Try to color inside their lines
Try to live a life by design
I just wanna be myself
I can't be someone else
Someone else

Location: Manhattan, New York City

Jonathan POV

I had to remain hidden, I had to remain from sight and they were never to know that I was following them. I had escaped Edom least for a while, my traps would keep Lilith away for a while, I just had to know. I had to know why was it even in what could be considered a rather convoluted mind I still dreamt of a woman with red hair and beautiful green eyes. It had taken me a while to get my hands on one of Lilith's orbs, the search for the woman was even harder but I had found them finally. The woman in question was covered in a thick layer of glamour, she was trying to hide herself from the mundanes around her. In her arms was a small child with equally as red hair… a girl she was only six or seven. Forcing myself behind a wall as the woman turned to look in my direction I cursed at my recklessness. I was hideous, I had nothing to hide by disfigured body from the views of others especially not to a trained Shadowhunter like herself. Taking a deep breath, I poked my head out from behind the trees and watched as the woman placed the girl down to play, the girl had with her a mermaid doll, and was busily playing without any reason to be afraid. The woman on the other hand sat by next to a woman, they were chatting, taking out the small shard of Adamas I etched upon myself a hearing rune I hissed at the pain and near gagged at the smell of burning flesh. Focusing on the woman I let myself listen to her voice.

"She looks just like you."

"Yes. Clarissa is quite the remarkable child."

"Do you have any other children?"

"No, just my Clary."

The woman had hesitated before answering. How curious. Focusing my attention on the girl by the pond, she was still playing when a disturbance broke through the water and a low-level water demon reared its ugly head, grabbing my dagger I was ready to throw it at the beast, but was beaten by the woman who disappeared without a trace only to slaughter the demon with one foul swoop of her seraph blade, the girl – no Clary was now crying.

"Come on sweetheart, we've got to go now."

"What was that mummy?"

"Come on."

She just about dragged Clary away from the pond, in her haste Clary dropped the mermaid doll that she had been playing with, soon they disappeared from view and so I approached careful to keep my face hidden from the woman who was now checking her phone. Picking up the doll I examined it…why was she playing with such a toy? At her age, I was already able to kill men with many instruments of war… perhaps she didn't know… the woman was keeping Clary oblivious… her mother… no my mother…. my birth mother was letting my sister… my baby sister…. Clary – Clarissa. Live a lie. Stuffing the doll in my pocket I walked a bit further from everyone and everything else before summoning a portal and returning to the place that was as much as it was my home… my personal hell.

Lilith POV

Slamming my fists against the ebony table I screamed in anger. The guards surrounding the room shrunk away, at a flick of my wrist I heard one of them choke for air before dropping dead and disappearing to nothing.

"HOW DID HE GET OUT OF EDOM. ANSWER ME"

There was nothing, no words, not even a yes madam. This was pathetic in every sense of the word. How did my son, my only child slip through their grip? Their only job was to keep him safe. Fuck I didn't need them. because I was the queen and mother of demons. I was their mistress and I expected them to their job. Clenching my fists, I stared at one of the smaller guards who was trembling.

"You."

They stepped forward

"Please, go send my regards to the princes that my son is missing and that someone under their care let him out."

They disappeared.

"As for the rest of you, none of you will rest until my son is found and brought to me. Am I understood."

None of them gave me an answer, they just did as they were told. Fucking worthless underlings. I cursed at myself for creating such stupid demons. Storming out of what would be my warring room. I made quick work of the hallway and entered the throne room. There my throne as well as the smaller one sat unaccompanied. Sitting on my throne, I felt the weight of my crown land on my head, waving my arm, the doormen opened the door allowing the next of the courtiers to step in and make their requests, their words were meaningless to me, I really only took interest in the ones that were worth something to me, asides that they were mostly dismissed and ignored.

"Lilith."

"Who dare call me by my name."

My name echoed throughout the hall, but whomever stood there was not afraid. Looking up there stood Jonathan in mundane clothing, holding a doll.

"I thought, I was mother." I asked

"Why didn't you tell me? About the woman… or the girl?"

"I have no idea what it is you're talking about. How dare you disobey me. How dare you leave Edom."

"I returned did I not?" He was being stupid confident

Standing, I approached my son. Raising my clawed hands up to his cheeks, almost cupping his face I looked him straight in the eye and he did the same, he was taller than I was at this point… just like his father, what height… not that I expected any different. He clutched in his hands a mermaid doll, least that's what the mundanes would call it.

"What's this?"

"It belongs to her."

"Whom?"

"The girl, my sister. Her name is Clarissa. But she goes by Clary."

I chuckled, so it seemed that Valentine couldn't keep himself from sleeping with that wretched woman. I chose not to take the doll from Jonathan instead looking at him and his eyes, he tried to hide his emotions… tried to mask them, but thing is no child can truly hide from their mother. I could see it, a desire, a want… lust. The demon inside him wanted the girl, his baby sister. How curious. Who was I to deny my son? Taking a step back I licked my lips.

"My dear boy, I believe we've found your missing piece."

"We have?"

"Your sister is going to play a very vital role in the years to come. She will be the key to victory."