This time, I've decided to do a more emotional piece, so it's based off of the summer after 5th year.
Check the Previous Chapter for a disclaimer.
Chapter Song: Human by Christina Perri
Lara's P.O.V
I was so f-ing mad! No, I was more than mad, I was furious, furious and depressed. I feel as though nothing in life, mine's especially, is right. The best thing that's happened to me since that night in the Department of Mysteries is when Sirius was pardoned for all his crimes and when the entire Wizarding World finally acknowledged that Voldemort was back.
When I realized that the ground was starting to shake, I took a deep breath and decided to use an old method I used to have whenever I needed to vent my feelings as a child. I grabbed an old notebook and a self-inking quill, before writing down lyrics that matched my feelings with everything that has happened.
Memories flashed by my eyes as I practically wrote my heart onto the paper.
Sirius dying, Dumbledore telling me the prophecy, detentions with Umbridge, Occlumency Lessons with Snape, All the press saying I'm the chosen one. All of those memories flashed by as I vented my feelings, sometimes I think Uncle Vernon was right when he told me I'd regret going to Hogwarts and learning how to control my magic. I had at the time told him that wasn't true because i'd actually have a life at Hogwarts, with friends to create, without them to ruin my chances but, with the way Ron, Hermione, and the others are acting, it seems he was actually right for once.
I also couldn't wrap my mind around the Wizarding World, for being so prideful, they were all a bunch of sheep. They never look at the facts, as long as its in the news, they don't create personal opinions, they just start to listen to whatever the people like Rita Skeeter or Lucius Malfoy say. One minute they praise me and treat me like a celebrity and the next I'm the next Dark Lady and Voldemort's right hand women. In the past, I had ignored it and decided that their feelings were above my own, but now I'm done. The death of my godfather and the torture and stress I was put under during the school year, pushing me to the limit.
I put those thoughts out of my mind and stared at the finished song and couldn't help but starting to sing it.
I can hold my breath
I can bite my tongue
I can stay awake for days, If that's what you want
Being number one
I can fake a smile
I can force a laugh
I can dance and play the part, If that's what you ask
Give you all I have
I can do it
I can do it
I can do it…
But I'm only Human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head
Knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
Cuz' I'm only Human…
I can turn it off
Be a good machine
I can hold the weight of world's, If that's what you need
Be your everything
I can do it
I can do it
I'll get through it..
But I'm only Human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only Human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head
Knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
Cuz' I'm only Human…
I'm only Human
I'm only Human
Just a little Human…
I can take so much
Til' I've had enough
Cuz' I'm only Human...
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only Human…
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head
Knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
Cuz' I'm only Human…
I didn't notice but as I was singing, I'd wondered over to the windows. I heard sniffles and looked around, the entire neighborhood had gathered around the front yard of Number 4 Privet Drive and had listened to me sing. They must've heard all the pain and emotion in not only my voice, but the words as well, if the tears were any indication.
I waved at them shyly, before I gave them a look, which showed my vulnerbility. I let the only people besides the Dursleys, who'd made my childhood miserable get a look at all the pain and terror i'd experianced over the years.
Quickly afterwords, i'd felt myself become stiff and my eyes hardened so my vulnerbility wasn't visible anymore. I shut the window and closed the blinds an decided to go to sleep. As I laid down in bed, I had one last thought before I slipped into the Land of Morphous.
'I was going to spend the summer rebuilding and growing myself into an independant women, I was done being the hero and if anybody has a problem, they can suck it for all I care, even Dumbledore and the Weasleys. I wasn't a scared, meek, little robot anymore.'
What did you think?
I'm not very good with anghst and stuff and tried to put myself in her shoes and this is what came out.
Do you think I used the right song for this chapter? Did I give an appropriate reaction to the entire subject? Soo many unanswered questions!
R & R! Give me ideas to use, don't be afraid to put any bad or negative thoughts in your reviews, I like any and all constructive critisism I can get.
Emi Out;)
