Chapter three – Keeping you here
I could feel my mouth flopping open and closed as I tried, desperately, to find the words I wanted, but my mind seamed to far gone with inappropriate thoughts of living in a house alone with the beautiful Alice Cullen. Alice's golden eyes never left my own as she waited patiently, still as stone, for my foreseen answer. I blushed and pulled myself together.
"I'd love to Alice!" I beamed at her, finally finding my voice as, I willed the images that my mind had made up, away. I threw my arms around her, wanting to feel her holding me she chuckled and pulled me closer kissing the top of my head.
"That's great!" Alice said into my hair holing me tightly against her marble body. I loved the feel of how she held me; it was nothing like Edwards touch. I nuzzled into her chest and she purred slightly at the contact, a sound I wished to convert to memory. "Bell's its getting late. Should we go break it to Charlie?" She asked me, pulling away slightly to look at me questioningly, I sighed wondering briefly how he would take it. But as I looked up at Alice, I knew it was going to be alright, her smiling face said it all, I couldn't help but smile too her happiness was catching.
"Yeah let's go" I nodded to the Alice and the pixie like vampire sat up, taking me bridal style up in her arms. I giggled. Alice held me tightly to her chest, I could feel it rise and fall under me with her unnecessary breathing, and it was oddly calming. Alice danced around quickly and before I knew it trees where blurring past as she raced me back home, basket in hand. The golden sun had slipped down lower into the sky and was now covered by drizzly looking rain clouds, the clouds meant that Alice could now walk around freely. I closed my eyes, loving the feeling of being in her arms, a cold embrace. I didn't even notice we had stopped moving.
"Not that I mind this at all my Bella, but I don't really know what Charlie will think of me carrying you inside like this" Alice's beautiful voice whispered in the slight breeze and my eyes flew open as her words registered with me.
"Y-your Bella?" I stammered not moving from her arms, she looked down at me worriedly as I blinked. She'd called me her Bella. Hers. I felt my heart leap at the words. Her Bella.
"I'm sorry" She said and I snapped out of my trance like state as I heard her worried tone. I shook my head and placed a finger on her lips before she had a chance to saw anything more.
"I love it" I said once again and she beamed her perfect angelic smile, making my heart flutter. I'm sure she could hear it. "Now your right you'd better put me down. He'll probably think I've tripped and hurt myself, if your carrying me" I laughed while Alice gently placed me on the ground, her hands lingering around my waist, I grabbed her hand in my own and interlocked our fingers. She smiled and started to lead me into my house. Stepping inside we both found Charlie watching a game, when he turned around to beam at us, I felt myself get slightly nervous and despite Alice's presence I cursed my self for not asking her the outcome.
"Hey girls! Have a good day?" My father asked, turning the volume down on the television so he could actually hear us. Alice must have seen the nervous look on my face because I heard her sigh and answer for me.
"It was perfect Charlie. But we have something we wish to talk to you about" Alice said her soprano voice never wavering, while she politely addressed my father. I watched his face intently. He looked at me suspiciously, and I squeezed Alice's hand tighter.
"Yes? What is it?" He asked us hesitantly and Alice went on her face irresistible as she spoke. No one could deny her anything, I knew Dad would agree.
"I wanted to ask you how you'd feel about Bella moving in with me" Alice said politely her charming smile coming out I full force, despite this I saw Charlie breath out a sigh of relief.
"That would be up to Bella" He smiled at me before going on "And on the condition that she would come and see me, now and then" He looked at me and I smiled at him, great full that he was so okay with it all.
"I think Bella can agree to that" Alice shrugged, a twinkle in her eyes and I nodded to Charlie.
"I think I can agree to that to Dad" I smiled, reaching down to give him a rather awkward hug, which to Alice's amusement, he returned just as awkwardly. "Thanks Dad" I said pulling back from the rare display of emotion, he waved it off.
"You'll still be in Forks and although I'll miss you're cooking" I couldn't help but giggle at that "I'm sure I can manage" I'll have to cook him some food before I leave, because knowing him, he'll just order pizza every other night for the rest of his life.
"Thanks Dad"
"It's nothing. Go start packing Bells" He smiled at me and I turned to Alice and took her hand, she nodded a polite 'thank you' to Charlie before we walked to my room, hand in hand. I looked around the room and snorted, this could take a wile, and my eyes flickered to Alice. But with her here it wouldn't take too long…
"Bell's I need to do some last minute preparations for your room, I'll be back soon" She lent over to brush her cool lips lightly against my own. I sighed in defeat. There goes my fast track to cleaning. Alice chuckled; she must have seen the face I was pulling. "Oh and I'll tell Charlie your moving in tomorrow" She grinned at me before she danced out of my room, I pulled my eyes away from her curvaceous form and looked at the cluttered mess that was my room.
