AN: Alright well for starts this is an rp I have going currently with my moirail, IstariaDragon, its been super fun and I just love doing this things with her! I am/was Gamzee in this, she is/was Karkat, and we both split the roles of everyone else, sorta. Now this rp isn't even close to being complete yet, so once most of it is posted there will probably be a break before there's an update, but I thought I'd share it with the fandom. Hope you guys enjoy and if you like this don't forget to give my moirail some love!
Warnings: T? rating may change for VIOLENCE and swearing, AU, OOC(varying decrees of *out of character-ness) and sober Gamzee should be his own warning. And also m-preg/pregnancy, Feralstuck, Hybridstuck, and Cannibalism.
Disclaimer: Homestuck and all Homestuck characters belong to the one and only Andrew Hussie. I own nothing but the plot in this fanfic. Thats fan-fiction for you, made by fans.
"He doesn't seem to remember you." Kurloz commented. He and his brother were standing just outside the nesting dens,though far away enough to where they couldn't hear them.
Shaking his head Gamzee growled lightly, the sound directed more to himself than anything else. "...not one bit, he doesn't even acknowledge me as anything more than a threat."
"Unfortunately bitches do not seem able to remember too much of when they're in heat." Kurloz commented, leaning against the wall.
"Meulin remembered you just fine motherfucker," He grumbled, leaning back, tail flicking in mild sorrow.
"She remembers me because she's my mate and I knew her beforehand." he said. "Same will happen with Mituna, it's just how things are."
"I know motherfucker," Gamzee muttered. "but that doesn't mean I have to all up'n like it, bro."
"I know." He sighed. "It is probably not a good idea to try and keep him here, however."
His brother blinked for a moment, confused by what he meant by that. Of course he wanted the nubbyhorned troll to stay with him, but if the smaller was happy elsewhere then he won't stop him from leaving. He wanted Karkat to be safe and happy after all, but somehow he didn't think this is what Kurloz meant. "What do ya mean bro?"
"You're going to get too attached. To him and the kids. By his size he'll be nesting soon and I'm sure the air around here isn't good for him in his state. Once you see them you won't be able to let go. Trust me, I know. It's a wonderful thing, Gamzee. But they're not meant for you."
"Brother, you keep driving home this motherfucking point loud and clear, I all'n don't get why you keep motherfucking thinking this way. Your words keep repeating the same warning, yet never saying why. What are you not motherfucking tell'n me?"
"I'm just trying to protect you Gamzee."
"You're doing it again bro, say'n these words that hold more meaning than you keep tell'n me. From what motherfucker?"
"Yourself." he said, and turned, going back into the nesting dens.
Gamzee growled and watched his brother go. He was growing sick and tired of his siblings cryptic behavior. Growling again, tail thrashing angrily, he stayed in the hall a while longer cooling off after a few minutes alone with his thoughts.
When he went back what he saw made him halt in the archway. Karkat was holding Nepeta, purring softly to her. After a few minutes however he gave her back and shifted to lay down next to the nest.
Any remaining anger melted away there was no way he could stay angry after seeing Karkat like this. Inside he felt himself melt just as swiftly as his anger did. He wanted to cuddle with the smaller troll so much right now, he wanted to hold him and show him all the affection he deserved. However he couldn't. No matter how much he wanted to, it was simply something he could not do. As of now Karkat did not feel the same way and he respected that.
When the nubbyhorned troll did have his kids, Gamzee would keep the promise he made. He would not touch or even approach them, no matter how painful that was, he gave karkat his word and he planned on keeping it.
"I like it here..." Karkat muttered. "It's warm and comfortable..."
He blinked as he remembered what Kurloz had said about the air not being good for smaller."... motherfucker, we should give Meulin some time to herself for a bit. Don't want to stress her none..." He stated watching Karkat quietly.
"She said she wanted me here," Karkat muttered. He shifted to show his back to him and yawned.
Sighing the seagoat muttered something intelligible under his breath. "She all up'n did bro, but you could always see her again tomorrow..." He muttered quietly, the last thing he wanted right now was to have to argue or any kind of conflict to arise between them. Whatever shit of a relationship was called between them it did not need any unnecessary stress added to it.
"I like it here," Karkat huffed.
"The place ain't gonna grow legs and walk away motherfucker, it'll still be here tomorrow." He said, again keeping his voice level and soft.
"I want to stay..."
"..."
Silently the purpleblood watched him, contemplating simply picking up the smaller troll and carrying him back up to his den.
"... Gamzee I suggest you go tell one of the females nearby to get a den ready." Kurloz said after a moment, staring at Karkat. "It's already affected him, I expect he'll be seeking somewhere to nest in the next hour or so."
