'If there is anything better than being loved, it is loving.'

-Wu Chun

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"Ne, Syaoran-kun, don't we have to get ready for the assembly?"

Syaoran nodded at Tomoyo. "Yeah, so hurry up."

She nodded. "I'll get Eri then!"

Tomoyo found her lying on her back at the pavilion, staring at nothing.

"What'cha doing?" asked Tomoyo, curious. She leaned over Eri.

Eri blew into her face. "Curiosity killed the cat."

Tomoyo rolled her eyes. "Yeah, tell me something I don't know."

Eri frowned at her. Right now, she was feeling pissed and she didn't know why. "Can you leave me alone? I'm trying to think here."

Tomoyo pouted and stuck out her tongue at him. "Spoil-sport." She walked away, to leave her currently PMSing (or so she thought) alone.

A thought occurred to her and Tomoyo smirked.

She knew exactly what to do.

Eri sighed, and flipped open her cell and clicked on the calendar app. Her eyes flicked over the days until it landed on today and her eyes widened. Eri sat up abruptly.

Now she knew why she was acting so pissed.

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A ten-year-old Eriol sat at his desk, reading the Encyclopedia Britannica. Why? Because his parents wanted him to be intellectual, not just a genius with an IQ of over 150.

A girl peeked around the door. She said musically, "Eriol, what are you doing here, reading that book?"

Eriol looked up and smiled at his twin sister. "Because my tutor told me too."

Eri rolled her eyes lightly and skipped over to Eriol. "Who cares about that stuffy tutor? Let's go!"

She tugged on him and he followed willingly.

Eriol loved his twin sister more than anything, and she felt the same way. Heck, he even loved her more than his Choco-Pocky! But not in that way.

Her eyes were the exact same shade of his, while her hair, albeit a bit longer was just a shade lighter. Even at the age of ten, her face was perfectly carved and her body was slender and lean. She was the epitome of beauty.

If they hadn't been siblings, they would have probably fallen in love with each other; get married, and have little darling kids.

As long as they were together, they were happy.

But fate had a different view on things.

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It all started with a lockdown.

The principal had gotten over the PA system at the middle school they had then attended, and had announced that there was a student on the loose, with a knife. Terrified, all the teachers had instantly retreated with the students into their room.

Eri and Eriol both had gym, so they had plenty of room. Relaxed, Eri leaned on the bleachers and started talking to Eriol. "So what do you think about this lockdown?"

Eriol's eyes slid over to her as he pressed play on his iPod. "A bit useless. The guy is probably gonna get caught sooner or later by security."

Yes, they were that confident in the school's security.

"Yeah, I agree…" Eri trailed off, looking behind Eriol. A frightened look came into her eyes. Her mouth fell open to an 'O.'

The principal hadn't mention that the person was currently having gym and because of that…

"Eriol!" Everybody shouted at him but he couldn't hear due to his iPod. Nor could he see the girl advancing on him with a knife in her hand, his back turned at her.

So Eri decided to take it into her own hands. She grabbed the top of her twin's arm and turned him around, putting her at the knife's end. Eri gasped as the knife entered her back while Eriol watched, horrified.

Blood sprayed everywhere.

'Nooo! Don't leave meeeeeeeeeeee!'

A storm of emotions went through Eriol as he watched his sister. Fear because of the first person he ever loved possibly dying. Anger because she decided to leave him early. And…sadness because deep down, he knew.

Knew that the outcome would be life altering.

Eri stared at Eriol sadly as she fell slowly. "Looks like I won't be able to keep our promise after all…"

She was referring to the promise the twins had made. Their promise was that when they married, the both of them would have their wedding together. But now…

Eriol fell onto his knees next to his sister. "No, don't talk. The doctors are coming!"

She smiled weakly as everybody around them started screaming. "If they can...but I think I'm too far gone…"

He could feel tears dripping down his face. "No!"

"Sorry…"

And with that, Eri Hiiragizawa's eyes closed.