"Stupid future seeing vampire…" I muttered under my breath as I picked up an item of discarded clothing. From down the hall I heard Alice's musical laugh.
Edward was pacing the length of the room, a blur of motion to any human that could be watching. But to the blond haired Jasper sitting on the lounge, watching, it was just plain annoying.
"How long ago did Alice leave?" Edward asked never stopping his flurry of motion, Jasper sighed in annoyance. They had all ready been threw this and quite frankly he didn't want to talk about it. He heard Edward growl at him, and the other boy rolled his eyes.
"About three days now" Came Jaspers bored reply, Edward huffed still pacing. Jasper wondered briefly if he would ever stop, but Edwards's voice cut threw his invaded thoughts.
"And you just let her go?!" Edward accused, outraged, Jasper sighed once again and started to think about his brothers jerky movements and nothing else, shielding his mind the only way he could.
"Yes" Jasper said and Edward finally stopped his pacing to whirl on his brother, Jasper didn't flinch or stop thinking about Edward's annoying pacing. Edward glared.
"What are you hiding?" Demanded Edward snarling at the boy, Jasper sent calming waves to his brother before shrugging when he saw Edward relax slightly.
"Nothing, I've just been watching you pace for hours now. It's quite annoying really" Edward groaned and went right back to pacing, Jasper twitched.
"Will you stop that!?"
My room was now officially packed it had, like I'd thought, taken quite a wile without the whirlwind Alice to help me. But I was done now. Glancing at the clock I noticed it was almost time for dinner, I'd have to whip up something quick. Closing the last bag and stepping back to admire my work, I hit a solid figure. Jumping in shock, I felt a pair of arms wrap around my waist, I relaxed into the embrace realizing that Alice had come back.
"See you didn't need me" She whispered in my ear and I rolled my eyes, tilting my head to peck her on the cheek, she smiled at me.
"Would have been quicker with you here. Now I have to go cook dinner" I said and motioned for her to follow me, she complied dancing behind me. Her grace making me look like a klutz even though I had yet to trip. Walking into the kitchen I pointed at the chair and grinned at Alice.
"Sit" I commanded and she did so with a confused look about her, I giggled. "I know you can cook, but let me tonight alright?" I said, and she nodded at me as I jumped into my work. This being one of the only things I could do without injuring myself I was quite inclined to show off a little for Alice. I fell into the simple task of cooking up a rather large pot of fried rice, so that Charlie would have leftovers for another night. I could feel Alice's eyes on me as I moved through the kitchen, I didn't mind at all though and I smiled.
My mind drifted in thought as I cooked. It was amazing how little I had thought of Edward, the vampire I had thought I'd loved. Amazing how easily I had come to grips with my feelings for Alice, like I'd known they where always there. Although Edward was gone it didn't hurt to think about him, it was almost criminal to think about how fast I'd gotten over the supposed love of my life. I guess I didn't really know what love was, or what I'd wanted if I chose the wrong Cullen. Edward might have been a faze, a mix of feelings I'd miss interpreted. But when I thought of Alice my heart fluttered and skipped beats. Thinking of Edward had made my heart stop at the sight of his beauty. A miss interpretation of lust and love. I knew that Alice was more then lust, my heart told me that thinking of her made me blush.
"I hope your thinking about me" The playful voice of Alice asked, I turned to look at her and she snorted when she saw my blushing face. "You're so easy to read, it's cute" I blushed deeper, turning back to my cooking in embarrassment. I hesitated for a moment before I breathed in deeply, a smile on my face.
"I was thinking about you…Just so you know" I said the smile never faltering, behind me I heard Alice hum her beautiful voice filling the kitchen.
"I'm glad" Alice breathed so I had to strain my ears to hear her. She continued to hum her voice soothing. This I could get used to, but the humming soon stopped and I herd my fathers shuffle.
"Mmm…." I heard him say, sniffing the air "Bells that smells good" He took a seat next to Alice. "What will I do without you?" He mocked and I chuckled as memories of what he used to eat came to me. I served up the fried rice and placed a bowl in front of both him and Alice, she looked at me strangely but I ignored her.
"Get fat?" I answered him, he laughed at me as I sat down on the other side of the glaring Alice. I smirked at her, taking a spoon full of food and eating it. She grumbled silently and she too took a mouthful, I saw her cringe as she swallowed.
"This is really good Bells" Charlie complemented me and I smiled in thanks, still watching Alice eat. It really was quite a sight. I was finished, by the time Alice had gotten half way threw her bowl standing up I placed mine in the sink and she gladly followed my lead. Charlie on the other hand got up and padded off to fill his bowl again. Without a word to interrupt Charlie from his food, both Alice and I walked back into my room. When the door closed behind me I heard Alice growl and I couldn't help it, I started laughing.