Grumbling quietly and cursing he nodded his and left the room, somewhat reluctantly. After stepping into the hall Gamzee barked a short order at the first nest caretakers he saw. They quickly scurried off to do what was told. He returned back to the den a few minutes later.
"I-I don't want to nest here- I have to go home, I have to..." Karkat was saying, but trailed off. Meulin frowned worriedly at him.
Gamzee frowned a bit as he entered the room trotting closer to the nest. "What's wrong bro?"
"He's upset about having to nest here." Kurloz said.
"I can see that motherfucker," the younger purpleblood muttered inaudibly, before turning to watch the nubbyhorned in concern, speaking quietly. "Motherfucker, whatevers got ya all worked up, what do we gotta do to make ya all'n feel more comfortable?"
"Take me back to my flock! I want to see my brother and Father and everyone again... They- they abandoned me but... they didn't mean to..."
"if there anythin' you want to make ya feel more at home I'll get it for ya, but … I can't take you back motherfucker. You'll just have'ta nest here..."
"I... no I can't nest here..."
"Why motherfucking not?"
"It- you... it's not safe here," he hissed, pushing over to the wall.
Growling lightly Gamzee took a step forward placing himself directly in the smaller trolls path."And what makes you think its all up'n safer going out there taking a chance at finding them?"
"I'm not near you s-stupid predators! All you want is to kill them... I-I know what you want, what you do..."
"bro..." the seagoat mumbled his voice almost sounding like a plea, expression reflecting the sound as he stared at smaller troll. Those words no matter how true they were still hurt.
"I just want to be with my flock... I don't know why I'm even asking though, why would you care huh?" Karkat muttered, curling in on himself.
"Kurloz..." Meulin murmured, seeming worried. "You need to get him to a burrow."
"No... please..." Karkat whimpered.
Grinding his teeth and growling lightly Gamzee clenched his fists, frustrated both with himself and this whole situation. Taking a deep breath attempting to calm himself he closed his eyes. Mother fuck. How could he say no to him now... growling quietly he opened his mouth again, weighing the consequences inside his head, though he had already made his decision.
"...I'll track down your flock motherfucker," He whispered looking away from his siblings disapproving gaze."I'll take you back, though we might not all'n make it in time."
Karkat stared at him with wide eyes. "You... will...?"
He nodded."Ain't what I said motherfucker?"
"H-how can I trust you..."
"If you really want to all'n get back to them, then you don't have a choice."
"... Okay..." he muttered, wincing.
Closing his eyes briefly Gamzee stepped aside giving the smaller a clear walking path to the hallway beyond, the gesture alone showing a large amount of respect. "Come on, bro lets get go'n then..."
Karkat shivered. The snow was coming down hard again and he was feeling a whole lot worse. And now they were in the middle of nowhere. After leaving the main den it became apparent that for him walking too much was a bad idea, and the fact that most of the area was a sheer drop to rocky waters below made climbing a thing that was not going to happen. In the end for safety and time the seagoat decided it would be a much better idea to carry him.
And now he was, being carried by the same predator that found him in a snowstorm, back through the snow again. The same seagoat who could very well eat him and probably had eaten other members of lowblood flocks before, was now trying to track down his flock for him. Not to eat them, but to return him to them.
Karkat was beginning to think they wouldn't make it though. He was hurting and cold and really wanting to just find someplace to lay down and rest... he made a noise in the back of his throat and pushed his face into Gamzee's neck.
The seagoat paused briefly, just barely stopping himself from nuzzling the small troll in his arms before he started moving again picking up the pace through snow. "Come on motherfucker just hold on a bit longer..." He uttered, his voice sounded conflicted between a building growl and a worried almost whine.
"I-I can't... fuck... just..." Karkat's breath hitched against his neck. It was becoming very clear that this whole ordeal was pointless and that he really should have just made Karkat stay. Now they were out in the middle of nowhere and out of time.
"Can you... find a den," Karkat said, "I-I need to rest..."
Growling in reply he quickened his pace even faster, now running quickly. This area was familiar, if he remembered right they were just on the border, the very edge between this territory and the start of the plains in which lowbloods flocked to each year. It was pretty far from the burrow sight he had first come across the hybrids flock. And though it was also actually quite far the very place he had stopped to rest and to stabilize the smaller troll before continueing home he remembered this place as a safe one.
"Almost there bro," The capricorn whispered "Almost there." He slowed down his pace to a fast trot and slipped smoothly under the low hanging tree branches into the familiar thicket below. from here on out the nonexistent pathway lead down hill before abruptly taking a sharp turn to the left just under the earth they previously traveled across. And just as he remember the burrow was still well hidden, the entrance covered by roots and vines. Even in the cold winter while leaves withered and died this little notch in the earth was still nearly invisible.
