The Ponds started eating. I really did not want to eat.

I sat there a moment before realizing something: I had to eat, but that did not mean it had to stay down.

The thought brought a sly smile to my face.

However, even with my new resolve, I still did not fell like eating. I looked down at the different foods before me.

Gingerly I picked up a carrot with my fork and placed it in my mouth.

It was hard not gagging. I was disgusted, not by the taste, but by the very essence of the food inside of my mouth. Slowly I chewed, before washing it down with a large sip of water. In that manor I proceeded to eat the remainder of my food, somehow managing not to gag.

Amy and Rory were chatting away about something that had happened at the hospital. Something involving a coffee and an MRI machine.

Amy was laughing and slowly sipping her wine.

They were so happy. So full of life. It was too bad they hung around such bad company.

You are the one who keeps forcing yourself upon them, I silently reminded myself, If they had a choice they would have left a long time ago.

"-right, Doctor?", Amy asked.

"I'm sorry Pond, I have no idea what is going on. What are we talking about?", I asked as I ran my hand over my face for the second time that night.

"You are staying for dessert doctor, correct?", Amy repeated looking at me strangely.

"Actually", I said looking at my watch, "I have to go. Continuum and all".

"Nonsense. I made cake", she said as if it were final.

"If it will make you happy Amelia, then I'll stay", I said hiding my desperation to leave.

Amy smiled and marched into the kitchen to retrieve the sugar dessert.

A few moments later Amy marched proudly to the table holding her achievement.

There was a double decker chocolate mass in front of her. There were tiny white designs all over the cake that were very swirly. The designs almost resembled my own language, something I cracked a small smile at.

Amy had Rory cut the cake while she retrieved plates and flatware.

After they dished out the cake, which was unfortunately, as they had given me the largest piece, we all ate. My body was practically screaming at itself by the time I was done. But I had no choice, if I had left any cake the Ponds would have known something was up.

"Doctor, are you sure you can not stay a bit longer?", Rory asked on his second piece of cake, which I had come to find out also had bananas in the centre.

"Continuum", I said hoping to finally be able to escape.

"A couple weeks", the Roman said, "No more."

"What?", I asked warily, hoping he had not worked out my hesitance to eat.

"A couple week, then we want to see you again. Sooner if possible, even if it is not for some outer space renegades", Amy said, "I'm pretty sure River will be over next week too. You should come".

"Oh, um, yeah. Sure thing", I said as I stood up to take my plate into the kitchen.

I could feel the sugar starting at my teeth. It was disgusting. No.

I was disgusting.

I walked back into the room that held the Ponds, before deciding to lean on the door frame.

Amy was making a funny face and Rory was giggling.

I do not deserve these extraordinary people in my worthless, pointless life, I thought.

"Alright Ponds", I said rubbing my hands together, "I am off".

"I will walk you out Doctor, I think I forgot my mascara in the TARDIS anyway", Amy said giggling.

"See you later Doctor", Rory said with a smile and a wave as he began cleaning up the rest of dessert.

A few moments later I was standing outside the TARDIS waiting for Amy to retrieve her mascara. Which was taking forever. I mean, how long did it take to find a tube of goo?

I opened the door and did not see Amy inside.

"Amy?", I asked, "Did you get lost? Do you need some help?"

A few moments later Amy's head popped through the door, which was then quickly followed by the rest of her.

"Got it!", She said waving a small silver cylinder in front of my face.

"Well done Pond", I said as I entered the TARDIS.

"I will see you next week then", She said raising an eyebrow.

"Absolutely, why would you not?", I asked.

"Rule one, and besides that you have been off all night", she looked at me, eyes full of concern, "You would tell me if something was wrong, right?"

"Of course. Of course, I would", I lied with a sincere smile that seemed to put her at ease.

We exchanged a hug before she turned to go into the house and I shut the TARDIS doors.

There I was again.

The Doctor in the TARDIS.

Alone.