A/N ok, so the muses are weird right? As soon as i decide to face facts that I'm getting no inspiration, and say bye to all you lot, I get some inspiration! You must all think I'm incredibly crazy but... oh well! All I hope is that you review anyway! So yeh, here's the last section of my three-parter, I hope you's like it. I'm not completely happy with this end bit... but ohwell. And yes, there will probably be another full-length fic coming soonish. DAMN IT! Why do I always get inspiration around exam times and such?? Weird huh!!!
Love ya's!
My Immortal
by Evanescence
I'm so tired of being here,
Suppressed by all my childish fears
All I wanted to do was leave. Try to find you again.
But your words keep ringing in my mind. Be strong, my love. You told me to be strong without you. Did you know how impossible that would be?
You never had to feel this, this emptiness, that I feel.
Without you.
And if you have to leave,
I wish that you would just leave,
'Cause your presence still lingers here,
And it won't leave me alone
Your memories still haunt me. All those memories I have. I thought I would welcome them, but they just bring back the pain.
I can't feel the happiness I once felt. Not without you.
Life just isn't the same.
It's not like before I knew you, when I was carefree. When I was with you I thought my past had been a sad existence, but now I feel this and... it's like nothing I've ever had to go through.
I don't think I'll be able to make it the other side.
There is no way I can cope any more.
These wounds won't seem to heal,
This pain is just too real,
There's just too much that time cannot erase
People try to help me through. They try to make me live again. They say it's what you would have wanted.
I know it is.
If our places were reversed, I never would have wanted you to live like this. This half life I'm leading. But I don't know how to live without you.
No-one ever told me how.
You're not here to help me through this.
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears,
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears,
And I held your hand through all of these years,
But you still have,
All of me
All I ever wanted was to be there for you.
And in the end it was you who left me.
I remember your tears on our wedding day. Happy tears. I remember our tears in the hospital.
I feel my tears now. There's no-one to wipe them away.
No-one to console me.
I don't even feel real, any more.
You used to captivate me,
By your resonating life,
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
We argued. We laughed. We lived.
I loved you. I still love you, even though you're gone.
I can't imagine not loving you.
I can't move on, I can't get closure. You're always there, in my memories.
I wish I didn't remember, but I don't want to forget.
Your face it haunts,
My once pleasant dreams,
Your voice it chased away,
All the sanity in me
I sit in the dark, thinking of you. Nothing numbs the pain.
I remember summer days, winter days. All with you.
It's like I never lived, apart from when I was with you. And now you're gone, and I'm worse than dead.
I don't sleep, I simply dream. Your face, your body, it's all I remember.
It's all I want to remember. Everything else means nothing to me.
But you meant everything.
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone,
But though you're still with me,
I've been alone all along
People tell me that I will get through this. That I'll be able to put the pain somewhere it makes me stronger.
But I can't.
You're always there, but you're never really here.
How am I meant to carry on? I know it's what you would have wanted.
You loved me, you never wanted me to hurt. You tried so hard not to hurt me, but every time I would end up getting hurt.
I'm hurting now.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears,
I held your hand through all of these years,
I can feel your hand in mine. Your cheek on my chest. Your body touching mine.
Why did you leave me?
All I want is one more touch, one more silent caress.
All I need is you.
I miss you.
We should be together.
But you still have,
All of me
You are everything to me.
I'm nothing without you.
I'm still here.
But you're gone.
