Severus was swinging on the playground near his home when at last he had taken himself out of thought about the girl. He finally realized that it had been an entire day he had spent down here, going back into his memory, trying to replicate the feelings of happiness his family and him had once had. He had remembered the first time his parents, once so in love, had taken him to the Zoo. It was the first time that they had gone on a family outing that he would remember for the rest of his life. They saw the monkeys, the lions, tigers and bears but one animal had stuck out to him the most; unlike most little boys Severus did not enjoy the loud apes, or the tall curious giraffes. It was the calm, quiet family of dear resting in their pen. His father urged they move on from them but Severus had felt a strong connection with them and wanted to hop into the pen to be with them. It was like love at first sight for him, as soon as he looked into the eyes of the doe a feeling welled in him that would not be explained to anyone until much later. That was the first, and last truly happy time Severus had remembered with his family. Since then Severus had started absorbing and realizing the growing discontent his parents had used to form a gap between each other; although they tried not to let it affect their boy it did.