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The doctor came out of the emergency room and faced the anxious family members of Eri. He shook his head. "We tried everything we could but…"

Erika, the mother Eri was named after, broke down and fell to the floor. Her older sister, Yelan Li, knelt down and comforted her. Their father, Haruka, was speechless. He couldn't believe that his little girl was gone…

Eriol said nothing. He felt hollow. He knew this day would come, but he didn't think so soon. He spoke up. "Can we see her?"

The doctor glanced at him and nodded. Eriol got up and went into the room, leaving his mother and father.

He stood beside the hospital his dead twin laid on. The blood covered clothes had been removed and replaced with a white hospital gown, hiding the wound, and any evidence of it, from sight.

Eri looked exactly like she did when she was sleeping.

But there was one difference.

She wasn't breathing.

Then and there, Eriol decided on the only way to keep his sister alive.

He became her.

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"Eriol, there's a letter for you." Yelan handed her nephew an envelope. He nodded silently and took it.

It was a week after Eri had died, and the whole family was in mourning for her. Getting a paper cutter, he sliced it open and shook out the letter.

'Dear Eriol,' he read.

'The only way you would have been able to get this letter was that if I died before I got married. If I had gotten married, then this letter would have been destroyed and forgotten.

But if you are reading this right now, I am dead.

I'm sorry…'

"What are you saying sorry for?! You're dead!" Those words were shouted mentally in Eriol's mind.

'But you know how our family had 'special' abilities.

Because of those abilities, I knew what would happen with my life and how it would end.

Maybe you knew, maybe you didn't but I think you had a feeling of what I felt about you. So, here I say it for you if you didn't know.

Wo ai ni.

Yes, I know that I should love you because we're siblings. But the love I felt for you was…more.

We should've grown old together; married to people we knew and loved, with our grandchildren playing in front of a warm, fiery, fireplace while it snowed outside.

But it wasn't meant to be. Because…'

Eriol's brow creased.

'Mother and Father probably didn't tell you…but we were both engaged. They were engagements before birth. But I knew that you wouldn't want that and talked to them. Though they might not be loyal to each other, they were to us and canceled the engagements.

I know you will find love again…'

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Eri yawned and placed her hand on the door knob. She flipped open the card in her other hand.

Come to the clubhouse at 3 PM! We have a surprise for you!

-T&S

Right now, she felt irritated. She wanted to crawl into bed and pull the covers over her blue head and sleep. But, she had to see what they were up to. So Eri opened the door.

And had confetti sprayed in her face.

Eri stared open-mouthed as she took in everything.

Tables were crowded with pizza boxes, soda cans, and just plain food stuff. Fahrenheit's I Have My Young was blaring through the state of the art speakers stationed at the top of the room. She looked at Tomoyo in front of her, shocked. Eri stuttered. "What-how-why?"

Tomoyo grinned at him. "Well, I noticed that you were feeling a bit down, so I got everyone to plan a party!"

Syaoran walked over to them, champagne flute glass in hand. "Yeah, she force-I mean, said, that we should do a party to cheer you up." He looked away. "Though I don't know what cheering up you need…"

Tomoyo frowned at the boy. "Not needed."

"And…?" drawled Syaoran. Tomoyo rolled her eyes at him. "Whatevs."

Eri let a small smile slip onto her face. Well, maybe she didn't need to go to bed so soon…

"Come on Eri! Dance with me I love this song!" Tomoyo pulled Eri's hand to the dance floor. "One step at a time!"

Eri laughed at the silliness of Tomoyo. She was just so child-like when she was like this. Eri smiled at her and danced.

"Come on, let's go to the roof and shoot fireworks!" Tomoyo laughed and dragged the group to the stairs leading to the rooftop and up.

She picked up some purple fireworks on the wall and turned to them. "Hurry up!"

Syaoran stuck out his tongue and picked up a green sparkler and lit it. Blue and red sparks flew from the top. "Eh? Where's the green?"

Eri shook her head laughingly. "Baka."

Tomoyo tugged on Eri's hand. "Join me!"

Eri smiled at her. "Yeah, yeah."

'In the form of a violet-haired beauty.'

disclaimer: i dont own...

So, here is the answer to your question. Why does Eriol dress as a girl. I hope you understand now! :D Didn't come out exactly as I wanted but oh well. Reviews are welcome!