Jasper's POV

I was sitting out on the back porch at the Denali's place in Alaska. They had offered us a place to stay until we could figure out where we were going next. Honestly, I didn't care where we went. I was too consumed with guilt and confusion to care about anything.

The guilt was obvious. I had gone after Bella. I had tried to hurt that innocent girl, someone I'd started to care about. I didn't know her that well, but I'd spent a little time with her while we were helping her run from James and I felt a connection to her. It killed me to know that I'd nearly killed her.

I was terribly confused as well because I couldn't remember seeing any blood. I heard Bella mention a papercut and then Edward look towards me. I was fine at that point. I couldn't even smell any blood, which is weird and confusing by itself. I could normally smell a drop of blood from miles away. But I didn't smell a thing at that point. I did, however, see Edward's eyes. They were dark as night and filled with thirst.

At that point, I moved to get Edward away from Bella. I still hadn't seen any blood, but I could tell that Edward saw and smelled it and could hurt Bella. That's when it all got really bad. Edward had pushed Bella and then all of a sudden I felt more bloodlust than I ever had, aside from my newborn period. It was then that I redirected my goal from Edward to Bella. That led me to feeling an unimaginable amount of guilt. For the life of me though, I still could not remember seeing any blood, not a drop. Why couldn't I see any blood?

My thoughts were cut off when I heard someone coming my way. I turned around and a second later, Emmett came out.

"Hey, Man," Emmett said as he sat down beside me. "So Eddie's leaving for a while."

"I know. I hear just as well as you do," I said. I'd heard Edward arguing with Carlisle and Esme about his leaving the family for a bit. I couldn't say I was sorry to hear it. Edward was really starting to piss me off with his glares and comments about what happened. I realized that how bad it was that I tried to hurt Bella, but he had no business acting holier than thou about it. I'd seen his eyes that night. I knew what he wanted to do to her.

"I know the others won't agree, but Rosie and I think it's best. I can't stand to be around him right now. I don't know what he said to Bella, but I know it must of broken her heart. He wouldn't even let us say goodbye. That has to be killing her," Emmett said sadly.

I felt a wave of guilt there. Oh, I didn't absolve Edward of his responsibility for whatever Bella might be feeling, but I was a part of it. I had tried to hurt her.

For a moment, I almost thought Emmett had somehow stolen my gift, as what he said next mirrored my emotions. "Don't beat yourself up, man. It wasn't your fault. It was instinct and we all felt it."

"You didn't have to be held back, did you?" I asked.

Things were quiet between us for several moments before Emmett spoke again. "Actually, what I said isn't exactly true. I didn't smell it at first or see it. I didn't smell anything until I started holding you back."

I whipped my head towards him. "You didn't?"

"No. I saw Edward's eyes and then I saw yours, but I didn't feel it for another couple of seconds. I didn't see any blood until after I had my arms around you. Then her arm was covered in it. I must have been too preoccupied with trying to stop you," Emmett said.

I was more confused than ever now. Emmett hadn't felt anything at first either. Why was that? We both should've felt bloodlust from the very beginning and we definitely should've seen it. I never saw any blood. I couldn't remember ever seeing a single drop.

"It wasn't your fault. You looked fine until Eddie pushed Bella into that table. He was the one that looked like he was fighting thirst. He had no right to blame you," Emmett said.

Just then, my cellphone started to ring. I took it out and saw that it was Peter's number. I immediately answered it. "What do you want, Peter? It's been a bad week, so make this quick." I loved my brother, but he had a habit of screwing with me before getting to the point and I was in no mood.

"NIce to hear from you too, Major," Peter said sarcastically.

I growled. "Peter, tell me what you want now or I'm hanging up and the next time I see you, I'm relieving you of one of your limbs!"

"Whoa, okay! I need your help with something. Can you come down for a while?" Peter asked.

I thought about the request for a moment. I could definitely use a break from the rest of the family. "How long's a while?"

"Not sure. Indefinitely," he said.

"What's this about?" I asked slightly concerned. Peter wouldn't pull me away for an extended period of time unless something serious was up.

"I don't wanna say on the phone. It's a long story."

"If I come, you know Alice will be coming too, right?" I asked. Peter and Char hated Alice and they'd made no attempts at hiding that fact. Of course, Alice made her disgust for them well-known, so I couldn't blame them. Honestly, I would leave her behind, but I knew she'd just nag me until I agreed to let her come and I wanted to avoid that.

"Fine, but leave the rest of them behind, especially the king hypocrisy," Peter said. Of course that last part was code for Edward, another person my brother and his wife hated. I was with them with that one.

"No problem. We'll be there soon," I said before hanging up.

"So you're leaving too. Any idea what this is about?" Emmett asked.

"Not a clue, but it has to be important. He didn't even put up a fight when I said Alice would be coming. I better let her know and then get my things together," I said before heading inside.