Disclaimer: Twilight belongs to Stephanie Meyer; the story line and plot of When You Say Nothing at All belongs to me.
When You Say Nothing at All
Chapter four: The Beginning
Bella Point of View (BPOV)
I finally reached Alice room. It took me over 3 minutes to find her room. This hospital feels like a maze. As soon as I stepped in I saw Alice watching T.V as she was eating her soup.
"Alice"
"Hi Bella, how was the course"
"Boring as usual, but it was packed today really packed"
"Oh "
"So how are you feeling?"
"I'm feeling much better the doctors said I can be released today"
"That's awesome"
After Alice finished her food I helped her pack up. She brought a lot of clothes for only one day. Guess she thought she was staying longer. As we headed out the door he took the train and went home. When we got home it was 12pm OMG shit I totally forgot about the coffee meet up with Edward. When I got to my room I was looking for stuff to wear. I had nothing. I knew Alice had clothes but I didn't want her to know about Edward. She would start interrogating me. I just have to deal with a red V-neck, jeans, and plain old converse. I brushed me teeth then fixed my hair. I look like a hot mess but that will have to do. As I stepped out my room Alice was nowhere to be found.
"Alice I'm heading out" I said
Nothing
I went into her room and Alice was fast asleep. Poor Alice she had a long day today she doesn't need to know where I'm going, does she? No she doesn't. I called Edward to see where we were meeting at.
"Hello" Edward said with his perfect god like voice.
"Hi Edward its Bella I was wondering where are we meeting for coffee?"
"Um there's this new place down by the village named Del Ray's if u want to go there?"
"Sure I'm on my way"
"See you soon" He said
I took the train to the village and saw Del Ray across the street. I stepped inside and smelt the divine scent of coffee beans and my favorite French vanilla.
I sat down and waited for Edward to show. 5 minutes later I saw the most gorgeous human being in existence Edward Anthony Masen Cullen. Edward came towards my direction. I was so nervous he's so beautiful and imp so plain Jane.
"Hello Bella"
"Hello Edward"
"How is your friend, um Alice?"
"She fine she's been released today"
"That's good to hear"
"Yeah"
"What would you like, Bella"
"French vanilla coffee please"
As I went to reach for my wallet Edward was already on the line oh now I didn't want him to pay I felt bad. When Edward came with our coffees, it was quiet.
"So Bella how's New York City?"
"It's good completely different from Forks"
"How long have you been in New York City?"
"A couple of months"
"Do you miss Forks?"
"I really do"
"What college did you go to Bella?"
"I went to Dartmouth University"
"Impressive"
"How about you Edward what college did you go to?"
"Oh I just went to plain old Forks University didn't want to leave home"
"You really love Forks don't you?"
"With all my heart I have such fond memories of Forks the good and the bad"
The bad oh god I hope he wasn't trying to mention that day. Edward and I conversation went smoothly for the rest of the time. As I finished my coffee I looked at the time. It was 3pm almost 3 hrs. Here talking to Edward, we really caught up.
"Edward I guess I should go it was nice catching up"
"I thought we would go for a walk or something why leave so soon"
"I thought you were busy and I didn't want to intrude"
"You're not intruding Bella by the way I have the day of I don't start until tomorrow."
"I'm sorry I didn't know"
"It's ok we should go"
Edward and I stepped out of the coffee shop it looked like it was going to rain.
"So where are we going"
"Let's just go to the park if that's alright with you"
"Sure"
Edward and I reached the entrance to the park. It was so beautiful it brought back old memories of when me and Edward in forks and that day.
"So what's on your mind Bella"
"Oh nothing just how this brings back memories"
"It does, doesn't it?"
"Yeah"
As we strolled through the park I had this gut feeling inside. I wanted to ask Edward why I never saw him again after that day. Why we lost contact. Oh I'm so stupid of course I know why. It was just hurting I had to ask him whether I liked it or not.
"Edward I have to ask you something"
"Sure, go for it" he said
"Um, I was wondering..."
"Wondering what"
"I was wondering why um you"
"Yes" he said
"WHAT HAPPENED TO US" I said as fast as I could
Edward looked at me in shock
"What do you mean" he said
"Edward you know what I mean why didn't I see you anymore after…."
"After what?" he said confused
"After that day" I said quietly
Edward looked stunned. He didn't say anything, neither did I. it was quiet for a moment. I couldn't take the silence I had to break it.
"Answer my question" I said
"Bella I think you know why"
"Actually I don't"
"Don't act like you don't Bella you know why we didn't talk anymore since that day"
I didn't say anything.
"I expressed my feeling for you don't you know how hard it was for me. Then you broke my heart when you didn't have those same feelings for me and you acted like it didn't mean anything to you, my love for you Bella"
I felt bad I didn't know what to say
"Aren't you going to say anything" he said in an angry tone
"Edward, I'm sorry, for that day. We were so young you couldn't have felt that way for me"
"So know you're saying that all I said to you was a lie"
"No I'm just saying maybe you, Edward maybe you didn't, maybe you I don't know"
The words couldn't slip out my mouth I didn't know what to do, what to say.
"Bella its ok let's just forget about it"
"No Edward. I'm not through of what I have to say"
"What do you have to say Bella?"
"I want to say again that I'm sincerely sorry for what I said to you 8 years ago. I was a stupid heartless bitch who didn't care about you feelings and how u felt about me. You were my best friend and I lost you because of what I said I just don't want to lose you again. Edward I….."
I couldn't believe what I was going to say but I had to get this out of my chest it's been such a burden and I wanted to set myself free from all the lies.
"Edward I love you I always loved you I lied to you 8 years because I was scared I was scared that you would break my heart and move on like nothing happened." I started to cry. Get a grip Bella
"Bella don't cry that's how u feel about me"
"Yes and my feelings haven't changed I love you and I never forgot your face all the good times we had together. But I'm sure you don't feel the same it was years ago I guess I should go."
As I turned around I felt a grip at my arm.
"Bella what are you talking about"
"I'm talking about that you don't love me it's long gone" I said sobbing
"Bella please don't cry"
"It's all my fault I ruined everything we had over fear its over it will never be the same"
"Bella I still love you"
Just as I was about to say something I lost my train of thought and heard what he said. He still loves me, Edward loves me. No he couldn't he's too good for me.
"How can you love someone like me?"
"What are you talking about Bella?"
"I'm talking about that you can have any other girl in the world I mean look at you, you're handsome, and I'm just well me"
"Bella look at you you're beautiful, gorgeous, you put a smile to my face every time I see you, you make my day brighter. I know it sounds corny but Bella I love you I always will, I don't know how you could think I wouldn't."
At that moment I could take it anymore I couldn't believe what Edward said he loves me. It's like a gift sent from heaven. I want to kiss Edward but I thought it was all too soon. Oh fuck it.
I pulled Edward and kissed him passionately. Sparks started to emerge from our kiss. We pulled away.
"I love you Bella"
"I love you too"
This is it the start of something new. Is this really happening, me and Edward I'm in total disbelief? I will never lose Edward again I love him and he loves me. I will never make the same mistake a made 8 years ago.