"That was mean Bella" She glared at me, and I held my sides in laughter.
"So-sorry…I couldn't resist!!" I said truthfully Alice growled again and swept me up into her arms before she dumped me onto my bed, her petite form hanging over my own. I blushed as she pressed her body to mine, my laughter forgotten. I heard her purr softly as she lent forward, her lips teasing my own. I stifled a moan, knowing that Charlie was down the hall.
"You're so mean to me Bells" She whispered against my lips and I whimpered, wanting, needing to feel her lips on my own. She smirked knowingly as she trailed her hands up my side sending my body into uncontrolled shivers. I lent my head up trying to capture her lips, but like always she was too quick, pulling away her smirk still in place. I glared. "Be patient my Bella" I felt my heart flutter at her words and I'm sure she felt it too as suddenly her lips crashed down onto my own in a passionate kiss. I moaned as her tongue slid across my bottom lip seeking entrance, I opened my mouth eagerly and her tongue darted forward making me moan into her soft lips. She pulled away ever so slightly to trail kisses from my jaw down to my neck. My heart was hammering in my chest as I arched into her, wanting to be closer. Her lips stopped lingering above my neck as my heart hammered on; her hot breath making me bit down on my lip to keep back a moan.
Suddenly Alice's face was hovering above my own, and my eyes widened as I saw her own. Her coal black eyes. My body tensed up as I smelt the blood. My blood. Alice moved down to my lip slowly, agonizingly slow. I willed myself to move, to shove her off me, anything, but I couldn't move I was frozen in place as she moved closer. My heart rate quickened. She placed her head against my own, and licked at the blood on my lips, she moaned as she tasted it. My hands tangled in her hair, despite the situation I was in. She gripped me tighter as started to suck at my lower lip, groaning as the blood slid down her throat. She when she found no more blood, and I could see her glittering teeth inching towards my lip wanting to draw more blood, my breath caught.
Alice blinked at this and suddenly she was no longer on top of me. I blinked in a slight daze, before sitting up too see Alice standing in the far back corner of my room. Her small body racked with spasms as she tried desperately to control herself, I could see her fists clench and my heart ached at the sight. My blood trickled down the corner of her mouth as she shook. I felt neither disgusted nor queasy at the sight of my blood, but seeing her small body spasm like that shattered my heart.
"Alice…" I started but she shook her head and opened her dark eyes, to look at me in remorse.
"I'm so sorry Bella" She choked out and I wanted to comfort her, to go to her, but I knew I couldn't. I sighed.
"Go…" I commanded knowing she needed to hunt, she turned to the window but I went on. "But Alice" She looked at me and I smiled "Please come back" She nodded and disappeared out my open window. I fell backwards onto my bed as a pang of loss went threw me. I knew she would come back, I just had to wait.
I ran. Ran as far away from her intoxicating sent as I could. I needed to get away, to clear my head and banish the monster back into the back of my mind. I shouldn't have lost control like that. The smell of doe came to me on the wind and I turned sharply to follow the smell of blood. The back of my throat burned like fire. I was so close to ripping her throat, to losing myself to the monster. It was sickening. The unsuspecting doe came into my perfect vision and before it could react, I was already upon it, cracking its neck with my strength, before I sunk my teeth into its neck letting the blood ease the fire, dulling the pain. I drank, relishing in the warm blood slipping down my throat. I had finished too early for my liking so I chased down another two, drinking from them until the fire had gone. After I had finished I stumbled up and screamed into the night air. Letting out my anger. The anger of almost hurting her, or losing her, my Bella.
I fell to the ground and sat there, composing myself. If I had hurt her, I shuddered to think what I would do. Bella. If it could I knew my heart would have skipped a beat at just thinking her name. I've always know boys haven't appealed to me in the way girls had, and if I could remember I was sure that would be another reason why I was in that damn asylum. I had seen Jasper in my future but never in the romantic sense, he might have, but I never did. He is my brother, nothing more. Jasper was the only one in the family that knew of my orientation as I made sure that secret was locked in the back of my mind and Jaspers for that matter. But when Bella came along that was easier said then done for me.
The moment I had seen Bella for that first time at school, I saw shocked into silence. She was, and still is, the most extraordinarily beautiful girl I was to ever lay eyes on. She is breathtaking. I remember seeing the vision of her as a vampire; again I was stunned by a beauty that surpassed Roses. But as Edward started to sit with her, flirt with her, I knew I had no chance. No visions came and I felt the most intense shattering of happiness that Jasper could not come near me for a week. It was then that I decided to be her friend because that's all I was ever going to be, and we became the best of friends. I fought to control my feelings for her, my thoughts as Edward became more smitten with her. But then Edward had told us to leave, leave not only Forks but her behind. I knew I couldn't do it. That I wouldn't last without her in my life. I could never leave her and I could not, would not ever hurt her. With that thought in mind I stood up and decided a change of cloths was in order. Stepping forward, I faltered when my vision clouded over.
