Chapter 3
Jake POV
"Okay Jake, I'm listening" she said in the most wonderful voice I had ever heard. My heart was racing. How do I say something like this to her? What if she reacts badly. I won't be able to handle losing her. Oh god. This was harder than I thought it would be.
"Jake are you alright? Your heart sounds like its going to break through your chest"
"I'm - I'm fine." I stuttered. That really wasn't helping me.
"Please, go on then." She smiled. I have no idea why. I didn't feel like smiling at this moment. I felt like throwing myself out the window. Anything would be better than doing this, but I had to do it. I had to tell her…if I waited much longer who knows what would happen.
"Okay, just don't overreact please. Im not sure how you're going to take it and I don't want to lose you" I said, the pain showing in my voice. She just looked at me worried, she must be thinking what the hell am I on about.
"Nessie, Renesmee I love you." Her mouth just popped open. She looked so cute when she did that. She sat staring at me not saying anything for what felt like years. Then finally, she spoke.
"Jake I – I can't – I need to get out of here. Im sorry, we'll talk later." And with that she jumped out her window and ran into the murky green forest. I rubbed my eyes furiously they were irritating me. I didn't even realise why until I looked at my hand and saw the tears that must have been from my eyes. I walked out of Nessie's room and saw Bella. She was the only one left in the house. Everyone else had gone hunting. She had been listening.
"Jacob, was this really the right time?" She asked very serious now.
"Probably not, but I couldn't wait any longer. It's been eating me up inside her not knowing. I just needed it to be out there in the open." She just looked at me like I was speaking a different language. "Look Bells, I didn't tell her about the imprinting thing, so don't worry, she doesn't have to feel like she has to be with me. It's still her life and her choices, she just had to know I love her."
"Okay, I guess that's not that bad I-"
I cut her off, "Look Bella I don't want to talk about this, as you know I didn't get a very good response. Now if you don't mind I would like to go to my room and be depressed. Goodnight." I said that with as much anger in my voice as I could fake out. I wasn't angry. There was no room in my body for me to be angry. All the space was taken up with sorrow, depression and pity on myself. I walked to my room. Chucked myself on my huge round bed and cried like I've never cried before.
Nessie's POV
"Okay Jake, im listening." I said a bit reluctantly. Did I really want to know what he was going to say to me. I was scared to find out, but I knew if I didn't let him tell me now it would be on my mind for the next few weeks. His heart was beating so fast it didn't even seem normal.
"Jake are you alright?" I asked a bit worried now. "Your heart sounds like its going to break through your chest."
"I'm – I'm fine." He stuttered. Wow, whatever he was about to tell me had to be something major. I mean he could barely even talk properly now.
"Please, go on then." I smiled to myself: that was something my dad always said. He seemed to take a deep breath.
"Okay, just don't overreact please. I'm not sure how you're going to take it and I don't want to lose you." I could hear the pain in his voice. What is wrong? Im very worried now, Jake has never acted like this around me before.
"Nessie, Renesmee I love you." All I could do was let my mouth fall open. What? He loves me? I can't take this. Jake is no more than like a brother to me. He is my best friend how could he be in love with me. I just don't understand.
"Jake I – I can't – I need to get out of here. Im sorry, we'll talk later." I couldn't take this right now. I had to get out. So I walked over to my window and jumped out. I started running through the forest. I ran until I came to the town park. I went over to a swing and sat there and cried my eyes out. A few minutes later I heard footsteps approaching but I couldn't be bothered to look up. If anyone tried to hurt me I could easily defend myself anyway.
"Nessie?" Oh my god! It was Nate! I looked up and saw he was worried, but stupidly all I could do was blush.
"Hi, Nate" I said faking a smile.
"Are you alright?" Does it look like im alright. Honestly sometimes boys can be so stupid.
"Not really, something happened between me and my best friend, but I will get over it." I said really not wanting to talk about this to him.
"Oh okay, so do you mind if I sit down?" He asked. I shook my head and he took the swing next to me and started to swing gently.
"So what are you doing here at this time of night?" I was very curious I mean it was like 11.30pm. Why would he be out so late?
"I like to come here late at night when it's empty, to think things through." He confessed he looked a bit embarrassed. I wonder why.
"Oh, so what did you have to think through"
"Nessie, I really like you. I know it seems strange because we only just met and stuff but I just can't seem to get you off my mind." I blushed, part embarrassed but mostly happy.
"Really? Well that's great because I haven't been able to stop thinking about you either." I confessed. He got off of his swing and pulled me off mine so I was standing in front of him. He took one of his hands and placed it on my face, then started to stroke my cheek with his thumb. My heart was beating truly fast now. I was so nervous what if he tried to kiss me what would I do then. And then as if he could read my mind he brought his face closer to mine then finally our lips touched.
It was the most amazing thing I had ever experienced in my life. The way our lips moved together. He placed his hand on the small of my back to bring me closer to him. I wasn't sure if this was a good idea because I was starting to get a bit carried away. Without really thinking about it I parted my lips and put my tongue in his mouth. He brought his tongue to mine and when they met it was as if they were doing their own dance. This was truly magical. It was my first kiss and it was perfect with a gorgeous boy.
After we finished kissing I looked up at him and he was smiling down at me. I was so happy. Then my happiness went away. Nate's smile went away he was now very scared. I look around us and saw dad, Alice, Rosalie, Jasper and Emmett.
Oh god. I was in trouble.
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