? I hated my thoughts, doing what most children or females would do, I grabbed a pillow and hugged it tight.
"Sasori? Hun, what's the matter?" Konan asked, sitting on the couch, rubbing my side.
"Nothing. I'll be fine."
"It isn't 'nothing' Sasori. Especially if you are sulking about it. Tell me what's wrong."
"I had a rough day, that's all."
"Stop that."
"Stop what?"
"Being distant! You never tell me anything anymore! Talk to me Sasori!" Konan begged.
I sighed and mumbled something.
"Louder Sasori." She said agitation in her voice.
I shook my head and buried it into the pillow.
"Sasori, Akasuna. Tell, me, NOW." She growled, completely angry with me.
"I still love Deidara…" I said, looking away from her.
She sighed. "I know you do. That's nothing to be ashamed of. But you know he's with Pain now. He's lost interest with you. He moved on." Konan said her voice more calm. "You have me now."
I got my shipment the next day. This poison was particularly my favorite cause of the special, Belladonna berries in it. The poison would kill slowly and painless. The perfect combo for a silent and unknown death. I loved that thought; just being able to test my poison will be nice.