A distort looking Edward was pacing in front of my family, the Cullen's. They where all their watching him.
"Alice went back" He stated to the family, Carlisle shook his head at the pacing Edward.
"Edward are you going back?" He asked not wanting to drag this conversation out any longer. The pacing boy stopped to look at his father, his face torn.
"I don't know…" He said fighting over his feelings of what he thought was right and what he wanted to do, Carlisle sighed.
"I think we should wait, Alice could come back and it's clear to me you have yet to make up your mind. We will wait Edward, think it over…" Edward nodded.
The vision faded until my eye sight was back to normal, I sighed in both irritation and relief. I would have some more time alone with my Bella until things could get messy. Edward would come, I knew that much for sure, but it would take him sometime to get over his 'heroic' wish of wanting Bella to have a normal life. I started off once again towards Bella's house.
Waiting for Alice to return was not fun. I could feel my stomach knotting nervously as I realized there could be a slight chance she might not return tonight. The window was open letting in a cool breeze that gave me goose-bumps, as I waited in trackies and a baggy t shirt. Sitting on my bed I never once took my eyes off the window.
"Bella…" Alice's beautiful voice breathed from beside me, only mildly surprised I turned my head to see her worried expression. I smiled.
"Alice, I'm glad you came back" I said patting the spot next to me, inviting her to sit down she hesitated long enough for me to notice before sighing and taking a seat next to me. She looked down at the floor, her eyes not meeting mine and I frowned at this. "Alice what…" I started asking before her voice cut threw mine.
"I'm so sorry Bella…I shouldn't have done what I did to you. I should have never put you in danger like that" She said sincerely, the tone of her voice made my heart stop in fear. Fear that she too would leave like Edward. I opened my mouth to speak, but no words came out, I could feel my hands shaking the empty feeling creeping back as she still didn't meet my eyes.
"You're…your not leaving…are you?" I practically demanded her; I could feel my whole body start to shake now. Alice's head snapped up quickly, eyes wide as she took in my shaking form. Without hesitation she wrapped me in a hug, combing her fingers reassuringly threw my hair as she rocked me slightly.
"No…No Bella, never. Don't even think like that. I was just saying I shouldn't have let myself get so out of control around you. I could have really hurt you my Bella and I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I hurt you" She said into my hair, holding me tightly as I shook. I tried to clam myself down, her words reassured me, I knew she was not leaving me she wasn't like Edward. I slowly rapped my still shaking arms around her slim waist and sighed.
"Alice you wouldn't have hurt me, I know that. But it was my fault I was the one bleeding…" I felt the beautiful vampire shake her head in a no.
"It wasn't your fault…" Alice's pained voice said and I looked up at her, her eyes where now the golden color that I loved. I licked my lip and hesitated nervously averting my gaze, Alice crooked an eyebrow at my expression. "What is it Bella?" She asked me and I looked back to her and sighed.
"I have to ask….Is my…Is my blood really as good as you thought?" I asked and as soon as I did I felt Alice's small figure go ridged in my arms. I looked to her worriedly but she snapped out of it quickly and gave me a small smile.
"It's amazing" She said almost dreamily and I couldn't help but giggle "What?" She asked pouting. She looked so cute.
"You look cute when you do that" I said kissing her putting lips lightly, her breath caught and I was worried once again. But she smiled at me.
"And you are beautiful" She ran her hand across my cheek and I lent into her touch, a smile on my face.
"So you say…" I murmured and she laughed lightly her airy voice running in my head, made my heart flutter. She lent her head forward, resting on my chest, to listen to my heart beat which speed up considerably when she moved closer to me.
"You are beautiful Bella, stunningly so…" She whispered next to my chest and I was hit by a question Edward had once asked me.
"Do I dazzle you?" I asked her and she looked up from listening to my fast beating heart, her eyes searched mine and she stopped breathing.
"Frequently…" She admitted smiling and I felt my heart leap at the obvious truth written on her face. She placed a hand over my beating heart and touched my nose with hers. "You're all set to move in tomorrow Bells, but I think you need to sleep now…" She whispered scooping me up and pulling back the blankets so she could lay me down. She brushed a stray hair behind my ear and I reached out to take her hand.
"You're staying, right?" I asked her and in response she was suddenly next to me, holding me close to her cool stone body her breath in my ear.
"Always…." She breathed hinting at a double meaning, and I smiled letting my eyes drift shut as she lightly hummed a quiet lullaby into my ear.
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Next Chap: Talks of change...
"Bells I want to change you..." "I know you can do it Alice, you would never hurt me" " But..." "No buts Bite me Alice"
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