I don't own black butler if you're still woundering. my actual brother wanted me to mention he helped me .


I was still recovering from my bruised spine and a few other injuries; I took on the roll of Lady Phantomhive and head of reopening Funtom Company. "We would like your thoughts on this doll it's been in trial for quite awhile." I saw a blue bear placed on my desk. "It's too plain; let me make a few sketches for this." I quickly set to work after pulling my hair back into a high ponytail. I sketched a pale pink bear with a shark like grin and blood drops on its face. I colored the paws bloody. "I give you gloomy bear. It should be able to be made in white with red eyes, blue with green eyes, and black with pink eyes." The man who now worked for me looked at the drawing with awe and fear. "Any other limited edition ideas you want me to alter or can I get back to other work?" I rested my chin in my hand that was braced on the desk with an annoyed look in my eyes. "N-No Lady Phantomhive, have a wonderful day." He gave a little bow and scurried off. "So I'm going to take your place as the new queen's guard dog, Eh grandpa?" Ciel looked a little mad about his nick name. "Anyway what is next to do? " I asked tired and emotionally drained. "You're going to be fitted for a few gowns to wear to the reopening and the party after wards, Select the new house servants, and pick the menu for the party's dinner." Sebastian said as I sighed and got up from my chair.

"You have such a wonderful figure Ms. Phantomhive." The woman was measuring my waist, hips, breasts, and shoulders with the help of Sebastian. "Thank you." I shivered as someone traced a scar on my hip. "You poor dear it looks like you were tortured. What happened? "She asked with a sad tone. " Sebastian could you tell her I don't want to say it." I spoke in a quite voice with my head down." The young miss was abused by her parents who passed a few weeks ago. She was abused since the age of five. She took the beating for her brothers since they were prematurely born." he said taking her hand off my hip." You poor dear." she gave Sebastian the measurements. "Do you have any designs in mind miss? " He asked. "That pink dress I saw while I was upstairs looked nice; do you think it could be redone in black with midnight blue trim?" I asked sketching out my thought so it was on paper. "Yes and a sundress for the opening presentation?" I nodded. 'I haven't seen Ciel all day. Where could he be?' I thought. "I'm right here ms." I was startled by his voice being so close to my ear. I slipped out of my chair and tried to catch myself, but got Ciel's shirt pulling him down with me. In the few moments on the ground let me study the blue haired demon. He wasn't a boy like I thought, he looked a few years older then me but not as old as Sebastian. His skin wasn't as pale as Sebastian either he held a hew of life. "I will bring in the applicants for the positions of maid, gardener, chef, and steward." Before I had time to notice, I was in my seat and he was leavening.

I picked a brunette I assumed was a woman as maid , a girl with blonde hair and bright green eyes as gardener , another blonde but male as chef , and a white haired girl with red eyes as my steward. Right now they were home packing up as I sat in my own secluded area of the house. "Trace, dose Lynne seem more distant then normal?" Trace and Jared were out side with their art teacher. "You mean the fact we haven't seen her since we were at the hospital in America? Yeah I'd say so." Trace was painting a blue rose bush, my favorite rose. 'You don't know what I gave up to make you safe!' I wanted to yell at them I had sold my soul to a demon to get love and their safety. I took a drawing I made for them while I was in bed all those weeks. I folded it and wrote: Dear trace and Jared enjoy your freedom and life. I hope you live it to the fullest, because big sister won't be there Love, Lynne Rene Phantomhive.

I opened the window they were outside of and left it there as I ran to my room on the opposite side of the house holding back tears. I sped past Ciel and Sebastian, finally letting the tears slip out freely as I passed them. I closed and locked my bedroom doors as I threw my self into my bed. "Ms. Let us in." Sebastian's voice was at the door. "Go away and let me tape my heart back together on my own." I yell at the door. I was a hurricane of emotions. I was sad I wouldn't see my brothers grow up, angry they thought I'd abandon them on purpose; I was confused, afraid and mostly lonely. I sobbed my self out when I heard the door click unlocked, and two pairs of foot steps came up to my bedside . I looked up into wine red eyes and heard Sebastian's soothing voice." What's wrong Ms? "He asked putting a hand on my back. " My brothers think I've abandoned them and don't care about them! THEY DON'T KNOW WHAT I'VE DONE FOR THEM THEIR WHOLE LIVES!" I scream from the pain I've endured for my life and my brothers. It hurts worse then momma beating me, the anger and pain when my only friend left me for the other people. I felt like my heart was ripping to shreds and being burned. " I took the blame for everyone of their stunts all their life, I had given up my happiness so they could be mommy and daddy's little angels and what did they do all those times I was beaten to near death and starved? NOTHING! They didn't even try to help me. But I still loved them and protected them, I'm making sure they get and education, the chance to make a name for them selves when I'm gone and they think I hate them!" I sob again falling weakly into Sebastian's chest as Ciel watched me with a sorrowful look in his eyes.

My dinner was brought to me in my office while I drew. "Dinner is ready. " I looked up at the two who had comforted me just moments before now. I had drawn secretly two pictures. Both had me and a child holding hand but the only difference was the father. In the picture where the child had black hair the father was Sebastian, the blue haired child's father was of course was Ciel. I had them tucked away in my pockets. "What's for dinner Sebastian and Ciel, something yummy?" I asked the two still very upset. I looked up to see them with my brothers." What do you two want? My office is off limits." They seemed to flinch at the venom in my voice that oozed out." We brought you mc Donald's, your favorite chicken nuggets, French fries, with a vanilla milkshake." Trace was shaking so much you'd think he was going into a seizure. "Put it on my desk and just go." I said not wanting them near me right now. "Lynne why do you hate us!" Jared yelled slamming his hands down on my desk. I lost it my rage lid blew off.

" I'D NEVER HATE YOU! I CAN'T HATE YOU, WHEN I ASKED FOR YOU IN THE FIRST PLACE," I stood up and got in his face." DO YOU KNOW HOW LONELY I WAS BEFORE YOU WERE BORN, HOW I WOULD PRAY EVERDAY FOR A LITTLE BROTHER OR SISTER TO PLAY WITH! I MAY HAVE BEEN THEIR PRINCESS BUT I DIDN'T GET ANY ATTENTION I NEEDED!" Jared was stumbling back from me but I went around my desk and got back in his face." I was ignored everyday when they were at work, at home, hell even on vacations I was left home, ALONE!" I reared my hand back and slapped him as hard as I could. "When you were finally born I was ignored by everyone but you, I was happy until momma and daddy told me I couldn't hold you or even play with you. Everyday you did something that could have gotten you beaten, I took the blame. So don't even think I hated you, ever." I took the drink and food from Ciel and left the room and quickly ran to my safe haven. The left wing library on the second floor part of it, where are all of the fairytale books were, I ate my food and cried my self to sleep in the reading couch. I woke up to two voices, my 'butlers' Sebastian and Ciel. "She's a very broken person, Sebastian… what's this?" I felt a hand tug from my left pocket the drawing of a woman me and two faceless people with black hair. "She want's a family? But I thought she wanted love and freedom, a marriage would take the freedom and the man could hate her and beat her like her parents." Ciel's voices was clueless. I as lifted and carried to my room. I opened my eyes weakly to barely see that Sebastian was bathing me. I could barely muster a blush in my situation. He soon lifted me out of the tub, dried me and dressed me for bed. As he and Ciel were tucking m in I managed to use my horse voice "Ciel will you stay in my bed? I don't want to be alone anymore. Sebastian you can sleep in the couch by my bed too." Both of them said of course and the got in their places. I cuddled up to Ciel and drifted of to sleep.