He ducked inside and set Karkat down, who crawled over to the small nest in the corner, letting out a weary breath. He seemed to be in pain. Watching the smaller troll in worry Gamzee was unsure what he should be doing, he wanted to help him somehow, but he was unable to do anything at the moment. Silently he settled where he was, laying down in front of the entranceway keep his distance and giving the other more space in the desperate hope it would help somehow. He could only wait now it seemed.
Karkat sighed as he shifted, hissing slightly as a wave of aching pain flashed through his body. He peeled his eyes open to observed the kits, he could just barely keep his eyes open any longer then a few seconds at a time and any moment now he could fall back to sleep. Already he was certain that he had blacked out a few times... every last bit of him felt sore and numb and that was the only thing really keeping him awake. Well... that and the kits squirming against his side. He curled around them and they squeaked and mewed wriggling around against him. Both were certainly very active and from what he could tell they were healthy too.
Shifting some he pressed his cheek against one's head, feeling it's soft hair, damp from getting cleaned. His eyes drifted closed for a moment before he snapped them back open, forcing himself to look to the entryway. The predator was still there.
The seagoat was still laying on his side, in the same position he was in the last time he checked. His eyes were closed, his body limp, relaxed even, but the capricorns ears were pricked up right. Indicating that he was indeed awake and paying attention. He tensed as he saw one of the predator's goat like ears twitch and turn in his direction. Grimacing quietly Karkat looked down at the culprit, the smaller of his two kits who was squeaking loudly at him.
She squeaked again staring up at him with bright green eyes and squirmed away from her larger sibling pushing him back with her tiny paws. Who in turn hissed and pushed back, though neither of them could really do much to each other. It was actually really cute. But the fighting wasn't going to be tolerated. Shushing them he pushed them a few inches apart from each other, nuzzling each before settling back down. They quieted and nuzzled into his warmth, and Karkat felt himself drifting off.
It was movement that woke him the second time. The soft kicking of feet against his side was uncomfortable at best and soon it was followed by the soft mews of both kits. Groaning he blinked his eyes open, yawning and stretching carefully, mindful of the placement of both kits. The larger of the two squeaked loudly suddenly, the sound nearly loud enough to make him jump. He blinked and looked down at him, shifting to nuzzle him to try and calm him.
The kit huffed, puffing out his cheeks before stretching, yawning widely showing off a small set of fangs just starting to grow in. He kicked his little hooves in the air and curled back up.
Karkat blinked and stared at him. Hooves. Why did he have hooves. Shifting again he moved to inspect him a bit more, dread building in the pit of his stomach. No. A predator? Him and a predator...? ... Wait... is that why Gamzee had saved him...?
Now that he looked over both kits again, he could clearly see that both had traits reminiscent of seagoats. The marine tail the smaller kit had, her brothers hooves and his slowly coming in fangs. However they also seemed to have lowblood traits, he noticed much to his relief, the larger of the two had his ears and tail while his sister seemed to have lesser more blunt teeth to accompany her paws.
… but still… all this time … Karkat looked to the seagoat still laying outside. Why hadn't he said anything, told him who he was? Growling slightly he shifted over his kits before he spoke. "... Gamzee."
Just outside the seagoat shifted, slowly sitting upright, glancing the smaller trolls way in surprise. This was the first time he had ever heard the other say his name. "...need something motherfucker?"
"Why didn't you tell me. Why didn't you say who you where- and don't you fucking try to deny it, you can't say they don't look like you!" Karkat growled at him, shifting and picking the larger Kit up and holding him up in front of him, who started to protest and kick his little hooves. He felt hurt. Like he had been abandoned- again.
Gamzee's ears folded back and slowly he hunched his shoulders, lowing head while still staring at him and kit. "bro... after I all'n realized you don't recognize- I didn't think you'd be believe'n me if I said anything..."
Karkat stared at him for a good moment. The weary anger visibly drained from him, replaced with a more hurt look. He hugged the kit close and hid his face in his hair. "Why did you mate with me." he mumbled.
The capricorn muttered something that sounded similar to a whine and slowly moved closer before stopping still keeping the distance just enough."...I'm all'n motherfucking flushed for you bro, been all red for you a while now."
Karkat stiffened, hugging the kit a bit tighter. "It... was only three days..."
"bro... for me it was longer than that," he whined. "… before I all approached you when I did… I'd seen you before- why do you think i know this area so motherfucking well? I wanted to all'n court you, but what motherfucker would allow a predator to approach like that… I hadn't meant to take advantage of you that day- I…" He snapped his mouth shut at the look now spreading across the small trolls face.
"I... I-I don't want to hear it, please... don't say anything..." Karkat was shaking his head now, huddling down over his other kit now who was squeaking and squirming. He wanted to hate him. So, so much. But he could still remember how happy he'd felt with him- how well he'd been taken care of.
