Ola amigos. Two chapters because: 1. I'm bored. 2. I might be busy tomorrow.

Life is no Fairytale - Thanks for the tip! I had thought about that in the beginning and didn't think it was that confusing, but I see that it is, oops. Clear distinction now made. (:

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Chapter 3 - Sorrow

-:-Yuki-:-

It was dark. Everything was black, except for the illumination of the moon. This place... is my inner world. A place that contained nothing, only darkness and a moon. I don't know ever since when, but this was my world. The deepest parts of me. And in my world was a man, who dressed in a long black trench coat with black dress shoes. He had chains that wrapped around his right arm. He had long black hair that was tied up in a ponytail. He had pitch black eyes, and if it weren't for the moonlight, I wouldn't even be able to see his eyes. He looked like an average man, but I knew better, he was stronger than he looked, and to top it off he was very attractive.

I heard a laugh.

"It's great knowing you think I am attractive, My Lady." He, whose name I shall not speak of yet, stood directly in front of me, either I'm short or he's just tall. I think I'm just short.

I glared at him for a long time, and he just smiled at me.

"Why did you do that? Releasing my spiritual pressure like that, you could've killed them," I growled.

"My only care in this world is for you, My Lady, I do not care for anyone else. I would kill thousands to ensure your safety."

"I never asked you to care for me, besides, you know better than anyone else how much it will affect me if they had died under my pressure."

"Have you forgotten My Lady? Your one true goal? To-"

"Shut up, I know what my goal is, I don't need you telling me."

This only caused him to smile more.

"Oh, but you do need me, for I illuminate your world."


My eyes snapped opened. I was in someone's arms right now, but who was it?

"My dear, has anyone ever told you that you have beautiful lilac coloured eyes?" this kind voice, Captain... what's his name again?

"W-who are you?" I croaked.

"You don't know me? Shame. Captain Shunsui Kyoraku of Squad Eight," he said with pride. Oh right, that's his name.

"What's happening right now?"

"Those three are knocked out.. hmm... from this situation.. lemme guess.. they attacked you and you... hmm, what did you do?" I heard a sense of confusion in his voice.

Before I could answer, a sharp pain shot through my wound,"Captain, hurts... pain..," I gasped.

"Oh right, forgive me, Nanao, take care of these three fools."

"Yes sir," I heard a female voice.

"Okay sweetheart, I'm going to take you to the fourth division now, hold on tight," he said. I passed out after feeling the first flash step.

-:-Toshiro-:-

Now where is my Lieutenant? Probably getting drunk off somewhere? I swear I'm going to use Hyorinmaru and freeze her ass to the chair one day. That way she'd have to stay put. Great idea. I smirked. I wonder what the slight increase of spiritual pressure was awhile ago. It certainly felt strange, abnormal almost. Oh well, gotta continue with this paper work. I growled.

"CAAAPPPPPTAAAAIIIINNNNNNNN!" called a cheery voice. Definitely too cheery for 9 am in the morning.

"WHAT?!" I yelled back. Lieutenant Rangiku Matsumoto of Squad Ten entered. I wonder why I got her. Why couldn't I got someone quieter like Nanao or something.

"Why aren't you smiling Captain?" she asked, all up in my face.

"Why aren't you doing your paper work?" I shot back.

"I- I- I, well you see, I-" her right hand clenched into a fist and hit her left palm,"I was in the Squad Four barracks."

I raised an eyebrow,"For?"

"You know that new recruit? What's her name... Yuki Saki?"

I nodded.

"She was admitted in there awhile ago, Captain Kyoraku was taking her there when I ran into him," she explained.

Injured already? What a nuisance.

"Do you know what happened to her?" I asked, not really caring but I had to pretend like I did.

"Nope no clue, but hey Captain, do I hear a sense of caring in your voice," Rangiku grinned at me.

I scoffed.

"Come on Captain, she is an attractive one. She is truly beautiful, shes even as beautiful as me.. with that long black hair.. oh and she's short like you, perfect height."

I shut my eyes and a vein was growing on my head. Calm down Toshiro, calm down. When I opened my eyes, the office was covered in ice and Rangiku was.. well.. a Rangiku ice statue. I guess... overkill?

I got up and walked out of the office, she'll melt in time. I smiled.

"CAAPPPPTAAIIINNNN HITSUGAYA!" another loud voice. What's with all these loud people this morning. I groaned.

"WHAT?!"

An average height girl, with shoulder length black hair, and blue eyes appeared in front of me.

"Where's my sister?" she asked while shoving me into a wall. Oh this girl, Kenpachi's subordinate, a crazy one, clearly. I looked to the side and groaned.

"Let go of me," I ordered before sending ice shards at her face. She flipped backwards and dodged them all with ease.

"No need to get violent Captain, I only want to know where my sister is," she said kindly.

