Chapter three: Why aren't you here?
10 years ago:
Leo Wyatt:
"Leo do something!" I can't though, I can't heal her, I can do nothing. I look up through red eyes and watch her explode with pain. Why can't I heal her, why? I look above me, why wont they help, please help me! But there is no reply, the tears and screams of pain around me are drowned out as I feel it, I feel she is gone and before the grief of loss finally hits them I orb out. I can not deal with the loss again, I have failed.
I didn't return till the funeral a week later. I arrive just as the last are walking in, I follow and sit at the back. I don't say a word, I just sit and watch. They are all there in the front row, they all cry, I just sit.
At the end as they all leave she sees me and I freeze. Her eyes fix cold on mine, and I know she blames me, I bow my head din shame and when I peer up she's gone. I leave, I have nothing else to say, she will never forgive, I have lost everything.
I left, left a note to Cole, apologising, and saying sorry. I try to write to Piper but all I manager was a tear filled piece of paper with 'sorry. I love you.' I meet with the elders, they agree. I clip my wings and left, I left my family, friends and the first women I loved. I ran as far as I could, I ended up in L.A.
Today:
She plagues my dreams, my life, I see her everywhere I look. An I feel ashamed, I never had my wings unclipped, I could never let anyone down like I had done to her. She haunts my thoughts, my kisses to Lillian are occupied by her, I feel her touch in my dreams, and I see those crying eyes when I close mine, I feel like im suffocating every time I think of her. I can't breath, I need to see her. To see she's ok, to feel her, just to hear her voice.
But mostly to say I'm sorry.
Piper Gordon:
Ten years ago
Piper Gordon:
My oldest sister died, and I lost her. Those who should of saved her didn't, and ran like the coward they really were. I was lost after it all, and the only person who could put me back together was Dan, the pieces never fitted right I'll admit that, but he tried and he did the best he could. I never heard from that man again, he ran, he ran from it all. He never explained why she had to die, I know there was a reason, but I wish I had more time to say goodbye. I wish it hadn't happened that way, I wish he had saved her. I know now he couldn't but I wish he had explained, he had at least tried. He broke my heart, he broke my soul, and left me in more pieces than I ever knew.
Today
this is her day, and I refuse to allow him to ocupie today, he isn't allowed to ocupie any day. I dress smartly, before Dan leaves I go. I want to be alone today, I don't ant anyone. I arrive once again at the gates, with the fresh flowers, and I walk gently over the ground. The grass has been cut, and all feels fresh. A tear comes to my eye as I see the memorial, I see her in my mind. I cry as I get to it, "why aren't you hear when I need you most? I can't stop thinking about him, about this child, this child I want but don't. I'm so confused Prue why aren't you here?"
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