The seagoat backed away slowly, moving outside again while watching the small troll as long as he could, ears still folded back against his head. After getting outside he made his way back up the none existent path. Once he got to the turning point venturing past hearing rang and deeming it far enough away from the burrow that his actions won't get noticed, he snarled loudly, lashing out at the neighboring plant life in frustration.
Karkat had his back to the den entrance. The kits were gaining weight and soon they would be big enough to transfer, even in the snow. He was happy about that. Gamzee said he would bring them to their flock. But... he was also sad about it. It had been days since Gamzee had admitted to him, and though he was angry... he wanted to say. And... give him a chance. The kits needed others like them, too. The flock could very well reject them because of their seagoat traits.
Calliope, the smaller and female of the two of them squeaked at him and wriggled up under his arm. Her brother, Calliborn hissed at that and wriggled up next to her. He hated the other getting more attention than himself. He hated a lot of things, actually. He was never a happy little kit like his sister.
Karkat wondered what their markings would look like. Kits were rather bland and dull in appearance besides basic traits for their first sweep before they shed their fur and feathers, gradually of course, and their markings came in.
Markings were alway very special for each troll, sometimes they would look similar to their breeders markings however even then they were are always different to each individual. Kankri's pattern was a lot brighter and more colorful than his and his father coat was deeper in shade, brighter in color, but most of his feathers were a deep ash black. Exaggerating the candy red markings even more. Once he remembered his father getting startled by a loud noise he heard and he puffed out those long black and red fathers of his in a stunning display that left him gasping. The noise as it turned out had only been a small squeakbeast rushing through the undergrowth startling a few birds, he was little at the time but he still remembered that event foundly.
Sighing Karkat sat up. The kits squeaked in protest but he shooshed them, making sure they were nice and warm before slowly standing. He was a little shaky but he was fine. Slowly he made his way out of the den. Honestly he was getting sick of the place. And Gamzee was taking forever getting food...
"…bro, are you sure you all'n fine for getting up'n 'bout?" The seagoat's voice rang out suddenly from behind. Karkat jumped slightly and spun around, staring at him with wide eyes. It took a moment to regain his composure. "Yeah, I'm fine." he muttered.
Gamzee honked and after watching him for a moment he disappeared from view. When he reappeared again trotting down the path carrying berries with him, Karkat could tell that that was not the only thing he had been up to. The purpleblood had scratch marks along his arms and one long one across his cheek and all were too deep to be simple cuts. It was obvious he had been in fight.
Karkat frowned at him. Who would try to fight a seagoat, especially one like him? "What happened?" he asked, and huffed.
The capricorn hummed quietly and looked away in similar manner a barkbeast will when scolded. "... I got all'n motherfuckering jumped, a rustblood thought a surprise attack would be in his favor."
"Why in the everloving fuck would any troll in their right mind, or wrong mind for that matter try to freaking jump a seagoat?"
"He was mad motherfucker. When you got all that rage built up in you, you gotta let it out... "
"... Whatever." Karkat muttered, deciding arguing on the matter was pointless. He turned to go back into the den.
Following him in the capricorn paused just after entering and placed the berries down, backing away to leave again.
"... Wait..."
Gamzee froze mid step, and slowly risked a half glance at the smaller trolls face.
"... Do you... want to... hold one of them..." Karkat said quietly. He wasn't looking at him.
Staring at him for a moment, eyes wide, Gamzee slowly nodded.
"Come here then..."
Slowly he trotted over to him, stopping every now and then on the chance that Karkat might change his mind at the last second. When it became clear that the nubbyhorned troll was not chasing him off he finally came to a stop just before the nest. Karkat waited for him to kneel down before he held up the one he knew was Calliope, still not looking at him. She blinked her large green eyes at him curiously, tail waving underneath her in a calm manner. "Hold... hold her carefully, support her head..."
He nodded and did what he was told gently taking Calliope in his arms carefully holding her as though she were made from fine fragile glass. Seeing her brought all kinds of wonderful feelings. But nothing compared to actually touching her, holding her. It was completely amazing. And just as his brother had said he never wanted to let her go.
He found himself cooing softly, but after a few minutes he realized it was probably time to hand her to Karkat, though he wanted to continue holding her like this. It was important that he not overstep his boundaries. It was already a miracle in of itself that the nubbyhorned troll let him near her at all. Reluctantly, however hiding his hesitation well he gently handed her back. Karkat nuzzled the kit gently before settling back down over them both. Gamzee didn't seem to be dismissed. He waited silently, watching for any sort of signal that he should either stay or leave.
After a minute or two without any sign being given he slowly backed away. Deciding not push his presence on the smaller any longer than necessary.