I glanced at her with a strange thought in mind. One moment she's violent as hell, the next she's kind as hell. She had worry in her eyes, the worry that I usually had for Momo. I wondered why she didn't just track her sister's spiritual pressure but then again... eh, whatever.

"Squad Four barracks," I answered, disappearing as fast as possible, leaving her.

-:-Hana-:-

"YO PEOPLE, WHERE IS MY SISTER?" I screamed while storming into the Squad Four barracks. Everyone turned to look at me. I remember feeling my sister's spiritual pressure spike and then it just died down. Totally vanished. It was weird. I couldn't even track her anymore. How she ended up in here is beyond me. I hope she is okay.

"Hana?" I turned around. It was Captain Unohana.

"Oh, hi there Captain, have you seen my sister?" I asked.

"She's recovering in the room down the hall to your right," she answered.

"What happened to her?" I asked.

"I don't know exactly, you should ask her when she wakes up, she'll be okay, do not worry," she smiled.

I smiled back before I continued down the hallway towards my sisters recovering room. When I walked in, I saw Captain Kyoraku and Captain Ukitake sitting there. I had to stop myself from crying when I saw my sister. It's like deja vu. It's not the first time I've seen my sister like this. She is such a fool. Why is she always getting herself injured.

"Hana Saki?" asked Captain Ukitake.

I nodded at the kind looking Captain.

"I don't mean to be rude, but why are you guys here?" I asked.

"I found her on the ground with a stab wound in the stomach and three other guys knocked out near the academy rooms," Captain Kyoraku spoke up.

"Do you know what happened to her?" I asked.

He shook his head. I walked over and placed my hand on my little sister's cheek. Suddenly, the tears started streaming down my cheeks, I wiped them quickly.

"Do not worry, she'll be okay, she's healing quickly," they said to me. I shook my head. That wasn't the point. The point was, once again, I wasn't there.

"Hana, it is totally your option if you want to tell us or not... but your sister... I realized something strange about her-" Captain Ukitake began.

I looked at him and smiled,"I'll be leaving now, please watch over her," I left the room and headed back to my barracks ignoring whatever Captain Ukitake was going to say.

As I approached my squad barracks, a loud shout was heard. "HANAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA GET YOUR ASS IN HERE!" Captain Zaraki. I groaned, I ignored him and continued walking to the garden behind the Squad Eleven barracks. The tears coming again. I sat down and leaned against one of the trees and looked up. I don't know why, the tears wouldn't stop. I felt two pair of eyes watching me from a distance, Ikkaku and Yumichika. Those idiots. I wish they'd stop staring. I wiped my tears and bit my tongue to stop from just screaming out loud.

I am too weak, I can't even protect my little sister from getting hurt. Idiot, idiot, idiot, idiot. I don't even deserve to be in Squad Eleven. It was a complete fluke, how did I even end up in this squad. I let out a small laugh.

"Hana." my zanpakuto. I felt a sense of worry from it.

"Not now."

I shut my eyes and just leaned my head against the tree. Suddenly, I felt a hand smack my head hard. As if on reflex, my hands reached up to my head.

"Hani, Hani," Yachiru sang. Ugh, that name.

"No crying allowed," Yachiru gave me a bright smile,"Hani is too pretty to cry, stop it now." I don't know if it's a habit, but whenever people tell me not to cry, I just cry more, I pulled Yachiru into my arms and hugged her tightly, wiping away the last of my tears. After a few minutes, I pulled back and smiled at her.

"Love you Hani," she smiled at me. She is too cute.

"Well, bye now Hani, I'm going to go play and make fun of Ikkaku's bald head!" She jumped up and ran away.

"HEEYY! I HEARD THAT! AH- OUCH, LEAVE MY HEAD ALONE!" I heard Ikkaku scream.

After Ikkaku's loud scream, someone else came and sat down beside me.

"Hey." I turned my head, Captain Zaraki.

"Hi."

"Crying isn't allowed in my squad, crying is for weaklings, so if I ever see you cry again, I'll smack you," he growled.

I scoffed,"Excuse me? Crying is for weaklings? WELL, EXCUSE ME FOR BEING A WEAKLING THEN, CAPTAIN." I stood up and kicked him in the crotch again. No kids for him. Hmph.

"Bitch, I want kids you know!" he yelled.

"WELL, SUCKS FOR YOU!" I yelled back, as I back sat down and pouted. Silence.

"Hey."

"Hi."

The Captain scratched his head and looked up,"I-I'm here, if you ever need someone to talk to." I stared at him, shocked. I smacked him, to make sure he was real.

"Are you okay Captain? Not sick? Did I kick you too hard?" I asked.

"THAT SMACK HURT YOU KNOW! Can't I be nice without you questioning me?" he snarled. That only made me laugh out loud. I rested my head on his shoulder and closed my eyes.

"Thank you, Kenny." Mentally smiling when I said Kenny. "I appreciate it."

Well, that was fun. Bye guys.